"It's ten after; where is Clary?"
"Alec; I'm sure she will be here any minute now. We should just get started without her."
"Iz, we need her here; it's her turn to set up the flipping ropes."
I keep quit as my siblings argue way too early in the morning for my mind to process. I have the worse hangover I think I have ever had in my life; it's quite possible that I could still be drunk even. After I left Clary's room last night I went straight to the bar. I don't remember how many drinks I had and if it wasn't for Simon; I might have woke up behind some dumpster this morning. At quarter till three in the morning the owner kicked me out of the bar and I couldn't even walk straight I was so drunk. I was so drunk I forgot where I was and where I was supposed to go. My first thought was to call Alec. I even had his number dialed into my phone but before I could push the call button I chickened out and shut my phone.
Ten minutes later Simons' panicked voice answers the phone. He was freaking out; he thought something happened to Clary. I can't say I don't blame him for thinking that something was wrong with his best friend. First of all I never call Simon; hell I try to avoid talking to him period. So with that fact and the fact that it was three o'clock in the morning; it made perfect sense for him to freak out.
The truth is; the only reason why I avoid talking to Simon is not because I don't like him; I actually think he is a great guy. He is Clary's best friend and that is why I avoid talking to him. If I am being completely honest about my confessions about Simon then the truth is it all comes down to jealousy. I loathe my own self for feeling any sort of jealousy towards anyone let alone Simon. It's not like I'm concerned that Simon will take Clary away from me or anything; maybe at first I was worried about that but not anymore. I have seen him and Clary interact on more occasions than I can count and I can see that Clary sees him as just a friend; almost as a brother if you will. I darkly chuckle at myself because Clary isn't even mine for someone to take away from me; she will never be mine because she can't even stand to be in the same room with me.
When Simon showed up at twenty after three to drag my drunk ass home I was trying to figure out what I could say to him if he mentioned Clary and I. Turns out I wasted my time trying to figure it out because he didn't even mention her name at all. He must have known something though because our walk back to the institute was eerily quiet. I thanked him for his help and I was even nice and shook his hand when I reached the steps to the institute. His brown eyes almost had a look of sympathy in them when he returned my hand shake and his voice was sincere when he told me to take care of myself.
It was almost five in the morning by the time I got a shower and flopped on my bed. I had to hang my leg off the side of the bed to keep the room from spinning for what felt like an hour. When my alarm went off at quarter till nine I wanted to smash it. Instead of smashing the alarm I rolled out of bed and took a freezing cold shower for ten minutes and still managed to get to the training room buy nine. Alec and Izzy's arguing is increasing in volume and it's making my head feel like it might explode.
"Why don't I just set up the flipping ropes today?" I offer.
"This is bullshit! Where in the hell is Clary? She needs to be here." Alec shouts impatiently. What's his deal today? Alec is always the one who caters to her all the time; yet here he is obviously angry with her tardiness.
Alec's blue eyes are darting towards the door of the training room every other second as he taps his booted foot on the wooden floor. He has his arms crossed over his chest and his nostrils are flared in annoyance.
"Relax Alec; maybe she just slept in a little. Cut her a break; you know she is always on time any other day. Hell half the time she is in here before any of us." Izzy attempts to calm her brother.
"Well…well maybe that's why I'm so irritated about the fact that she is late. I guess I am just used to her being on time all the time and she isn't here so it's throwing me off. Iz, why don't you go and see if she is still sleeping?"
"Sure; I will be right back."
Izzy's long dark hair is tied up in a tight ponytail at the crown of her head and her hair swings from side to side as Alec and I watch her exit the training room to see where Clary is. Alec walks across the room and stands right in front of me with his blue eyes narrowed at me.
"Are you still drunk Jace?"
"Possibly; I didn't think it was that noticeable."
"I can smell you from across the room."
"Seriously? I took two showers and brushed my teeth four times. I think you are imagining things Alec."
"No I am not imagining things; you smell like an open bottle of Jack Daniels. It must be coming out of your pores."
I can't help but laugh at what he says. I was in fact drinking JD last night; quite possibly a whole bottle considering the way I feel today. Maybe he is right; maybe I am sweating out the remaining alcohol that is still in my bloodstream. I do feel hot; even after my ice-cold shower my skin is still clammy.
"Maybe you're right Alec."
"How much did you drink last night? I didn't even know the club was open on Sunday nights."
"I have no clue how much I had to drink last night and you're right; the club isn't open on Sundays."
