Finally The Truth
By TrueloverKagome
Emotions And Confusion
Authors Note: alright thank you all for being patient with me I know its down right crazy that I've taken so long . I'm sorry I know I would have gotten pissed by now and would have stopped reading at least until the story was fully finished but hey I hope you guys are better than me!! ;P
Kagome looked to setsuna as she waited for the answers as she soaked in the water. She really didn't have a clue what sesshoumaru was talking about as she had always been with Inuyasha who didn't have such things as a beast thanks to his human blood but in truth when he lost his sword he grew one that wasn't able to be controlled.
Setsuna sighed as she knew that she had to answer such questions it would be wrong to just brush it off when it seemed that Sesshoumaru were starting to get a little more aggressive about her and what goes on about her.
"All demons have beast though in weaker ones they are unable to come out or do much in this world but its there none the less as it would be what humans would call instinct for us" she stated to kagome so that she would understand a little more. "Though with demons powerful like the Lord Sesshoumaru. The beast are more aware of what is going on about them and are able to really communicate with the logical side." she said to her as it was the truth though that was when kagome started to really think about that as she had been hearing something in her head pushing her to do things.
"Well then what about his beast not letting anyone touch me? I mean what's that about really?" she asked her as she turned to lean on the side of the spring putting her head in her hands.
"Well one of the man things that a beast will bring out of a person is aggression and over protection to those that the demon in question cares about. The higher the concern the higher the person will be over protective." she said to kagome letting it sink in as she wasn't sure what kagome would think when she heard what she had said.
"So do you think…he cares about me" she asked setsuna as she gave a small nod of her head.
"From the way The Lord was acting then yes I believe he is starting to care more than he wants to show" she said to her and she was dead on with that one more than she knew as they finished up talking and got dressed for dinner kagome couldn't wait to see sesshoumaru again as she felt so much better with where she belonged in the castle as she could only hope that he was going to let her stay. Though as she came up to the dinning hall she saw him in his usual spot but she could tell right away he wasn't in the best of moods.
He was more than upset that he had let his beast out more than he had in hundred of years so why was it becoming so hard now that he was fighting just to keep it caged away. As Kagome came back in she had looked so much better than when he left her that he calmed a bit but not to much so. He was still upset about how things had gone down though there was barely a change in him that would alert anyone to this change but somehow kagome saw that change. There wasn't much talking tonight as rin was tired and kept her mouth shut for once as she just seemed to be ready for bed any moment.
Kagome looked about wondering just what all was going on with the way everyone was acting it was just down right strange to her. She didn't expect rin to be silent while sesshoumaru she was use to. Though as the servants brought out dinner and sesshoumaru started she let herself relax as she ate. She did notice though how sesshoumaru seemed to eat very little. This worried her as she turned to look at him, there eyes met for a moment before he stood and left. Kagome was so shocked by this she sat there for a moment before standing to follow him out. She wanted to make sure everything was alright with him as something seemed strange.
As kagome got out to the hall she saw him as she rushed up. He was quick to spin around looking down on her with a colder look than she was now use to. "What is it you want?" he asked her his voice cold enough to bring the next ice age as kagome took a step back.
"I was worried so I thought to offer you some company" she said to him as he looked her over putting on a look of disgust before even speaking she felt the pang of sadness and pain
"This Sesshoumaru will never want such a wench's company" he said as he turned to leave he left her there almost in tears as she stood there trying to keep her head up high. She wasn't going to let him see her cry no she refused to allow such a thing but the moment he was down the hall and around the corner she turned and ran off to her room. She left rin to setsuna knowing that the kitsune wouldn't return until the job was done. As she just went right to bed shedding herself of her kimono and left the inners of it on as she laid down just letting the tears flow as in the springs she had let herself hope and dream that maybe just maybe she had something here. That she would be wanted and loved by another that saw her as an equal. Though when sesshoumaru had said such things it was instantly gone. Why had she even let her heart think even for a second that sesshoumaru would be any different than inuyasha when it was obvious that he wasn't. They both didn't seem to care about her emotions anymore than the ground that they walked on. No she would never be cared for by the way they acted she was sure of that.
