I sat thinking away in Mr. Shield's class. He never paid much mind to me now. Maybe he thought of me like he thought of Ann now. I hated the thought. I was crazy though and I knew it. I couldn't even talk to my friends about this because it was my teacher and based off the reaction of what they thought of Ann liking him made me know they wouldn't be supportive or understand.
Homecoming was this week too. Everyone was in a buzz to ask each other. Amara got the nerve to ask Michelle and I was so excited for them, I even asked if I could take their pictures, yea I had some photography skills as well, Raye got asked by Ann's brother Alan which was a little weird but I was happy for her, Ami got asked by that guy Greg in her class and she was radiating happiness, Lita got asked by some hunk in her class, and Mina of course got tons of invitations and we hadn't even been going here for a month now, but Mina was contemplating saying yes to those three guys she has been having a dilemma with. As freaking usual I had no one. Maybe I could ask Mr. Shields for some company with some tutoring. God who was I kidding I was beginning to sound as desperate as Ann. I put my head between my arms and let out a sigh.
Mr. Shields gave me a questioning look, oh now he acknowledges me, "Please Serena, do whatever it is you're doing on your own time not mine okay?"
I nodded bleakly. This was my last week being his assistant after school. He was starting to avoid me now. He usually left me a note with stuff to do and I did it and left without ever seeing him. It was very disappointing. I had two days left of him if I even saw him. I wasn't even sure how I felt. Did I like him? Was it in the heat of the moment? I had no clue and I needed one last time with him to be sure this time I needed to have a steady hold on my emotions to be sure.
The bell rang disrupting my thoughts as I headed out to the lunch room. I walked slowly to our table and sat down with my group. The girls all looked at me worriedly.
"Sere are you okay?" Raye asked first.
"You seem off?" Ami looked worried at me.
"You aren't even eating anymore," Lita said.
It had been true I wasn't eating but it wasn't because I was sad or forcing myself to not eat I just wasn't hungry anymore. I was just confused. Really confused on how to feel.
"Is it Diamond?" Mina asked rubbing my back gently.
No it would never be Diamond. After my crying fest with Mr. Shields, the next day Diamond wasn't in class anymore someone said he had been expelled because our school had no tolerance for harassment. Call me crazy but I don't see a coincidence in that. I didn't really care what happened Diamond he could rot in hell for all I cared but did Mr. Shields do it? And if so why?
"Serena talk to us please," Ami urged.
"Guys I am fine, I am just sad I haven't gotten asked to homecoming." I lied I was upset by it but not that upset.
Was I even upset? I didn't even know the answer to that.
"Well I can get someone to ask you!" Mina smiled.
"Mina I don't want some guy to ask me because they think it'll get them brownie points with you," I said.
This was true I wanted to be asked by someone who wanted to ask me.
"Hm maybe someone's just shy and is afraid to ask," Lita suggested.
"Or they know you're too good for them so they're afraid," Raye smiled.
I shook my head at them. The bell then rang indicating us to head off to our next class. I waved goodbye and my way on to class.
I set my stuff down in the class room and headed off into the bathroom. I looked in the mirror at my appearance. I looked a bit run down. I still looked decent but my hair seemed less shiny and my eyes bagged from my many sleepless nights where I sat up all night and contemplated all my feelings trying to get a good grip to only be left more confused.
I took a sheer lip-gloss out and applied a thin coat to my lips. I don't know why I try I still look terrible. As soon as I was done with my appearance someone else walked into the bathroom.
"Oh hey Serena," Michelle smiled at me.
"Hey Michelle," I gave her a warm smile.
I really liked this girl and especially for my sister, she seemed like her mellow half to her crazed half.
"You okay? Your sister seems really worried about you," She said looking at me.
I was tempted to tell her but I knew she would turn around and tell Amara, "Yea I am fine, just not sleeping so well these days."
"You know if you need someone to talk to, you can talk to me I won't tell Amara unless it's some crazy stuff," She giggled.
"Anyway, here," She said handing me a flyer, "I am showcasing in a concert here at school, you and Mina should come with Amara to see me," She smiled.
I smiled at her and said, "I would love to, I'll ask Mina as well, you know she's been crazy busy since she joined cheer and got in you know."
"Oh and Serena, try this," She said handing me a lipstick tub with thick thick cream colored of skin, "This works miracles on eye bags."
"Thanks," I smiled and left the bathroom and headed back to class. I had two more hours till the day was over and I would see Mr. Shields. Well I probably wouldn't see him but hey I tried to stay optimistic. I needed to see him though. I needed to get my head wrapped around this.
The day carried on sluggishly slow. It was agonizing. When the final bell rang who would have thought I would look forward to my after school punishment with Mr. Shields, I practically darted to his room almost expecting him to not be there but I was met with surprise to see him sitting in his desk.
