Ellie pov
I waited for what seemed like hours for his reply, until I couldn't wait any longer.
" I have to get ready." I said walking to the door and holding it open. He made his way to it without protest. And I knew that his lack of answers or protest meant bad things. Pushing the thought to the back of my mind I got ready for the races.
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After the races.
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Han pov
Everyone was back at the garage partying and drinking, when Gisele came up to me.
"Han can I talk to you?" She said over the music.
"Sure what do you need to talk about?" I asked.
"Can we talk in private ?"
"Sure. Let's go to the office."
We headed to the office at the back of the garage.
I shut the door behind me and went to lean on the desk."what do you want to talk about ?"
She began to move towards me until she was standing in front of me.
"Han I've been thinking about staying in Japan. And I was wondering if you would if you would let me stay here for a bit?"
"Sure you can." I said. There was a bit of an awkward silence while I waited for her to say something more.
"It's just I'm not sure your girlfriend would like it, don't you think you should ask her before you say yes. " she asked sounding a bit nervous.
"She'll be fine with it."
"Thank you." She said as she hugged me.
As we stepped outside of the office this music seemed even louder. I looked around for Ellie not seeing her with Twinkie, Earl or Reiko. I was about to give up when I finally spotted her Sat by the bar with a half empty bottle in her hand. I walked over and took the empty stool next to her.
"What we drinking?" I said taking the bottle from her. I waited for her reply hoping that some of the anger from earlier had disappeared.
"Not sure. " she said back, still not looking at me.
"Ellie about earlier, I-"
"Just- just please don't."
"No Ellie listen to me. Your important to me. Your the most important thing to me and I love-"
"Han" she pleaded as she finally looked at me. But she wasn't smiling or even remotely happy, no instead she had tears coming down her face. "Please don't say it, especially if you don't mean it."
"Ellie I love you." I said taking her hand.
"But it doesn't change a thing. Not really and you know it Han."
"What are you talking about?"
"I can't stay her, with you. I'm leaving, I have to, just for a bit so that I can think about things."
"When?" I asked completely shocked at the direction our conversation had taken.
"The day after tomorrow." She whispered
She got up and left me sitting there on the stool.
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14 days later
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She had been gone for two weeks and was finally coming back home. I realised Norwich she really ment to me the moment she told me she was going. She hadn't called once while she was gone, she said she needed space. She didn't want me to get her from the airport she said she would get a cab. When I tried to argue with her about it she just told me it was her decision not mine. So all I could do was sit around and wait for her to get back.
Ellie pov
Spain was hot if my tan was anything to go by. My sister had booked me into on of those holiday resorts full of hot young people looking for a good time. And I was to. Or at least I thought I was. Maybe it was just that after experiencing partying in Tokyo nothing really compared. Or maybe it's because after being surrounded by hot young people for the last three years has made me immune to their charm. Actually scratch the last one. I'm surrounded by Han most days and I'm still not immune to him.
Who am I kidding. It wasn't the atmosphere or the people. It was just the one person. Han. H was the reason I couldn't hook up with some random person. The reason that I didn't feel like partying. The holiday had just made me realise just how much I wanted to be with him. He was my drug. My weakness, but he had hurt me so much. If he was my drug then maybe, just maybe it was time to go cold turkey. Kick the habit. Go to rehab.