~With Sesshoumaru~
Sesshoumaru sat in his office as he went about doing any kind of work he could find. He did this for days on end only to stop to train with kagome though as the days went on it took less and less instruction and turned into more of sparing matches. He only spoke when he was correcting her when he felt that something was out of place. Her strength and talent showed through the days though he tried his best to not think on the matter. He didn't want to think on her at all actually but he had made a promise to train her and that was what he would do. Anything past that he stopped. He no longer attended dinner or any of the meals did everything in her study. He knew that he couldn't handle his beast so he was going to try another route with it. To avoid the one thing that seemed to get it so riled up. Though even with this it seemed on edge making him just wish that things would get better if not for him for kagome. He could see it as she slowly took into a slight depression though you could only catch glimpses of it, it was certainly there she just kept it hidden as not to worry rin or setsuna.
There was a sudden knock on the door that brought him out of his thoughts as he looked up he saw kagome standing there. She seemed pale at the moment as she stood there waiting for him to fully let her in. He gave a nod as she came in fully and shut the door. He wasn't sure what she wanted as she had been here over two weeks so he wasn't sure just why she was here so as she sat there he pushed his things away.
"Did you need something?" he asked her as she nodded her head.
"Yes I need to return home tomorrow as to visit family" she said to him as she was turning twenty-one two days from now. She really did want to see her mother again not only to have that comfort but to enjoy her birthday with her family.
"What is the reason" he asked her as she took a deep breathe
"My birthday is within two days I would like to go and spend it with my family" she said to him as sesshoumaru actually seemed surprised. Though in truth he knew what would happen while she wasn't just all that sure yet.
"I will take you at day break" he stated to her as she was a little shocked that she didn't have to fight over going or not. Sesshoumaru noticed this and wondered just why it was like that for her as his mind went over to think that maybe that had been something that inuyasha had done. Had the hanyou truly stop this girl from returning to her family during all these years. Even he knew how it felt to return home from time to time more so when he was further away than he liked.
"Thank you" she said to him as she stood and gave a small bow before returning to the door leaving as fast as she had gotten there.
Sesshoumaru stood as he thought more on what to do. He didn't want to admit that he might be falling for the one his father had choose for him as he had at a young age decided that he would not be influenced by his fathers decisions thought he wasn't sure what to do in such a moment. Kagome would need him on the way back to the castle that much he was sure of so he had to go with her. But he felt something in him that wanted to make her smile again like she had before he had said such hurtful things out of anger and confusion.
~The Next Morning With Inuyasha~
Sango was getting a little worried about her friend they had been looking around the western lands for kagome for three weeks now. Though kikyo only joined two weeks ago but she could still feel that something was off about her. She seemed a little lighter than before as she seemed to be a little happier than usual today like she knew something was going to happen. Though as if on cue Inuyasha jumped down from his tree as he gave a growling getting everyone's attention.
"Sesshoumaru" he growled out as he rushed to kikyo getting her before rushing off after them. He didn't even stop and wait for sango and miroku as they rushed to follow after jumping onto kirara as she jumped into the sky flying to catch up. Though when with kirara they were way behind as shippo hung onto miroku's shoulder praying that his mother was finally found.
~With Sesshoumaru And Kagome~
Kagome stood on Sesshoumaru's cloud as she stood close to him. She kept her eyes down as she leaned against the lord. He was still and hadn't said all that much before she knew it though he was lowering down to the ground. Kagome looked up to him as she was a little confused. As they reached the ground she stepped away just in time to sense the shards kikyo had with her from being with inuyasha for so long. Though as she looked to sesshoumaru he was facing just the way that they were coming. She wasn't sure what to think as she knew something was going to happen but one thing that shocked her was when inuyasha showed up with kikyo on his back. She gasped as she took a step back not out of fear but out of hurt that she had already be replaced. Inuyasha stood up as kikyo slid off his back.
