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He was being as soft as possible with her, though her body had dramatically healed, he knew her mind hadn't. Moving a stray piece of hair out of her face he placed a small kiss under her ear and felt her body tense up under his touch.
"Olivia if you're not-"
"No," she whispered reaching up and cupping his face in her hands. "Just, can you tell me you love me?" She asked in a shy whisper, her eyes drifting closed in embarrassment. Never once had she asked a guy to tell her that they loved her, normally it was the other way around for her.
His breath hitched hearing the vulnerability in her voice. "I love you, Liv. So very much," he told her kissing the palm of her hand that was still resting on his cheek. She smiled and nodded, her eyes filling up with tears. Happy tears. Relieved tears.
He leaned down and placed a slow kiss on her lips, then pulled back to see that she had let her eyes close. He leaned back down again and let his kiss linger a few more moments. "I will always love you, Olivia." The words falling from his mouth so calmly, you would think he had been saying them for years.
"Show me," she whispered looking up at him with a content smirk and she pulled down lightly on the back of his neck, making his lips meet hers again. But it was deeper this time, she could feel it everywhere in her body.
She felt his hand slide down her frame, it lingered on her stomach for a moment. Goosebumps formed under his touch and she let out a shuddering breath as she rested her head back against the pillow allowing him to do as he pleased with her body. She trusted him completely, and needed him to know that.
"You are so beautiful," he whispered against the skin of her chest, he trailed open mouth kisses on her silken cleavage till he met his destination. She let out a small gasp let her hand move from the back of his neck to the top of his head, and she pressing slightly.
She hummed in appreciation feeling his hand move down her legs now, bringing her shorts with it. She let out a not so happy groan when he pulled his mouth from her breast to continue pulling her shorts from her body. She looked down at him as he placed soft kisses up her legs.
Her breath got caught in her throat as he placed a kiss on the word weak. She closed her eyes and laid still, stiffly, on the bed. She knew he why he was being so affectionate with her, but he didn't have to take it so far.
As he moved up her body, she began to feel more and more uneasy. "Talk to me so I know it's you and not…" She trailed off in a shaky voice, feeling his hands move to her waist.
"I love you Olivia," he said again, hooking his fingers in the side of her boy-cut panties. She swallowed and nodded, letting him know that she heard him and that she was ready. She held her breath as he slid them down her legs with ease.
This made her think of how happy she was to have those stitches out, and her wounds healed, or very close to it. Then again, if Lewis had never hurt her she wouldn't have to be happy about something like that. 'Dammit!' She mentally scolded herself for letting him in her mind. 'I am not doing this right if he is still there, in the back of my mind,' she thought.
She stopped thinking for a moment and looked down at him, he was paying very close attention to her legs. For a moment she wondered why, but then shook her head not caring.
"Come here," she whispered at him, and when he looked up at her she let out the breath she was holding.
"I love you Olivia," he repeated climbing up her body, placing an open mouth kiss on her stomach. Nodding she slid her legs up the side of his, but she felt that he was still wearing his sweats. She sat up slightly and dipped her fingers into the side of his pants and pulled them as low as she could, then laid back down.
She slowly blinked and looked up at him with an innocent smile as she hooked her toes into the band and pulled them the rest of the way down. He raised an eyebrow but she just smirked and reached up, attaching her lips to his.
"Hmm," she hummed into the kiss feeling his hand slide from her knee up to her hip, pulling her leg up and letting it rest on his hip. Opening her to him slightly. She gasped into their kiss feeling his fingers brush over her mound.
"I love you Olivia," he said breaking the kiss so that he could look her in the eyes, letting her know that it was him, no one else. She bit her lip, and moaned feeling him slide a thick finger gently into her wetness. "I love you so much Olivia," he breathed against her ear, placing kisses all over her neck.
She let out a soft cry feeling him insert another finger, it slid in with ease since she was already ready for him. She figured he was just testing her to make sure that she actually wanted this with him.
"El, please," she begged with a soft whimper. He looked down at her, unsure. He wanted her… He wanted her so bad. But he just wished he knew what was going on in her mind, because he knew what was going on in his.
'Is she doing this to please me? Is she doing this to forget? Is she doing this because she thinks she owes it to me?'
Aligning himself with her entrance, he reached up and cupped her cheek. "Olivia look at me," he said, no demand in his voice. He knew her captor would use strict voices with her, he did not want to do that. Her eyes blinked open slowly as they focused on his. "I love you Olivia. Me, Elliot Stabler. I love you. This is you and me."
A few tears sliding down her temple into her hairline, a happily sad smile covered her lips as she kissed him. "You and me," she whispered back taking a deep breath.
"Are you still sure? We can stop Olivia," he told her, he knew he was probably pissing her off second guessing all of her decisions, but he wanted her to be sure. "Please know that I won't be mad at you if you want to stop..."
"I know that Elliot, god, I know that," she nodded frantically. "That's why I want to do this." He blankly stared at her, surprised she was letting him in. Even if it was only a little bit, he was still thankful for that. "I trust you Elliot. You will be the only man I will ever be able to trust, be able to touch and make love to me. Though I will never be able to give myself to you fully, I love you and I do trust you!" She stressed "So please, break the last border that is sitting between us?"
Nodding, relieved with her answer, he kissed her again. Then once again repeated, "I love you Olivia," as he slid in.
Gasping, everything in her body tightened, and her nails dug deeper into the back of his shoulders. She let out a strangled moan as she arched slightly and pressed her head back into the pillow. She didn't want to break eye contact with him, but she couldn't stop herself from closing her eyes, tightly.
He let out a quiet groan as he slid in completely. This was the moment they had waited for their entire friendship. "I love you Olivia," he whispered into her hair at the side of her neck.
"I love you too," she cried out as he pulled out then slide back in. "Oh god," she moaned, her body shuddering; but for the first time, it wasn't out of fear.
He kept his pace slow, but deep. Allowing her to feel every inch of him, he nipped at her neck. But he kept them light, so light there wouldn't even be a red spot. He knew what that thing had done to her was, he saw photos, then he saw the real thing. He didn't want to do anything that would remind her of that moment.
She cried out when he lifted her leg higher allowing him to move deeper into her. He picked up his pace and she bit her lip to try and hold in her cries. She was close and she knew he could feel her getting closer. She threw her head back and let her eyes drift shut, running her hands up Elliot's back.
"You like that?" he growled into her hair.
Her eyes snapped open, wondering if Elliot had said that or if it was just her mind playing tricks on her. She closed her eyes again, trying to shake him out of her head. As she moaned, she also heard Elliot growl.
"I feel you clenching," he chuckled into her hair, biting her neck.
Her body stilled, something Elliot noticed but not in time. "No," she whispered, tearing falling down her cheeks as she started fighting. "No!" She yelled.
"You love feelin me inside you," he laughed pinning her down to the bed.
"I hate you!" She cried out fighting against Elliot, not knowing it was Elliot. "I fucking hate you, stop touching me!" And with one swift shove Elliot was off of her and on the floor. She brought her legs to her chest, grabbing the pillows behind her and covering herself the best she could.
He sat in the floor in shock, he knew it wasn't really him that she was talking to but he felt as though her words were directed to him. He watched as she cried, sob, into the top of her knees. Her body shaking so hard he was afraid she was seizing.
He hated himself right now. He hated himself as much as she hated that bastard. He knew she wasnt ready. But he did it anyway. 'Why the hell did I do it?' He yelled at himself, but then his face softened. 'Because she asked me to, and I would do anything for her.'
He looked up at Olivia, still sobbing, and let his own tears fall down his face as well.
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