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Disclaimed...

Chapter 6...

She thinks of him. She can't deny it. Well she can't deny it to me. I can hear what's going on in that little mind of hers. Though I hate her favorite memory of him. Or shall I say of his member! If Emmett and Jasper didn't hold me back, I would have rid the world of that monstrosity…Jacob not his member! I think she only thinks of that day to torture me. But she still thinks of him and I know she still loves him. Jasper can feel her love for him and the pain of leaving him, even after three long years. She still yearns to be with him. In his arms. Smelling his scent. It's almost mirrors the love I have for my wife. For my love. For my heart.

How dare he come into my life! I curse the day he was born. He causes nothing but trouble. To think, he is an ALPHA! AN ALPHA! He's not a born leader. Carlisle is a born leader. He can learn from Carlisle. He should. What a jerk! They should of drowned him in the river the day he was born. Rid the world of the damage that lays in his wake. Ugh! Why did our lives have to cross paths?

Ok. So I detest him. I can't say hate because that would, by extension, mean I hate my daughter. Jacob has always been in my way. Always trying to take away my happiness. He almost succeeded in taking my wife. I am a very lucky man she decided to marry me. And then when my daughter was born, he tried taking her from us as well. He just can't seem to get I do not want him near me or my family. He can't seem to get it through that thick head that he does not belong in this family. We are mortal enemies for crying out loud! He claims to have imprinted and I know deep down inside what that means but it does not mean I have to like it. When Seth told Nessie about the 'loophole', I was over the moon that we had a chance to get away from the grips of Jacob Black! I even more excited when she decided to take the opportunity! None of the family was happy with her decision, only because we could see how this was tearing her apart. That first year away from him was just too much. I almost brought her back to him. I was desperate for my daughter to feel better. For her to stop hurting. It tore me apart feeling her anguish.

When she decided to sever that relationship, the ripple effect was felt by all. Rosalie was happy that her niece would not marry a dog but so sad that it hurt Reneesme to be away from him. Rose could never imagine her life without Emmett. Emmett was broken but never showed his feeling in front of Nessie. He was the one who carried Nessie away from Jacob. At her request but still. Jasper cannot stand to be in the same room as Reneesme. There are times he just will not come over. In fact, he just recently started coming over to the main house. Alice was torn apart. She keeps tabs on Nessie because she does not want Nessie to do something stupid like she almost did. Thank goodness Carlisle came home in time to find her!

Nessie cannot live without him but she will not listen to anyone. I blame her stubbornness on her mother. Bella can be so stubbornness, there is no talking her out of her decision. Nessie gets the same way. This is the relationship that was effected the most by this forsaken imprint! Our little family is broken because of this imprint!

When we finally told Reneesme about her conception, about our love, about Jacob and her mother, she shut everyone out of her life. She stopped living. She thinks she is forced upon us. Forced! This really angers me. No amount of pleading or trying to explain the situation would persuade her otherwise. She refuses to interact with anyone except Emmett and occasionally Esme. Once Esme begins to bring up the subject of Jacob, Nessie shuts her out for weeks at a time. Esme is patient and will not stop trying. This has gone on since we left. Nessie keeps going back to talking to her Nana Esme, so I am hoping she will come around. It's like she knows Esme is right but refuses to listen, however she cannot not listen. Deep down she wants someone to help her get over her stubbornness.

She will not even talk or think around me. She drowns herself in her music. She drowns herself in her sorrow. But mostly, she drowns herself in her heartache.

Her mother is beside herself. If a vampire can have a mental breakdown, I believe my wife has had several of them. There is no light in their eyes anymore. No love. No life. Both my girls just co-existing. Even with me.

This breaks my heart. This breaks my family's heart. We live for the day that we can finally find peace with this situation, however long that may be.

Today is the hardest day because three years ago today, our entire family was changed. I despise Jacob. I hate that he has this effect on my family, on my wife, and especially on my daughter! He wanted nothing to do with her. He would have moved on with his life and left us alone if only he would have ran away when he believed Bella to be dead. If only he did not desire to kill the 'monster' he thought we bred. If only the pull to Reneesme was not so strong. My beautiful, radiant daughter would have a chance at life. A chance to choose her path in life. My beautiful, radiant daughter would not be sitting in her room, alone. Wasting away the hours, the days, nor her life. If only Jacob Black had not imprinted on my daughter, life today would be different. My wife and daughter would be close as ever. My wife and I would still need each other. My family would be together.

Instead, right now, my baby girl is sitting in her room, listening to music, trying to drown out the thoughts of him. She thinks it is working but I can still hear her subconscious. I can still see her favorite memory of Jacob. She is hurting. She is probably hurting more today than the day she left.

I wonder what he is doing? I hope he is still patrolling, keeping his people safe. I hope he has decided to give up on us. He has too. He just has too. I can't be what he needs me to be. I miss his wolf. Ugh! I wish this pain would just go away! Jacob. My Jacob. Please live your life baby. You deserve so much more. Please get up off that bed and go live. I can't stand that I know what he is doing. I have tried everything to sever this connection with him. I can't seem to shake it. I almost succeeded that day. I almost slipped into the darkness and away from this pain. If only my grandfather would have been held back at the hospital. If only I had taken the pills sooner. If only this pain would go away…

This last thought tore into me. I heard her shifting in bedroom and then her thoughts went black. Almost a 'fuck you' to me. She caught me. I was listening outside her door. I cannot help it. I need my baby girl back. I need her to know I love her and even though it may seem I did not want her in the beginning of Bella's pregnancy, I need her to know it was the fear of the unknown that I did not want. Fear can make a person do and want so many wrong things. Knowledge and understanding can help a person see the light. I wish we left that part of the story out. Too late now.

I curse the day Jacob Black was born.