I was ready to move to my "dream-land", LA to realize my dream, to become a music producer. But I hadn't told Chloe about my plan yet. I was on my way to her engage party with Stace and her boyfriend, Noah.
– Shorty is going to make a speech today? – Noah joked – Let's me guess, a fucking lengthy love-confession to Chlo on her engagement, like Rosie does in Love, Rosie?
– "No matter where you are. Who you are with. I will always, truly, completely love you"? – I smirked – Sounds pathetic!
– So, you are going to tell her today? – Stace asked
– Yeah. I think so
We arrived at Vanessa's bungalow near the coast a couple of hours later
– Wow! I've known her for like 3 years, but I have no ideas about this fucking awesome place she owns! – I exclaimed
– Well, this, – Noah gestured the view in front of us, is breathtaking! I might work my damn whole life to buy a mansion by the coast like this
– The party is not big as I thought – Stace pointed out.
There were only Vanessa's car, ours, and Audrey's, Van's best friend, in the lots. We were waved by a bubbly redhead who was standing by the porch. The sight of my favorite redhead really made my day. Though, the closer I got near, the clearer I saw a tall dark haired feature holding her from the back. I heaved a sigh at that
– Heyyyyyy! It took you like forever to get here! – She patted my shoulder and giggled
– Bitch! Your fiancee's place is like half a world away from my place! – I deadpanned and let her pull me into the house.
We talked a bit about Van's house, which has stunning view to the beach and other stuffs, then Van entered the room. The first thing she did when she found us, of course, as a matter of fact, kissed her fiancée and greeted me. They kissed again in front of me. Shit!I knew I had no rights to get mad, but it's awkward to witness the whole thing. The obvious tonner Van had for Chlo, and the way Chlo reacted..
I went out to grab my thing with Noah and Stace then came my fave redhead
– Do you want to go out for a walk a bit? Van is going to get some food down town, so only us – she winked
What? Why did she mention our privacy? What the hell am I thinking?
– Sweet! It's been long since I saw sunset. Let's go!
We reached the coast, only 5 minute walk away from the house, in comfortable silence, but yet unusual for her.
– Chlo, do you remember the job at Universal that I told you? – I broke the silence
– Yeah! You talked about it like, 23 hours a day, so how can I forget. What's about it?
– I got the job. Umm.., so, I'm heading to LA.
– That's great! Congrats, hehe, you got your dream now! So when will you go? Did you tell anyone about it?
– Actually, I'll leave tomorrow.
– WHAT?! – She almost yelled at me for that, obviously shocked – Why didn't you tell me earlier?
– I don't know where to start. Like, it's just hard to tell you. I… um, like, don't want to leave you. It's gonna be so clingy..
She didn't say anything but walked along side with me to the rocks, and sat there. The waves and cool breezes out here were divine. The sun was going down
– Is this the first time we watch sunset together? – She asked
– I guess, we did, but in the city, with skyscrapers on the view
She rolled her eyes – I mean, seriously
– Don't you think this moment you should be with Van? She's waiting for you back home, for sure. And I'm here stealing her girl – my word did hit me hard. God, she's going to hate me for this! – I diverted the conversation
– Are you an idiot? You are going to leave tomorrow, and you want me to be with her, not with my best friend? Seriously, Bec? – There's irritation and anger in her voice
– Why so serious, Chloe? You know, even I'm not here physically, but I will always be there for you, you know it, right? I will visit, for sure! – I smirked
– Stop smirking like that! – She now, really yelled
– Hey, look, Chlo –
She refused to make any eye contacts with me. I had to cup her chin and had her face me
– I know you are stressed, and I'm leaving this time is suck, but it's not that I'm not coming back. And by the way, tell me what's wrong with you? Obviously there's something bothering you!
She said nothing but tears were forming in her eyes, and she let out.
– Man! Stop crying! Fuck! – I have always been way too clumsy comforting other human beings. It's her, always, comforted me, not me vice versa. I didn't know what to do – Please!
Between her sobs, I heard "I…. Va…." and even the sobs were louder
– You are leaving here because of me, right? Just… Don't… Please.
Shit! Why the fuck she blamed herself for me pursuit my dream, like leaving for LA?I didn't know what to do. Looking at her hurt, hurts. I didn't know what to do! Fuck! What to do?! My head was still on its debate but I found my lips on hers. Her sobs were stopped, and for a moment I felt her tensed. I was about to pull back, but she kissed me back. Oh my God!I did can feel fireworks behind my eyes; my waist and my neck where she held felt chilly burning hot. Her lips were so silky soft, like, even softer than anything I could ever imagined. Her hot breaths were divine. Like, the moment of my life, forgetting everything, but her lips; our tongues battled for dominant when no one was willing to give in. When air became an issue, we broke apart.
I was dazed completely. Totes blushed. Couldn't look at her now.
