Chapter 9

Saiko arrives home. Shirazu and Torou were waiting impatiently in the living room, while Urie was around listening music in his headphones. The blue haired girl`s got her usual twin tails looking unsightly messy. This reliefs that Sasaki was gone and nobody took care of her hair.

"Where have you been, Saiko-chan?" Torou welcomes her with arms wide open patting her hair and smelling the gross scent . She didn`t say a thing but Urie from behind sniffed it too and stepped aside.

"Maman went to suicide...!" Maybe she didn`t mean it that harsh, but she can`t coordinate her inner voice with the world outside.

"Wha-?" Torou gasps.

"Where is him right now?!" Shirazu takes leadership and comes at Saiko. He shakes her concerned about this situation.

"Don`t go harsh on her...!" Torou tries to protects Saiko, but he`s too angry to control himself.

"He went to Aogiri!" Saiko shouts and breaks out from his hands.

In a few hours Torou fixes Saiko`s hair and asked her to change up and dress up for a proper meeting. The Quinx group goes to meet Arima and inform him about Sasaki.

Kaneki wakes up agitated like from a real life nightmare. He wasn`t sure where he was, but his framed memories from last night spins around Amon. That man come in the abandoned room, opening the metal door with his back as his hands were caring two cups of coffee.

"Where...?" Kaneki gets up fast throwing the dirty blanket away and just realized that he was sleeping on the concrete. Maybe he was too tired to feel the hard floor.

"It`s safe here." Amon shags and hands him a cup.

"How did you know that I woke up?"

"I didn`t."

"Thanks..." He takes the coffee and starts to sip loudly. It was warm and good.

"Aren`t you going to ask me where did I learn to prepare coffee?"

"No, I`m not interested." Kaneki was way colder than Sasaki and he didn`t feel bad speaking his mind.

"As expected." Amon chuckles and pats his grey hair. "I bet you know how much mental and physical pain I dealt after you felt me half dead... I don`t blame you, but I better died than to turn in something I hate the most. A ghoul." Amon shows a kind sobriety.

"Amon-san... Even if your limbs are torn apart, you have to run... to live on."

"...that was Shinohara-san`s quote. I miss my old days in CCG..." Amon is not touching his own coffee cup. "Kaneki-kun, I heard most of your story but I want to ask you, how was it for you?"

"Amon-san... There are questions that I can`t find the answer for myself... How shall I feel about Arima who killed me, yet saved me?! I`m so mesed up, but I know that it`s not only my drama."

"Kaneki-kun..." Amon notices how Kaneki`s rage burst out slowly and his ghoulish eyes shines red. He knew what is going to happen and stands tall.

"Please, don`t try to stop me." He shows his scourging kagune and pushes Amon from his sight.

"Do you think dying is a solution? Is there anything you want to do before it`ll be too late?"

"There are people I want to see for a last time, but time is my enemy right now. I can tell that CCG will come after me and there is no time to waste. I`m sorry, Amon-san." He was thinking how worthless he felt watching Sasaki making love with the girl he loves. Touka couldn`t tell if he wasn`t Kaneki. After all Sasaki was always kind and gentle for her taste.

There was also Tsukiyama-san who was left behind and probably will die of starvation because of him, but he was too afraid to redirect to his Palace.

Quinx team means a lot for him, but again he can`t return now. He would be treated as ghoul and probably will die in vain. He met his peace knowing that Saiko will not put herself in danger since she`ll stay under CCG protection.

And yet, Arima, who is even. He trained Sasaki to become an inspector and probably they will end up killing each other, while Kaneki`s task is Eto. She was the root of all evil.

As the grey haired guy opens the metallic door, Amon grows his own kagune. Koukaku, the same like the old manager. "I ask you reconsider your chose, Kaneki-kun."

"Amon-san, you said that you want to ask me a few things before I blacked out last night. Ask me." Kaneki turns around wearing a smiling mask.

"How did you bear all of your burden all this time without any support? Was it as painful as it was for me?" Amon growls powerless grinding his sword kaguke on the wall behind.

"Mhm. If you already know why are you asking me?"

"Eh?" Amon growls looking at Kaneki`s clear face. He looked pleased with his face or at least the guy`s expression was deceiving him, because it was painful for himself. All this time he found answers by himself and he learned about Kaneki`s puzzled story.

"By the way, Amon-san. Your step father from CCG prison misses you. He won`t be able to see you again, so he wanted me to tell you."

Amon`s eyes widen in surprise, but he wasn`t able to say a thing. In a matter of seconds Kaneki`s rinkakou was stabbing in into a tight hug. Tears rolls on Kaneki`s face hugging Amon and letting him falling on the wall. He kept the taller man there rubbing his forehead on the wound and mixing his tears with Amon`s blood.

Those silent sobs on the man`s chest were futile. He let Kaneki to cry as much as he wanted. His pats his hair feeling his pain as his wound heals. Amon understood the feeling. Kaneki didn`t have any other family member except a daughter bearing his kagune. They were the same lying about the only family member they have.

"Kaneki-kun..." Amon`s hand gets tired rubbing the boy`s hair and Kaneki`s tears didn`t feel as wet as before. Probably his tears dry, he thought. He grabs his grey hair way too raw and lift his head. It was the same weak sight he saw in the boy`s eyes back when they first met. But now Kaneki`s ghoulish eye matches with Amon`s cursed one. Both smiles a little sadly. He swore he would kiss the boy, but the memory will kill himself from the inside later. All he could do was to hold the boy tight in his protective bare arms.

"I don`t wish to fight you..." Kaneki struggles to go.

[A/N: Another Tokyo Ghoul manga* references.]