Upside Down and Around 3
Nagisa ran into his apartment and cried right when he shut the door. On the sofa sat his sister and her boyfriend, who were watching television. His sister stared wide eyed at the door, surprised that he was home so early. When she saw his crying face she immediately rushed to his side.
She didn't speak as she coaxed him over to the couch. Her boyfriend, a shy man who sort of reminded Nagisa of Haru, turned off the television. Nagisa plopped down on the couch and pulled his knees to his chest.
He cried until it hurt to breathe.
"Feeling better now?" His sister rubbed his back.
Nagisa shook his head. He never imagined such pain before. He didn't want to feel any of it. He didn't want to cry, he didn't want that awful memory of Rei yelling, he didn't want the awkward looks from his sister and her boyfriend. He wanted a time machine.
He wanted Rei to love him.
"You want to watch a movie with us?" His sister's Haru-like boyfriend asked. It was the second time he head the guy speak in over a year. If he was feeling better, he would've made a joke about it. But not tonight.
Tonight Nagisa shook his head. He was tired.
The two left Nagisa to pick himself up. He smiled and waved a goodnight to them. And he hummed all the way to his room. Removing his clothes, he focused in on his picture frames. Almost all of them had Rei in them.
He broke down all over again.
How could Rei be so cruel? How could he be so cruel to hurt Rei?
Nagisa sniffled as he picked up the frame on his desk. The picture was a rare depiction of how sweet Rei could be. Nagisa remembered it perfectly.
They had just graduated and were walking hand in hand to Rei's house. Rei's family wasn't entirely against their relationship. They just hadn't met Nagisa yet. They needed time to approve of their son's choices. His mom had immediately taken a liking to the blond. She found him to be the cutest thing. His father, however, kept glaring at them.
Rei had said he expected that to happen, Nagisa had to remind himself. But what they didn't expect is to have Rei's father want to take pictures.
"It's to commemorate this joyous occasion," His father spoke loudly. Nagisa knew that's where Rei got his voice.
The family huddled together and took a few photos. Then his parents took some. And, through push and shove, Rei agreed to take a picture with Nagisa. It was a bold move on Rei's part, to kiss his boyfriend's cheek in front of his parents.
Nagisa still remembered the laughter that followed as Rei excused himself to the bathroom. It was such a warm feeling.
Now Nagisa was left cold.
He tossed the photo onto the carpeted floor, the frame bouncing and leaving a small crack at the corner.
It was so cold, Nagisa thought, as he fell into bed. He wrapped the covers around him, making a cocoon. It was his safety net from the harsh emotions. From the ugly words, the awkward glances, the happy laughter.
Nagisa never wanted to get out of bed.
I'm sad and tired. You ever have someone you love call you an ugly name? That's how Nagisa feels. Like garbage.
Rei feels pretty shitty too though.
Some sex, reconciliation, and emotions next. Not in that order. Maybe. Idk.