AN: Thanks for the reviews and opinions on where I was starting to take this story! It seems Catorade was a definite no, which is fine. Maybe I'll do another story in the future to vent my Catorade outlet, but I made it obvious Cat has feelings for Tori and Tori thinks about Cat, so I'm going to deal with that in this chapter. Don't worry though it's definitely staying Jori! Also just so everyone knows reread chapter 3 if needed I was planning to do something with Cat in this fic all along I just took an extreme I wasn't planning in the last chapter.
Tori:
It was Friday and the day was almost over, it was almost time for my weekend with Cat. I was nervous about this she had been acting weird around me all week being all touchy feely and finding any excuse to be around me. Me and Jade had talked about it and chalked it up to being she just wanted to provide me comfort after the whole bathroom incident. Honestly though sometimes when Cat comes up and gives me a hug sometimes, or sits down next to me at lunch and sits so close she's practically in my lap I notice Jade get a look of jealousy in her eyes.
Me and Jade had talked about my scars on Monday. I cried some and she comforted me, I explained why I had hurt myself so much but truth be told I think she already knew why. I also had asked Jade if she'd like to go with me to one of my therapy sessions sometime and she happily agreed. Life looked like it was looking up. I hadn't been happier than this since I had first gotten accepted to Hollywood Arts.
Things with my mom and her boyfriend were getting more serious too. She sat Trina and I down on Wednesday after school and asked us how we would feel if Mike (her boyfriend) moved in with us. He wanted us to move in with him at first, but he lived to far away from mine and Trina's school for us to drive to school everyday. Trina was happy and told her she'd love him to move in, I on the other hand remained silent. I liked Mike and all, he was a good enough man it seemed but whenever I looked at him I saw my dad in his eyes.
Maybe it was just the fact he was an older father figure I'm not sure but whenever he looked at me a shiver of fear went down my spine and I felt slightly sick. I never told my mom this as I'm sure it was all in my head and I didn't want to ruin this relationship for my mom.
I was forced out of my thoughts as the final bell rang signaling school was over. I let out a sigh, stood up and walked out of class. After stopping by my locker I headed for Jade's car where I would meet up with Cat and Jade. Jade had given me a ride home every day this week and even hung out at my house for a while every day after school. I smiled at this thinking of how affectionate she could be with me on those lazy evenings with us lying in my bed, homework forgotten about, cuddling and telling each other about our pasts before Hollywood Arts. She already knew the biggest thing that had happened to me before we met so I wanted to know all about her past.
I got to the car and Jade was already standing there giving me a wide smile when she saw me approaching. I looked around and saw no one was looking so I stepped up to her and gave her a hug and a peck on the lips. She blushed and eyes got wide head turning to make sure no one saw. When she realized we were safe she gave me a peck on the check. Kissing between us had gotten a lot easier. I was able to hold down a ten second kiss no problem now. When tongue was added I could go a few seconds for sure, we never went much longer just to be safe. Things had even gotten pretty heated on a make out session Wednesday night and I had let out a small yelp of surprise when she grabbed my ass and squeezed it.
To both our surprise, and pleasure, instead of getting emotional about it I had let out a moan instead. I think that was a major break through for us.
"So where's Cat?" asked Jade. I was about to respond that I wasn't sure when hands threw themselves around me from behind and I heard a squeal.
"Tori! I'm so excited for this weekend," came the voice of Cat. The hands quickly disappeared and she materialized in front of me with a huge smile on her face. I glanced over to Jade to see her glaring daggers at Cat, but when she realized I was looking her face softened and she got inside the car. I took the passenger's side seat and Cat got into the back of the car.
The ride to my house was fairly quiet as Jade seemed to be lost in thought and Cat seemed very interested in her nails while every once in a while glancing up to me and smiling softly. I let out a sigh. I couldn't really deny it anymore Cat seemed to have a crush on me which I was honestly fine with. I mean it was a surprise I had been sure she was straight and if I had known she was interested in me before the Jade thing happened and had known she could be as supportive as she had been lately things might have ended up different. But that's not how things had happened and only Jade was in my heart now.
I was going to have to find a way to show Cat I wasn't interested without hurting her, because the last thing I wanted to do was hurt her. Next to Jade and Andre she was a very important person in my life. Speaking of Andre he was the only guy I have ever put any trust into. There was something about him that just screamed I would never do anything to hurt you ever, and if I was into guys I'd be all over him in a second. Well at least maybe if I could get past the dad issue.
We arrived at my house and me and Cat got out of the car. I looked over to Jade confused expecting her to get out too and spend some time with me like she does everyday after school. Instead she gave me a soft smile and said, "See you guys Monday, I'll text you both tonight." She then pulled away and I felt my heart sink. I knew then she was getting jealous over this Cat issue and I had to put an end to this thing Cat had for me. I didn't want Cat's feelings for me causing a fight like I knew it had the potential to do. The last thing I needed right now was Jade mad at me.