"So what? You went to a bar?"
"Yeah…"
"By yourself?"
"Yes, by myself. Is there a problem with me going by myself? I didn't realize I need to have a chaperone to have a drink."
"No, not for one drink but seeing how you can't even remember how much you drank last night maybe a chaperone wouldn't have been such a terrible idea. What time did you get home? How did you even get home? Surely you didn't drive?"
"Your questions are making my head hurt."
"Tough. I want answers Jace. If you don't start talking I promise you I will make this the worst day you have ever spent in the training room."
"Fuck you're annoying…I got home around four. I called Simon and he walked me home. There is that what you wanted to hear?"
"Why did you call Simon?"
"I was too drunk to remember how to get home so I called him."
"I get why you needed to call someone for help Jace but why him? Why didn't you call me?"
"I knew he was awake; he is a Vampire remember?"
"You still could have called me; you know I would have come and got you home safe."
"Maybe I was too ashamed to call you…maybe I didn't want to have to look at the judgment on your face when you came to drag my drunk ass home." I whisper.
"You are being ridiculous. I wouldn't have judged you. I get that you are going through something and just need time to figure it out."
"Bullshit! You absolutely would have judged me and you know it Alec. You are always fucking looking down your nose at me. Am I perfect? No, far from it but neither are you and I never judge you when you fuck up and do something stupid."
"Jace I…" He sounds so broken hearted.
"Where the hell is Izzy now? What with these females today?" I snap as I avoid Alec's eyes.
"Relax Jace; I'm right here."
I stick my tongue out at her when I see her walking into the training room by herself; where is Clary? Alec is the one who speaks the question that is in my head.
"Well? Where is she Izzy? Did she sleep in or what?"
"She was still sleeping when I went to her room."
"Why didn't you wake her up?"
"Alec, I did wake her up. She won't be coming to the training room today."
"Why?" I ask too quickly; my voice too high pitched.
Izzy and Alec both look at me as though they forgot I was even in the room.
"She is ill."
"She's ill? What do you mean ill? How ill? Maybe we should take her to the doctors." My words come out of my mouth in a panicked rush.
"Jace? What's your deal? Clary is going to be just fine; she is just having stomach issues today."
"Oh Christ! She has her period doesn't she?"
"Shut up Alec! Clary would not skip out on training just because she has her period. She told me she must have eaten something off yesterday and that her stomach hurts. Can we get to training now? I am over talking about stomachs and periods already."
"Fine. Jace does your offer still stand?"
"What offer?"
"You said you would set up the flipping ropes."
"Yeah, I'll do it."
"Thanks. I will go and grab them out of storage."
I watch Alec leave the training room and quickly walk over to the weapons display to talk to Izzy.
"Are you sure that she doesn't need to see a doctor?"
"Yes Jace I am sure that Clary does not need to see a doctor."
"What if she has food poisoning or something?"
"Then she will puke her guts up for a few hours and probably have pains in her stomach for a day or two. Other than that it would be pointless for her to go and see a doctor."
"What if she has some sort of parasite or something that could kill her?"
Izzy turns her dark eyes on me. Even though she is a few inches shorter than me and I have probably sixty pounds more weight on me; I have no shame when I admit that I am slightly afraid of my little sister. The thing about Isabelle is she is slightly crazy and that simple fact is enough for me to always be careful about setting her off. For all I know she will throw a dagger at me when I have my back to her; hell I couldn't tell you how many times she has taken me down with the flick of her whip that is always wrapped around her wrist.
"What is wrong with you Jace? Even you have had food poisoning before; so why are you so worried about Clary? And why on earth do you smell like a brewery?"
"Shut up Isabelle."
I take a couple of steps back from my sister when I see her release her whip from around her wrist. Just as she steps towards me the door to the training room opens and Alec walks in carrying the ropes. He walks over to where we are standing and tosses the pile of ropes at me feet with a smug grin on his face. It's funny how much I enjoy using the flipping ropes but loathe actually setting them up; Clary is the only one of us that seems to enjoy setting up the ropes. Shit why do I have to think about her so much? I need to wipe her name and her green eyes from my mind. When I left her room last night I told myself I could just ignore her and pretend she didn't even exist; I have a feeling that Jace the Asshole is going to be rearing his ugly head for months to come. Being an asshole is the only defense that I have in my arsenal that seems to work for me. If I am an asshole then no one want to be around me and if no one wants to be around me then I can be left alone with my thoughts.
