I sat silent, my hands crossed over my lap as I sat up in the bed. My shoulders were stiff and my head positioned downwards.
"What?" I asked quietly. I could feel I was on the verge of tears. I could feel the wetness at the edge of my eyes. I could feel my body shake agains't my hands under the thin fabric of a blanket. I heard Hange shift in her chair.
"I'm really sorry Eren..." Her own voice was quiet, so much that I strained to hear it. It was strange coming from the woman who always seemed so energetic and excited. I heard her boots shuffling against the floorboards and her chair shift as she stood up. Her boots banged against the ground as she began the walk over to the left of the room. I heard the door click and squeak as she opened it.
"I wish I could help" Those were her final words before she left the room, the door closing behind her. I listened to her footsteps slowly fading as she, I'm guessing, walked down the hall. I stayed in the same position, my back pressed up against the uncomfortable pillow. I didn't move an inch, but I could feel the tears slowly roll down my face. I raised my head as I heard the door open and close again. Whoever entered must have been light on their feet, unlike Hange, who seemed to stomp about.
"Hey Eren..." His voice was low, consisting of his deep, smooth voice even in a whisper.
"Hello Corporal, sir." I murmured. We both stayed quiet. He seemed to stay at the door unless I didn't hear him move around. The silence was slightly thick and strained. It needed to be broken.
"I'm blind." I stated. I raised my head and turned it towards where I guessed the door was.
"Yeah you are..." I could hear the slight sadness in his voice. I sighed quietly.
"I don't know whether to laugh or cry." I whispered.
"Well you're doing quite well on the crying part." When I didn't respond, I could hear him walk over to the bed. Suddenly I was surrounded by warm arms. They wrapped themselves around my torso and pulled me close. I leaned against what I supposed was his shoulder. Tears leaked out my eyes as I sobbed quietly. My own arms clung to the fabric that was either his coat or shirt. I couldn't tell the difference. One of his hands rubbed calming circles around my back.
It took a good while for me to regain my composture. That time was spent with me sobbing onto Corporal Levi's shoulder and me muttering "How am I supposed to fight titans now?" and his reassuring words. When I did regain composture and could make coherent train of thoughts, I apologized but he simply reassured me again, saying it was fine over and over again. He never got impatient with me.
After I had some time to recover from other injuries, even though I didn't really need to with my regenerating powers, Hange decided now would be the good time to tell me what exactly happened.
"Eren, as you know, we were on an expedition outside the walls. We came accross a large mass of titans, I'm not sure if you remember, but quite a lot of them were abnormals. You fought them quite well and even went into titan form after a while... but one of the titans got to you in the nape of your titan's neck." Hange took a deep breath at that point. I nodded quietly, urging her to go on. "And it pulled you out of the titan. Captain Levi killed the titan that was quite close to killing you but when the titan ripped you out, he accidentally damaged your face. The rest of you regenerated just fine, but your eyes were quite damaged. It seems that the regenerated wrong... we're really sorry Eren..." Hange let the sentence fade out. I sat there for a moment and let the words sink in. There was always a chance if you re damaged my eyes again that I could regenerate back to the way I was originally, but I guess the risk was too high. I just nodded at Hange again.
"Thank you for telling me." I quietly responded.I felt her hand on my shoulder.
"No problem Eren." I could hear the smile that was on her face. I already could tell that it would be one of those pity smiles, but I was too tired to be annoyed at her pity. I probably did need it anyway.
Ever since I became blind, Corporal Levi had helped me out. He started by guiding me around the headquarters, but it soon escalated to him feeding me and helping me get dressed. At first I was embarrassed and a little pissed off, but I soon learned that I could no longer do these things on my own. I now accepted his help after many days of being stubborn and insisting that I did everything on my own.
I also noticed that my other senses became a lot sharper. I could hear a lot better, smell and feel stuff a lot better. I could guess what things looked like by feeling it all over and I could guess where people were by their breathing or movements. I could tell other stuff with my scent, but not nearly as much as my other senses could.
Another thing was that I noticed development of feelings towards Corporal Levi. I already harboured a crush before the accident, but now it was becoming a little more serious. But I had no clue if he had mutual feelings. That was up until he kissed me once while he was feeding me. After that we talked about it and found that we both harboured the same feelings.
At the start we took it slow. We told the rest of the Scouting Legion about it, but not many people had a problem, and the people who did got a punch in the face from Levi or a sharp kick from me.
After all that happened, I kind of forgot what seeing was like. But that was okay. I didn't miss it then.
It was all okay then.
I actually really enjoyed writing this. I hope you enjoyed it too. This is probably one of my longer one shots.