She spoke nothing, but gazed at me..
– I..I…I'm… Um…I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that! I was just… What the hell! It was a dick move. I'm so sorry. I'm dead! Fuck!
I became even more confused as she looked at me, the look that I knew deeply she was broken. But even in the semi-dark out here, I can see her bright red cheek..
– You guys! Dinner's ready! I've been looking for you guys everywhere! – Van chimed in
We didn't say anything but followed her back to the house.
The night was perfect, then we all headed back to our homes, telling each others 'Goodnight'
Heading back home, I drowned myself in the mattress, and the flashback of the kiss came to me. It was a relief and burden at the same time. I didn't know. Burden, maybe, for everything in the future in our friendship. Now, may thank to the kiss, become friendshit; and relief.. maybe for all the years of sexual tensions that I had for her. I was dying to hold her in my arms every night in the other way that usually did, even I'm not a huge cuddler, but for her, I am! She once said I'm a softie ball inside the tough badass appearance.. I smiled to myself at our memories, that might no longer, thanked to the kiss, I bitterly acknowledged.
The next morning, I was flying to LA, my dream land, the land that will separate me from my love. I was ready, anyway. Before they announced the flight, I got a text from a guy that long wanted to be with me
[Jess]: See you in LA! So excited to see you there! Xoxo
Maybe, it's time to move on. I really should listen to Stace, to love somebody really loves me rather than someone I love desperately unrequited.
I had a solid 4 hour flight sleep until I got to LA. Switched the mode back to normal, I received another text message from Him
[Jess]: I'm at the waiting room now! Xoxo
I sighed, Jess and Chlo has the same upbeat hyperactive characteristic. The thought of her brought my heart a missed beat. Let it aside, I got my luggage and someone ran into me caused me drop my phone
– I'm sorry! Are y…
– CHLOE! What are you doing here? – My jaw dropped at the sight of her, in Los Angles!
– Let me explain this!
Chloe was sitting out the porch, she could eavesdrop the conversation between her best friends and Noah
– I know it's very hard for you this time, but actually, you've been waiting for Chlo for like, 5 years now, now it's time to move on – Noah's concerned voice
– He's right! I think you should move on, and have a fresh start in LA. It's obvious that she has feelings for you, but she just doesn't admit it for some reasons, after everything, you'd better go and get someone that really love you and want to be with you, don't be stubborn like this! This will lead to nowhere
– Why? But why does she turn it all down? Sometimes she pulled me so close, sometimes she kicked me out.. I don't know, dudes! It's hard to let go these feelings
– So go and get her? – Noah suggested
– I can't! She's my best friend, she chose to ignore my love. Besides, Van just asked me to stay away from her. Such an asshole! But she's right, if I were her, I don't want anyone hug my girlfriend all the time – A smile passed my face
So, the reasons she was distant these days were Van asked her! I'm not ignoring your love, weirdo! I just cannot stand it if you turn it down. And relationship, it always ends up in silence, no one could talk to the other the way they did before. I don't want it, especially, with you… It's better to have you as a friend that never let go of me than a girlfriend that I might lose and lost forever, might be, someday. I don't believe in anything so called 'Forever' – Chloe thought and bite her lips so that the sobs couldn't be heard
– What's that, gorgeous? – Van asked Chloe as she noticed the tears in her girlfriend's eyes, and gave her a hug
– I'm just thinking…
– Yeah? – Van raised her eyebrow at that
– Do you… Do y.. I mean… What if I'm in love with someone else?
– Who's that, baby? Is that Beca?- She frowned
– H..How do you know? – her eyes widened
– I just know. Even it's really fucked up. I know, you will never love me the way you love her, but in the beginning I still want to make our relationship work out
The wave of guilt washed over Chloe as she felt disappointment in Van's eyes, that she was maybe cheating on her girlfriend for her best friend; that she only went for Van because she's the safe option for her, because she knew she cannot have her best friend. She knew she fucked up, such an asshole for being with Van for nothing more than a distraction…
– I'm so sorry baby! I don't want to brea.. – Her sentence was cut but Van's
– I understand! – Van sighed – I… um, it's weird to say this, but, I'm breaking up with you. Go and get your girl. And tell her, if she ever break your heart, I will personally rip hers out of her chest – She winked, trying to hide the sadness
Chloe hugged her girlfriend, her ex-girlfriend, just knew nothing to say
– I'm sorry…
Chloe and her girlfriend just broke up. She, who was really cynical about love, decided to give it a shot with her best friend. She booked a flight to LA the next day. With the determine to make Beca her girlfriend in mind
The next day, when she was freaking out because she couldn't find the small brunette anywhere in the air port, and she frantically tried to call Beca, but there was no answers, no answers from Stacy or Aubrey too… then she ran into someone
That's Beca – her heart jumped in joy and relief, that finally she found her girl