"Finally you come out to play Sesshoumaru" inuyasha barked out as kikyo just smirked and sent daggers at kagome making sesshoumaru step in front of her.
"Things never change with you. Lose one you take another without second thought" sesshoumaru said to inuyasha as it seemed to hit a nerve with him and more so with kikyo.
"She is nothing but the copy. Why have that when you can have the real thing" kikyo gloated as inuyasha stood taller at that comment while kagome seemed to sink into herself as she heard that.
"When one chooses something dead of the living they've lost it completely" sesshoumaru said to them as he didn't believe that kikyo could ever compare to kagome. Kikyo was one to hate and wish harm to others while kagome she wanted to help and care for even those that had done such horrible things.
"Don't you talk about kikyo like that she's not dead!" shouted inuyasha as he was so in deinal over kikyo as he finally jumped into the battle as he pulled out his sword going for sesshoumaru as fast as he could. Sesshoumaru was fast enough though to dodge while still keeping in front of kagome as to protect her.
Kagome really didn't know what to think as she looked at the brothers fighting. She was use to it yes but not like this. Something was different before sesshoumaru would just fight to keep inuyasha at bay but she could see that sesshoumaru was actually putting more of himself in the fight. She hadn't seen that even with their sparing she knew when he was toying with her and when he was actually having to try and keep her at bay. Though here he was actually trying to hurt inuyasha while before he had only put enough of himself that he thought while still holding back. She didn't like how that was as she did see inuyasha as a brother more so than her love now. No she had feelings for another and wasn't sure what to make of it all.
Though as the battle drew on inuyasha drew sesshoumaru away kikyo grew closer to her. Kagome didn't even notice it til she felt the arrow coming as she drew up her barrier as the arrow just bounced right off her barrier as kagome gave a smirk happy that she had gotten much better with her powers as she looked to kikyo who had a shocked look on her face she wasn't sure what to think as she had thought that she would be able to kill kagome without inuyasha having to do it for her. Though as kikyo looked kagome over she started to notice the change in her. She was much stronger and the swords at her side told of how she had been trained.
"You will die" kikyo said as kagome just laughed. She really laughed as she shook her head.
"Thats where your wrong" she stated to kikyo as she pulled her sword out going on the attack. It was shocking for kikyo to see kagome charging at her. All kikyo could do was draw another arrow but before she could let it go kagome was on her with speed kikyo had never had before. Kagome gave a smile as her sword went deep into kikyo as she gave a cry. It was that cry that caught the guys attention as Inuyasha rushed to kikyo he was there within seconds to bring an attack down on kagome as she jumped back skidding back as sesshoumaru showed up in front of her to protect her.
"You bitch how dare you harm her" shouted inuyasha towards kagome as she stood up and just put her sword away as she looked to Sesshoumaru.
"May we please leave now" she asked him as she was sick of this. though just as she said that was when sango and miroku appeared it was within seconds that shippo was running to her as she bent down picking her adoptive son up holding him close to her.
"Oh mama I've missed you" he cried into her as she gave a gentle smile as she stood holding him to her. She hushed him as she rubbed his back before looking to Sesshoumaru as to ask if shippo could stay with her. She didn't even need to say the words as he nodded his head before turning to look at her friends there were coming closer. Inuyasha had taken off while she had been paying attention to shippo.
"Kagome oh thank god your okay" sango cried as she came up to her giving her a hug as kagome gave a small laugh as she held her sister close.
Kagome pulled back as she looked to her. "I'm fine really" she said to her with a smile as she looked over the both of them. "I'm sorry I just couldn't come back" she said to them as they both nodded their head.
"We had thought you had good reason to leave without warning" Miroku said as he fully understood her reasons even if he didn't know what they were.
"What is it that made you leave anyway kagome" asked sango as kagome visual tensed as she looked down to the ground.
"I found inuyasha promising to kill me so kikyo could come back" she stated as both where shocked at such a thing had been promised. Miroku placed a hand on her shoulder as sango understood as well.