By lunch time; Alec, Izzy and myself are covered in sweat from our training session. Izzy is pissed off at me and she refuses to talk to me; she said I was being too hard on her when we were sparing. Just because I broke her nose and dislocated her shoulder she is acting like a baby; but when Alec agreed with Izzy I couldn't help but feel a little guilty. They are just going to have to get used to it; the Asshole is in full swing and there are no signs of him leaving anytime soon.
"I think we should all grab quick showers and get some lunch from Taki's; we can just stay an hour later after we get back from lunch."
"I don't want to stay an extra hour this afternoon; I have dinner plans with Simon."
"I'm staying away from Taki's for a while Alec; I don't want to deal with Kailea right now."
"Kailea? Jace what the hell did you do? Alec what did Jace do?"
"He didn't do anything Iz. We went to Taki's for lunch yesterday and Kailea was drooling over Jace."
Isabelle gets right in my face and she jabs her finger into my chest.
"Don't even try to lie to me Jace Wayland; when is the last time you had sex with Kailea?"
"Almost six months ago."
She looks at me for a full to minutes to see whether or not I am telling her the truth. She can't figure it out though because my eyes are guarded and my brick wall stands high and strong around me.
"Then why is she drooling over you all of a sudden?"
"How the fuck should I know? Stop fucking poking me Isabelle and stop glaring at me like that."
"Can we just go already? I am starving." Alec whines.
I drone out what the two of them are saying as I swiftly leave the training room. At first I walk towards my room with the intentions of getting a shower but end up getting on the elevator to go downstairs. The rain feels good on my face as I walk through the park during our lunch break. I should head back to the institute to try and find something to eat before I go back to the training room for the rest of the afternoon but just thinking about food makes me gag.
By one thirty I am halfway through our make-shift obstacle course and Alec and Izzy are still not back from lunch. The obstacle course was Clary's idea to set up. She thought it would make training more fun if we could have a real-life set up. The way we built the obstacle course reminds you of being in an abandoned building. We have to swing from rafters, scale half walls, crawl under jagged glass widows and climb and jump from different lengths of ropes that are hanging from the ceiling. Alec and Izzy hate the obstacle course but I think it's fun. Clary and I always make a game out of running the course and usually end up laughing the whole time; Alec yells at us for goofing off.
"Jace! Why didn't you put the mats away?" Alec Asks.
I look up from my crawling position to see Alec and Izzy staring at me. I get up off of the floor and run my finger through my hair as I look at them in confusion.
"It's Monday. Every Monday after lunch we practice throwing weapons at the targets and every Monday after lunch it's your job to put the mats away." Izzy huffs.
"Sorry…geez I guess I just forgot. I will get the mats put away and then we can get started. I think the two of you have your periods today. You have both been moody since this morning now I see why Clary is hiding in her room."
They both glare angrily at me as I begin to roll up the mats; I can't help but chuckle at them. The truth is I am the one who is moody today; all I can think about is checking on a girl that I claim to be able to ignore. Who am I kidding? I can't ignore that red haired girl? I can't even stop thinking about her ever second of the day let alone ignore her. I need to find things to keep myself busy for a while so that I can stay away from her. Surly in a few days this pain in my chest will go away won't it? I won't always feel so lost will I?
It's almost nine at night when I finally leave the training room for the night and seek out my hot shower. Alec and Izzy left the training room at four and I told them I was right behind them but ended up staying. I feel so restless today and thought if I just kept my hands busy in the training room I could stop thinking about the fact that it has been over twenty-four hours since I last saw Clary. I am so used to seeing her every day that these last thirty-one hours (yes I have been pathetically counting the hours) have been hard to deal with. I tried so hard to stay away from her room but I just had to know if she was okay. When I told her it was me who was knocking at her door all she said was "no" even after I told her I just wanted to see if she was feeling better because Izzy had told me was sick all she said was "go away." I went away; I didn't want to go away; what I wanted to do was kick her fucking door open and make her talk to me. Knowing that kicking her door open would get me nowhere I made my way back to my room. Stepping out of the shower I am half temped to go down the hall and use my stele to unlock her bedroom door to try to talk to her again; even if she yelled at me again at least I could see her for a minute before she throws me out of her room. After I brush my teeth I put my headphones on and flop on my bed.
