This story is for my cat who had to be put to sleep last year.

Tell me what you think!

3 months since last chapter.

BPOV

After searching hard, and going to many job interviews, three months later from when I was fire, I still had no job.

And what's worse, is that Paul has decided not to pay child support in that time. SHE had something to do with it - I was sure.

I looked at all the bills there was the pay, not knowing how to use what little money I still had. Mortgage or electricity? Heating or phone? Water or internet? Which would make sure Nessie didn't suffer?

I put my head in my hands, wondering again how my life had become so bad. My eyes moved to my cell phone and thoughts of my father came to mind. I still had the same cell phone from before I had Nessie - I was too busy while she was a baby and toddler to care about it and after that I just couldn't get a new one. It only had my parent's, Jacob, Seth, Paul, Embry, Quil and Angela's old number in it. Oh, and the Cullen house number. Jacob insisted I got that put in so I could always contact the pack. Some of the wolves had imprinted on "half-breeds" (half vampire, half human), so there was always some wolves in or around the house. Not many people know that, simply because (even though the wolf has no choice in who they imprint), the imprint is still part vampire and that is viewed as full vampire and therefore against the tribe law. Or something similar. It's all stupid to me.

Now I think about it, maybe I should call Jake. Nessie and Wolfie were at Paul's... or Billy's. God knows where that man I knew in high school went. He would never have left his child on someone's doorstep just because someone told him to.

I was almost glad his mother wasn't around, because I would've made her yank him by the ear and give him a good talking to!

Maybe it's just easily to be disappointed in your ex-husband though?

WPOV

'You're snoring!' Sammy chanted in his head until I woke up. I'd fallen asleep on some tree roots to have my usual nap and the pup thought it would be funny to wake me. I batted the smaller pup and rolled my large eyes at him.

'Yeah, yeah. Whatever. Have you found your happy thought yet?' I'd found that when phased as a wolf, you could have a very joyful memory that made you feel good whenever you thought about it, and it would phase you back to human. It was much easier than calming down; because it was instant. Some wolves just had a code word that they could think or hear and it would change them because of the link to the memory. We haven't found one for changing to wolves yet, since I haven't finished reading the legends.

Sammy shook his head. He hadn't been able to phase back for two months now. When he first phased, Bella had to come and calm him down. Seth dragged her from work! She had a close connection with all the wolves - she knew what all of us loved. She was so caring and motherly that it calmed it almost immediately. Can't say he was calm though when he opened his eyes to find he was naked in front of Bella!

After that, Bella came down a few times to get him to calm, but she hasn't been able to come for the last two months, so we've been stuck trying to get him to calm down. Or in my case, help him find his special memory.

'Maybe I don't have any joyful memories...' Spammy thought sadly.

'Well, what makes you happy?' I asked.

I saw a flash of something in his head then he was blocking it out. He had an odd look on his face - sheepish?

I questioned him and he grew nervous. 'I guess, when I annoy Nessie. I always say I hate her, but I love her really.' I felt that usual pang of jealousy - she was my imprint after all! - but when I looked in his mind I was relieved when I saw him loving her as a cousin. Or more, a sister. He liked being the annoying older brother to her.

'Try and find a memory of you two that always make you laugh or smile. It may work.'

He didn't like my suggestion but tried it. I watched silently as he flicked through memories of Nessie. Some of all three of us , others of just the two of them and memories and watching us two on the beach from a distance. Those confused me - it made him sad...

'Do you have some of your friends at school? Just a thought.' I suggested and reassured.

Sammy slipped - I saw him at school and he was getting bullied. Nessie had told me that he hung out with the bullies at school, but even though he was bigger and mentally older, he was made to do their work and bully younger kids. In one memory - I saw that they were threatening him with Nessie...

Both of us grew angry and released growls at that. I quickly checked and made sure no other wolf (from either pack) was listening or watching. No wolf.

Sammy had a thought (not a memory) of sticking up and protecting Nessie. At that - he phased!

I smile a Wolfie grin. Yes, I had a grin named after me! Courtesy of Bella.

I phased back and we both changed into our cut off jeans then did our handshake. It was much easier to do now, since he was growing taller and faster.

"Well done! Even if your 'phase-back' is of my imprint - at least you are protecting her where I can't." I smiled.

Sammy chuckled and scratched the back of his neck. "Yeah, I guess!" He chuckled to himself.

We headed back to the Cullen house - in case there was any extra food - the quick way. We found some cool slices of pizza (not that they'd be warm anyway because of our average body temperature) and finish them off. No wolf I usually talk to is here, so I go back to the woods and head to La Push, remembering to run through the river since Nessie hates the smell of Vampire. It's funny - I smelt it all the time and even though I should hate it, it's not so bad once you get past the burning of your nose. That sounds harder than it is, but it just takes time to adjust to it I guess.

It's only now I notice it's dark out. I'm definitely Mr Observant today!

I speed up after washing in the river. I quickly dry from the wind and my body heat. I just want to get home now!

I find myself in Nessie's room in no time - thank goodness!

I change and phase. Jumping onto her bed carefully, so as not to wake her. I curl up around her - noticing I must have grown again since half my leg is hanging off the bed...

Oh well!