My breath caught as I saw him while I stood in the doorway. I tried to control my breathing as I made my way into his room. I sat down in a desk waiting for him to give me something to do. I waited and he said nothing. He didn't lift his head up from whatever he was doing to acknowledge my presence. I took advantage of this moment to study his features. I knew he didn't wear a ring so he wasn't married, but was he unavailable? I didn't even know I ignored this and continued to study him; I studied past his fingers up to his wrists that just showed under his black blazer of his work outfit. His wrists had blue veins pop out that intrigued me so, I wished to trace my fingers up his veins to wherever they would lead me. I then followed my eyes up his arm covered by his blazer. His arms seemed muscular but I wasn't sure with the thick blazer. I continued my journey up to his neck which was exposed, I died to trace my lips down his neck leaving kisses that drove him insane. I made my way up to his face. His chin and jaw were so chiseled and perfect I wish to place kisses there as well, I stared at his lips then where I contemplated for who knows how many times on what he tasted like. I then looked at his eyes which weren't making eye contact with me, but I could see a hint of the midnight color, I knew how much more lovely that color was when it stared down at me. I looked at his midnight black hair that looked like silk, oh how I wished to run my fingers through it.
I realized that many minutes had gone by while I studied this man's features. He was like a model it was shocking now I knew why Ann had a thing for him. I was tired of waiting for him to notice my existence so I decided to speak out.
"So Darien," I started but was met with a bewildered look in his eyes.
I blushed deeply noticing I had called him by his first name. Oh god how would I explain this.
"I am sorry," I started as I looked down hiding my eyes from his behind my bangs, "I heard it before from Ann and wondered what It would be like to say myself. I know you hate it but it's so much of a nicer and warmer name than Mr. Shields, which sounds so much colder you know?" I said quickly not lifting my head.
"Serena stand up," He said with no hint of emotion in his voice.
I complied and stood up knowing I was about to be in more trouble.
"Look up at me," He said.
I complied again but felt extreme fear. Blue clashed with blue. There was that full midnight color I was talking about. His face didn't seem angered or anything. It read something very different, something I hadn't seen on his face before, I couldn't read it.
I felt my heart race as I looked into his gorgeous eyes. This was definitely not good for my sanity and my emotions I knew that. What happened next completely caught me off guard though.
He cupped my cheek gently. I felt my face warm where his hand rested. Was this really happening? His thumb gently touched my lips. I parted them slightly and kissed the top of his thumb gently.
'Was I really doing this? This was my teacher!' my inner conscience argued with my actions.
I looked into his eyes again, he stared back at me. He then closed his eyes and pulled my face up to his. I debated on fighting it but I so desperately wanted to know what those lips would feel like against my own. I closed my own eyes right before his lips came into contact with mine. His lips brushed against mine swiftly. I swore I felt a spark.
I felt saddened when he quickly pulled away after that split second.
I went to open my mouth and ask what was wrong when I was interrupted with a knock at his classroom door. I paled a bit, but Mr. Shields remained his composure and didn't even seem phased by the knock and went to the door, leaving me standing in the front of the room. He opened the door revealing Ann. Oh she sure knew how to interrupt anything that had to do with Mr. Shields.
"Hello Ann," Mr. Shields greeted her.
She made a death glare with me, great now she hated me again, and then looked at Darien, I mean Mr. Shields and replied sweetly, "Oh hello Darien," She purred his name.
I felt my skin crawl. Why was she talking to my Dar-, I mean Mr. Shields like that, I internally corrected myself.
"Please Ann call me Mr. Shields," He said annoyed already, he sure didn't wear his emotions well but this time I could read his annoyance loud and clear.
"Well, Mr. Shields, I need help with my homework, like right now. Right now," She purred hiking her skirt up a bit giving him a view of her panties.
How vile of the bitch. I felt myself fuming internally she was asking him to fuck her.
"Ann, I am currently preoccupied with Serena here, can you just get another student to help you?" He groaned.
"But Mr. Shields," She whined.
"Another time Ann," he said practically pushing her out the door and closing it behind her.
When he seemed calm again I finally decided to speak up.
"So about the," I started.
"It didn't happen," He said.
"But?" I tried again.
"Again it didn't happen now you're excused." He said.
I sulked a bit and left his classroom to find a fuming Ann outside.
"Serena what did I say about staying away from my man?" Ann said.
"Leave me alone Ann," I said trying to push past her.
"Not until you leave Darien alone to me," She said.
"Ann don't you get it? He doesn't like student like that. Not you or me get over it," I said practically speaking to myself a bit there too.
She shoved me against the lockers and grabbed me by the neck. I was pissed now. I glared down at her feeling a struggle as she tightened her grip around my neck. I raised my leg and kneed her in the stomach completely winding her and sending her crashing to the ground. I fell back against the lockers trying to catch my breath after she released her choking grip on my neck. Just then Mr. Shields walked out into the hall from hearing the ruckus we were causing. He looked down at Ann then back at me with his eyes full of disappointment. He pulled us both into his classroom.
"Ann and Serena," He fumed causing me to shrink back a bit.
"What the hell is going on," He yelled.
For once I was surprised Ann stayed silent. I too became quiet.
"Ann, Serena if you don't speak soon I will be reporting you both to the principal." He said.
"We were just arguing," I said meekly.
"It looked more than argument," He said raising an eyebrow at me.
"Ann, you owe me a three page essay on what happened today including an apology on what happened, now leave," He barked at her.
Once she left the room his disappointed eyes made contact with me, "And Serena, I will speak to you tomorrow."
I got up and left his room feeling even more conflicted with all of today's actions.
A/N: Hope this wasn't too soon for anyone. Anyway I probably won't be able to update till next week I have a crazy week ahead! Anyway thank you for kind reviews and follow and review if you liked the chapter –heart-