When my alarm goes off at nine I am surprised that I managed to sleep the whole night without waking up. After I make my bed I quickly dress in a pair of dark jeans and a plain white t-shirt before heading downstairs. I find myself almost jogging towards the kitchen and I can even feel a small grin on my face. The ache in my chest isn't as bad today as it has been since Clary walked out of my room that night. I realize my positive attitude is probably only from the fact that in about an hour Em will be here for a visit. I have missed her; it's been over six months since I have seen her. As much as I am disappointed that Sandra won't be coming with Em to visit; I am secretly happy that she isn't because now I can hog all of Em's attention to myself for the next two days. I promised Alec that if he let me take tomorrow off from training then I would put the hours in on Thursday to make up for it. I am surprised to find the kitchen empty when I walk in; am I the only one excited for Em's arrival? Pulling the can of coffee off the shelf I can see that the coffee pot is already full of fresh coffee so someone must be up. I pour a cup of coffee and grab two bananas out of the fruit basket before sitting down at the table.
"Good morning sunshine! You look all bright eyed and bushy tailed today." Alec chimes.
"I slept well last night and Em's going to be here soon."
"You've really missed her haven't you?"
"Yes I have. I think Em is the female version of me; that's why we get along so well."
"Because you are both assholes that no one else can stand to be around?"
"Exactly!" I smile widely at him.
Alec was being sarcastic when he said Em and I were assholes but he is completely right. Em isn't as big of an asshole as I am but at the end of the day she is in fact an asshole; this simple fact is why I enjoy her company so much. I keep glancing at the clock to see if it's time for Em to get her as Alec slurps his cereal from across the table.
"Jace have you ever heard the phrase; a watched pot never boils?"
"What about it?"
"Stop looking at the clock every two second and for Christ sakes either eat those bananas or put them down."
I feel like a small child that just got scolded from his father by Alec's tone. Right now I could let Jace the Asshole tell my parabitai off but I decide to just keep my mouth shut. I peel one of the banana's and eat it without tasting it and leave the other one sitting on the table as I finish my coffee. When I finally allow myself to look at the clock again; I jump out of my chair with excitement.
"It's time! She will be here any minute now. I am going to the library to wait for her. Are you coming Alec?"
"Yes of course I'm coming."
I sprint down the hall towards the library and laugh loudly when I see Alec running right beside me with a big grin on his face. We are both laughing like idiots when we reach the library and I stop dead in my tracks when I see Clary sitting at the long table reading a book. Fuck there's that pain in my chest again. I glance over at Alec and he looks at me in confusion; I can only imagine the look on my face. I feel like all the blood has drained from my body and my stomach threatens to throw up the banana I just ate. Before I or Alec can say anything the portal opens up and Em walks through looking as beautiful as ever. In a flash I am across the room and lifting her high in my arms as I bury my face in her neck. She smells like sunshine and she feels so warm in my arms as I hug her. I don't know what's wrong with me but I feel a lump in my throat and I can feel the tears well in my eyes as I hug my friend.
"Awe…Jace…I missed you too."
"Em…oh Em I missed you so damn much." I mumble into her blond hair.
I shamelessly wipe my face on her t-shirt before I put her down and look into her blue eyes. The sweet smile slips from her face as she rests her hand on my cheek.
"What's wrong Jace?"
"Nothing's wrong. I'm just happy to see you is all."
"Stop hogging her Jace; it's my turn to hug her."
Alec shoves me playfully to the side and he gives Em a quick hug.
"How are things in LA Em?"
"Things are good Alec; thank you for asking. Where is your sister?"
"I'm not sure actually. I thought she would have been here; I know she was looking forward to seeing you."
"She stayed at Simons last night." Clary calmly adds to our conversation.
"Who is this?" Em asks as she points at Clary.
Thank god for Alec. He tells Em who Clary is and proceeds to explain to Em when Clary got here and that she is making good progress in her training. I can't do anything but stare at my shoes; I can't look at that red haired girl that is sitting at the table behind me. When Alec and Em walk over to the table so that Em and Clary can say hello to each other I remain standing near the portal. I fight the urge to either burst into tears like a fucking baby or bolt out of the room like an idiot. I feel a small hand slip into mine and when I turn my head Em is smiling at me.
"Let's go to the store and get junk food and alcohol; I have feeling we will be up half the night and we will need provisions."
I don't respond to what she says but I continue to hold her tan hand in mine as we exit the library. I am proud of myself for keeping my eyes focused on the open doorway without so much as glancing at the green eyed girl that sits at the table. I can feel her eyes on me as Em and I leave.