"Well then I say we're leaving that group as well such a thing isn't right" Sango said as kagome was a little shocked at that.
"But where will you go" she asked them as they looked to sesshoumaru.
"They will join us. They can easily help you train" Sesshoumaru stated as if he was talking about the weather and not about adding more to their group.
Kagome looked up to him a little more than shocked though she was so grateful she could have never asked for a better thing. "Thank you" she said to him with a smile as she hugged sango again. "I have so much to show you back at the palace Sesshoumaru has taught me just so much" she said to them as they saw her light up at the mention of what sesshoumaru had taught her. They both nodded her head as they took a step back. "I'm going home for a few days though I'm sure things will be fine while I'm gone" she said to them with a smile.
"Whats happening there?" asked shippo as he didn't want her to leave when she just got back.
Kagome gave a smile as she couldn't help but tell them. "Its my birthday tomorrow so I'm going back to spend it with my mom then come back" she said to them with a smile. They were shocked that they had forgot such a thing.
"Oh kagome happy birthday sorry we hadn't known once again time just flies" miroku said to her as she nodded her head.
"Yes well i must go I'll see you guys again on the way back and be careful" she said to them as she turned to leave with sesshoumaru. She kept shippo with her though as she wanted him to stay right there with sesshoumaru now she finally got him back and she didn't want to take any chances. Sesshoumaru didn't stop her as he felt that maybe he could get some info from the fox so to get kagome the perfect gift when she returns. He knew that the past two weeks that he had to get over himself he knew that the moment he heard her talk about him in such a way to her friends. In that moment he had felt so proud that she was proud of him. It was so confusing for him but he could tell that making this miko next to him happy could only bring good things.
As they reached the well they touched down and couldn't help but wonder what to say to her. He knew that she would be gone longer than she thought at least a good week before she was back. He knew that her mother would want to train her of her powers that only a mother could.
"Alright Sesshoumaru could you watch shippo for me I'll be back soon two days or so" she said to him as shippo looked to sesshoumaru a little shocked that kagome trusted him but as he jumped over to sesshoumaru's shoulder trust his mother in this. "I'll see you later" she said as she came up to the lip of the well before jumping in letting the swirl of blue lights take her to her home. As she came over to the future she looked up to the well house ceiling happy that things were finally going to relax. Though she was so wrong about that at least today she would be able to relax while tomorrow she won't be able to do such things.
Kagome got out of the well as she reached the door opening to see her mother there waiting like she knew she would be back. kagome gave a smile as she ran to her mother with tears in her eyes. She had missed her more then usual while staying with sesshoumaru. She wished so much that her mother knew what was beyond the well. Her mother had known her daughter would need her so the wait for her to return was worth it as she saw her running over. She held her close as she knew that sesshoumaru might have said or done something during the past two weeks. She knew all to well how sesshoumaru would fight what his father had decided for him.
"Kagome I have to tell you something about your father" her mother told her as she knew that this was something that had to be said. "Tonight you'll find out....your not human" she said to her as kagome looked to her mother a little more than shocked more so confused. "Your really a black Inu Demon of the Northern lands" she said to her daughter. "This entire family is demons when...things became dangerous for you your father and I decided hiding you in this time would be best" she said as kagome sat there in front of her mother as she was told all this. She couldn't believe most of it. "Tonight the spell we put on you will break and you'll have your true form back" she said to her with a slight smile. "Trust me my daughter things are fine" she said to her daughter as kagome nodded her head.
"Somehow....I can't help but think I've known all this time" she said to her mother as she knew that this was going to be something new for her.
((alright I know that's a crappy ending but hey you guys get to know what she really is no I was not going to make her into a silver dog like sesshoumaru. No I think her being a black dog would be better. The next chapter will give you how she will look and more detail about how Sesshoumaru and Kagome were arranged to be married if you haven't already figured that much by now if not there you go . sorry if I did ruin it for you. I'm glad I finally found my muse so I hope to keep the chapters coming))