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Olivia lay contently in Elliots arms, they had been so exhausted when they they finished making love that they just passed out, leaving all the lights on. She buried her face deeper into his neck, inhaling a scent that was pure Elliot. For some reason she couldn't wipe the grin from her face, she was so happy, and it was all thanks to Elliot. It's always thanks to Elliot.

She pulled away slightly and admired his face, he looked so aged; but he had aged gracefully. It was clear he didn't look his age, and she momentarily wondered what age she looked now. After all the beatings she had taken.

She shook her head hating how easy it was for that thing to pop into her head. She looked down at the man beside her again and carefully brought her hand to his cheek. She smiled seeing him unconditionally nuzzle into her touch. "I love you," she whispered so lightly she could barely hear herself. "I love you so much," she continued. "I am so sorry that all of this is so complicated.

"I wish I could make it go away, if not for me, then for you." She pulled her hand away from his face and snuggled back down into his grasp, she heard him let out a small moan as she pressed the side of her face back to his chest and rested her open hand on his lower stomach. "I hate what he did to me," she said once he was still and she was sure he was still asleep. "I hate that he ruined me, making it so that I can't give myself to you completely. The worst part is the way that he did it.

"It was so awful El," she said in a harsh whisper, finally having the nerve to tell him. Or, well, sleeping him. "The way that," she swallowed, but pushed through. "I was laying there completely at his mercy, I was… God… I was completely naked, he was just walking around the bed. Staring at me and taunting me." A few tears were falling from her face and landing on his chest, little did she know was that was what woke him up. "The worst part, was he kept bringing you up… He didn't bring you up exactly, but... He knew. The only reason I lasted as long as I did with him is because I was constantly thinking of you.

"He told me that I would… Cry out your name." A soft bitter laugh fell from her lips. "I didn't for the longest time… What good what that do me? I laid there.. I tried not to fight back El, I really did! I knew that was his favorite part but... As soon as he was on top of me, in me." Her eyes closed tightly as she felt the memory start to rise up, but she pushed it down. She wanted to talk about it, not relieve it. "I couldn't stop myself, I fought, and I fought hard… Not that it made a difference," she scoffed. "He just kept going…" She seethed through her clenched teeth.

"He would bite me… Everywhere. The second time he… He raped me… I woke up, to him… Shoving himself in me, I felt the pain of him, and the cut… I passed out from the first time and thats when he branded me," she told his not really sleeping form. "I guess he was right, I couldn't even handle the first time and it was probably the best of the worst. The second time he was… He would do this thing where he would act so calm towards me, I always thought I would be able to talk him into letting me go or at least getting me medical attention, but when I would ask he would just go back to his angry self. Anyway, the second time, he was soft, gentle… I'm not saying that I felt… loved… I just didn't feel, hated. I knew he was bad El… I did, me... But apparently my body didn't," she scoffed, her hand on his stomach tighten as she continued telling him what happened the second time she had been raped.

She was getting angry and he could tell, but he didn't say anything or even move.

"He would touch me… Much like the way that you did last night," she admitted, and for a moment she thought she felt his body tense up but figured she was just gripping his skin to tightly so she let up. "It felt… Good. It was awful El. I hated every minute of it, but... My body didn't. He would grunt like you, and… And kiss my body like you, and he would say these… These sweet things." She took a deep breath and swallowed back her sob.

"After he was done the second time, he went out; I don't know where, and I didn't care. But he was gone for almost a whole day." Her fingers ran through the short hairs on his chest, mindlessly. Somehow it comforted her, and she continued, "When he came back he made me drink more vodka, and eat this gross stuff that was supposed to keep you full all day. After I ate, he did it again. It was like he..." She stopped, trying to find the right words.

"It was like once he got me... He couldn't stop doing it. Most of the time it was rough, and it… God it hurt so bad. But then on days where he would come back from god knows where, he would be so gentle..."

His heart ached for her. He wanted so badly to touch her, and hold her and kiss her and tell her that Lewis is dead and he can't hurt her anymore, but he couldn't do it. He couldn't bring himself to move. He was frozen; frozen with fear, anger, sadness, confusion.

Her tears dripped onto his skin. They were hot and it burned, only because they were tears that she should not have to ever shed.

"Elliot, I cried for you, just like he said I would. I screamed your name out while he raped me; hoping and praying to God that you would hear me and come rescue me." She nuzzled her head into his chest, feeling his warm body protect her from her mind. "But you didn't hear me. No one did," she whispered, she let out a strangled sigh then pulled herself from his grasp. When she sat up she wasn't surprised to see that his eyes were wide open.

"Liv," he whispered, reaching out for her but she shook her head. She blinked a few times, the action pushed a few tears out.

"I'm going to take a shower," she told him, standing. She walked to the end of the bed and grabbed her towel that she had been wearing before they made love. She stared at him for a moment, this was not how she planned the morning after she finally slept with Elliot. "I would really like you to join me." That's the last thing she said before she turned and walked out of the room, and into the bathroom. It was the only sign she gave him, and she hoped that he could still read her the same way that he used to.

Elliot was shocked, for so many reasons. But he was so proud, she had done the two main things that they both feared she would never be able to do. One, tell him about the rape and two, let him love her. He wasn't going to lose her.

He knew that if he sat there too long she would think that he didn't want anything to do with her anymore. So he quickly jumped from the bed, not bothering to cover himself. He walked into the bathroom steam already filling it.

He knew she wasn't going to be completely okay for a long time, but the point was, she would be. At some point, she would be okay. They would be okay.

The End

A/N: Guys, I am so sorry it took me so long to post this. I kept meaning to but then I got sick, I have strep throat and I feel like I could die! It's like I am swallowing broken glass! But the way I feel outside has no competition with the way I feel inside. I am just so full of stress at the moment, that's why I am taking a break from all my stories (Except the new on #SixWordChallenge, if you haven't checked that out I suggest you do. And send in a request!)

Also, for those of you who were excited for Alex (The Congressman) and I to write a story together, I am sorry to tell you that we are no longer going to do that. We haven't really been on the best level lately; we kinda had a falling out, but he is also having problems with his grandparents and their illness. I am sorry, I really am. All this bad news.. I feel like an angel of darkness!

So, I hope you guys enjoyed this story. Ilianna and I had an amazing time writing it! When we find another amazing idea we are going to start another story together, I don't know when that will be. I want to finish my stories before I start anything new.. My brain feels like it is going to blow up... I am falling into another dark spot..

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