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With Ben In Between
Dear Alec,
Believe it or not I'm writing this letter at my own will, not someone forcing me. Bad joke and bad beginning, but I was never the one with a way of words that was you. I was the dutiful soldier who didn't know anything but that and when I was faced with a reality I didn't know I took it out of you. I'm sorry.
It's been almost 5 years since I last talked to you, little over 4 years since you stopped calling and writing me. I guess me ignoring you gave you a message. A message I really didn't want sent out, but was too stubborn to do otherwise. For that I hate myself.
Something has changed in me in the last two years, I met someone, her name is Max and she is everything I could ever want in a girl. Yes a girl finally changed me, you were right. I met her when she first moved to New York and I think I feel in love with her from the start. She's stubborn bitch who doesn't let anyone tell her what to do, you would love her, and with this letter I hope you will meet her soon. I'm wanting to marry her, but before I do I want to make things right, right between you and I. I want us to be a family again, and I want Max to be apart of it. The family we had outside of Manticore and dad's pride. I miss it, and have from the moment I cut it off. I've never been able to forgive myself for doing that either.
I seem to be going in too many directions with this letter, but oh well. I have so many things to say, but have no idea how to write them out. I've been a coward for too long, and in a way still am. I'm writing you a letter instead of calling you or driving to see you. But I guess I'm hoping you'll do what I'm afraid to do. Maybe once we are face to face, I'll be able to tell you everything I've wanted to say since that day 5 years ago.
What I can say, again, is I miss you, and I miss being your brother.
Your brother,
Ben