"So," I started once we had got inside and settled on the couch,"what do you want to do tonight?" Cat smiled shyly up at me and looked around.
"Well we could watch a movie and lie on the couch together," she giggled after she said this blushing slightly. Oh man it was just confirmed she had a crush on me. I gave her a smile thought and nodded to watching a movie. She looked through my movies and picked out Jeepers Creepers. I was confused at this, why would Cat of all people want to watch a scary movie? I put it on anyway and didn't question it. She sat down on the couch and sat down as far away from her as I without sending off any flags that I didn't want to be to close.
As the movie progressed Cat let out many squeals as horror scenes came up and slowly scooted closer to me. She was practically on me now and had an arm thrown over me with her other had covering her eyes. I honestly felt very uncomfortable as I now had a feeling I knew why she had chosen a horror movie. At one point she let out a scream and buried her face into my neck. "The scenes over now Cat, you can look," I said hoping she'd take the hint but instead she left her head in the crook of my neck. She finally pulled away right as I was thinking of making an excuse to get up so we wouldn't be in this situation anymore. I looked over to her and saw she was starring at me.
I looked nervously back at her. I decided now was a good point to make an excuse to get up. Before I could though I was surprised to feel soft lips against mine. I froze up for a second in shock then pulled away in alarm. Cat's eyes got huge and a scared look came over her face.
"I I I'm so sorry Tori!" she exclaimed looking like she was about to cry. I felt bad instantly and decided I could handle this situation.
"No no Cat don't be sorry," I said comfortingly, "you can't help how you feel, and I'm sorry I reacted the way I did. It's just you need to know this," I motioned between us with my finger, "can't happen. Not because your a girl either or I don't like you because honestly your amazing Cat. It's just there's someone else." I said the last part softly. Cat looked up at me she didn't look quite so sad anymore but her eyes were still tear brimmed.
"I'm sorry Tori," she said quietly. "I've had feelings for you for a while now and I see the way you look at girls so I had figured you were, well, gay. I thought maybe I had a chance with you but I should have realized I didn't have a chance with someone as amazing as you."
I got angry at this. "Cat!" I exclaimed and grabbed her face turning it towards mine and looked into her eyes. "Listen to me. You're AMAZING anyone including me would be lucky to have you. Under different circumstances I would jump at an opportunity to be with you really I would. It's just like I said there's someone else. I won't stop being your friend or hanging out with you for this I swear! I wish it didn't have to happen this way that you could of found out a better way, but please do not think for a second you don't deserve someone amazing."
She looked at me now with a happy look on her face her eyes bright. "You really think so?" she asked. I nodded and pulled her in for a hug. She squeezed me tight and we held the hug for a few seconds. When we pulled away she looked me straight in the eye and asked:
"It's Jade isn't it?"
My eyes opened huge in response. How had she figured it out? Were we that obvious? I guess my reaction gave her the answer. She smiled sadly.
"Don't worry I don't think anyone else has figured it out, I wouldn't even had if it wasn't for this moment." My mind was put to ease at her words.
"Shes lucky you know. You're amazing Tori and I wish, like you said, that things were different. I would love to be with you. I honestly think I love you and I have for a while now," she sighed as she finished saying this. "I think it's best if I leave now and you call Jade over." I became sad at this. I didn't want Cat to think she wasn't welcomed.
"No no Cat stay the weekend! We can have fun still, watch movies, eat pizza, and paint our nails!"
"Don't worry Tori I don't feel like I'm not welcomed or anything like that, it's just I think you need to talk to Jade about me kissing you and our talk and the sooner the better. Maybe we can do this some other time?"
I gave her a smile and nodded. "Thank you so much for understanding Cat." She smiled and nodded. I walked her to my front door and we both stopped and starred for a few seconds not knowing how to end this evening. So I gave her a smile hesitated and leaned forward and kissed her cheek. She smiled back at me and walked out of the house. I let out a sigh and pulled out my phone.
Can you come over? We need to talk now. Don't worry it's not what you might think. -Tori.
Jade:
It was about 7 PM when I got a text from Tori. After checking it I was curious at what we could need to talk about but I decided it must be important so I grabbed my car keys and ran down stairs while texting her back.
Be there in ten minutes. Your okay right? -Jade
In about thirty seconds I got my response:
Yes I am don't worry I just need to tell you what happened after school, Cat has left. -Tori
I had a bad feeling in my stomach, something happened and Cat left? This can't be good. I felt anger rise up in me. Did Cat make a move on my girl?! She better not have I thought as I raced towards Tori's house.
AN: So that's how I decided to handle the whole Cat thing! How do you think I handled it? No time lapse in the next chapter will pick up right where I left off.
