Chapter 8

[A/N1: I feel guilty for not posting anything yesterday, so I`ll post today 2 chapters.]

[A/N2: ...time gaps and inverted chronology.]

As Sasaki apologized for taking the woman`s time, he leaves together with Saiko. It seems like a long walk when he is silent. Saiko would cling on his sleeve for his parental hand, but she was out of space. She understood how he might feel. Even though that was Kaneki`s apartment, Sasaki got a special bond with his other ego.

"Damn...! What have I done wrong to be treated like this...? I know Sasaki is broken right now, but only because he feels guilty or powerless against his past events..." She shocks head walking behind Sasaki thinking for herself.

Common daily noise rings around them in the city. It was a boring late afternoon and as she hanged with him to the coffee shop in the first place and then here, she knew it was nothing good about their journey.

"Yet a broken heart is better than a cold one... that`s why Sasaki is nothing like Kaneki and he must live on...!" Her internal voice was fighting to speak up.

"Saiko-chan..." He seemed serious and she felt uneasy.

"Yes?"

"Please, keep it for yourself." Even if she was one step behind him, he turns showing his usual kind smile. It was all fake, but he couldn`t do anything to help that painful sight.

"Mhm." She nodded looking away.

He sighs quietly hiding his sorrow and continued walking till the resident area. She points at some building and both reached in. It was deconstructed.

Night. It was a little hard to set himself free from Saiko`s tight hug. Kaneki didn`t want to leave her all by herself, but she knew she can return to CCG and inform others. He planned to go in Aogiri. There was the right place to find Amon and a few more answers.

Thanks to this raved fall, the night was cold and dry. Probably his favorite season, but more like the perfect ending.

He didn`t feel bad for locking Sasaki away from this world. Saiko was like his own daughter and even if he`ll die, she will keep Sasaki as her good memory. Kaneki smiles at the thought and passes in.

"Almost there." Sasaki`s voice talks inside his head. If he would be mad at Kaneki, he would probably be honest with himself, but no. It was true that Sasaki wanted what is the best for Kaneki.

Not realizing that he reached the abandoned docks, a shady figure landed and welcomed him.

"Tch." Kaneki gets in guard seeking for the fast ghoul who lurks faster than his eyes.

"Konbanwa, Kaneki-kun. How did you escaped from Arima`s hands? Did you run away?" It was Amon`s voice and this made Kaneki sighs in relief and retire his urge to haunt down the enemy.

"Konbanwa..." Kaneki smiles by luck rubbing his chin. It was almost the sunrise.

"Early hours of the morning are so refreshing near the shore." Amon breaths in enjoying the salt breeze at docks. The sick moon was barely lighting himself not far from Kaneki`s sight.

"Amon-san. Are you here by yourself or did Etto-san asked you to take me?" Kaneki trusted Amon.

"I`ll tell you, Kaneki-kun, but I want to know about CCG first..."

"I left CCG in this morning. I showed to my child all humanly places she can go anytime for support if I won`t return..."

"I heard that CCG made researches on your kagune while you ware dead ..."

"Dead? Dead?! What do you mean dead?!" Kaneki`s eyes blow up stepping in and grabbing the tall man`s collar with despair.

"You died... two years ago. Arima killed you."

"Did I... really... died...?" His eyes were trembling trying to remember anything about his last fight with Arima. His head only recognize the pain but everything was pitch black. He lost his eyes back then.

"Kaneki-kun, I`m sorry..."

"Why everybody is apologizing to me...?" He feels weaker than Sasaki, always in the wrong place and no matter if he remembers when he was alive, he can`t tell what happened in the dead gap. He was smart and linked everything. This is how he figured it out that Saiko bears his kagune. It is true he didn`t remember anything for a short period of time but he couldn`t guess how long it was just nothing there for him. When he woke up as Sasaki, he built everything from nothing. He gained good friends and he even woke up with a child. Kaneki was asleep and gone.

"You have no idea how much I wanted to talk to you, Kaneki-kun... I don`t think it`s the right time to face the one eyed owl. If anything will happen to you, I won`t be able to find my own answers..."

"I... I am fine with that..." This mental fight gives him a strong headache and his view goes blur again around Amon. His weak fists clinging on the man`s collar lowers to his chest and then all his body collapses in Amon`s arms. Silently Amon picks the guy up and vanishes in the pale morning shadow.