Em and I each have our arms loaded with bags of junk food and I manage to balance a case of beer in my left hand as we enter the bedroom that Em will be sleeping in tonight.
"Come on Em! What are you some sort of girl? You act like that cooler is heavy or something."
"Shut up you dick; it's not heavy it's just awkward to try and drag with all these bags I am carrying. Maybe if you carried more bags and wasn't so worried about breaking one of your precious finger nails then I could manage the cooler better."
After I dump the beer into the ice filled cooler and drop the bags onto the floor I flop on the bed still laughing at Em and I's banter.
"Do you want to eat first or should we just dive right into the beer?"
"I'm not really hungry." I mumble.
"Drinking it is then!"
Em hands me a beer as she sits on the bed beside me. I shift my body so that I am propped up against the headboard and wrap my long legs around her waist and pull her towards my body. She squeals when I lift her up and set her down beside me so that she is propped up against the headboard next to me.
"So tell me Em; how is Sandra doing? Alec told me you two moved in together."
"We did; last month actually. Sandra is good."
"How is it living together?"
"Good most days."
"What do you mean most days?"
"You know me Jace; I'm an asshole. I try my best to be nice to her when she forgets to rinse the bathtub out or leaves dirty dishes in the sink but sometimes I can be a little overbearing."
"Do you ever wonder if you and I are long lost siblings? You are almost the same person as I am."
"That is almost true except you're not gay."
"True but we both like girls."
I laugh when she punches me hard in the stomach even though it hurt.
"What is going on here?"
She runs her hand across my cheek; feeling my week old stubble.
"Just been too lazy to shave it I guess."
"I like it; it looks good on you."
"Really?"
"What do I know? I like girls remember? Speaking of girls; what's the story with that little red head I met downstairs."
"Forget it Em! Clary isn't into chicks; besides you have Sandra remember?"
"Spill Jace."
"Spill what?"
"I saw how you were acting in the library and the way you hugged me when I got here; I can tell something is going on with you. Does she have something to do with it?"
Son of a bitch! Emma Carstairs can read me like a fucking book!
"I don't really want to talk about it Emma." I whisper.
"It's not like I would ever tell anyone Jace. You know you can trust me right?"
"It's not that Em; I know you wouldn't say anything. It's just I don't even understand what is going on to tell you the truth."
"Have you at least talked to Alec?"
"No. He knows something's up but he's been good about giving me space."
"Look I'm not saying you should tell me what is going on but maybe if you talk about what's going on it would help you figure it out better; help you deal with it."
I finish my beer and roll off the bed to get another one. I grab three beers out of the cooler and flop back down beside Em on her bed. I chug another beer and open my third as I hand Em her second before I start talking.
"Friday night I was in my room listening to music when Clary showed up in my doorway. We talked about music for a couple of minutes and the next thing I know I am inviting her into my room."
"Jace you never let anyone in your room; not me, not even Alec."
"I know that Em."
"So what happened?"
"She sat down on my chair and we kept talking about music. She wanted me to see a video on YouTube and I asked her come sit on my bed to show me the video on my laptop."
"Jace you're sweating; why are you sweating?"
"This is hard to talk about Em."
"Oh god Jace! What did you do? Do I even want to hear this?"
"Stop looking at me like that Em."
"Just get to the point already; I don't need to hear the play by play. Tell me what has you so upset."
I chug my third beer and take Em's beer and drink half of it before taking a couple of deep breaths.
"Okay…her it goes…long story short…Clary asked me to take…no that's not right…she doesn't like that word…Clary wanted to give me her virginity…and I…took it…no she doesn't like that word either…I guess you could say that I received it from her."
"Okay I'm following you so far but what's the problem? Did you hurt her or something?"
"No…maybe a little at first but she asked me to keep going."
"So what? Couldn't you keep it up or something?"
"Em!"
"Sorry; I'm sorry; don't be mad at me I'm sure you kept it rock hard for her."
"Why am I talking to you about this again?"
"Because I am going to try to help you figure this all out but I can't do that unless you get to the point."
"Stop being an asshole."
"Really Jace; I am sorry. I shouldn't have made a joke like that. I can see how torn up you are over all of this. I guess I'm just having trouble understanding the problem. I know you and I know that you know what you're doing in the bedroom because you have had sex with three of my friends and all three of them had disgustingly detailed stories about how you made them all have mind-blowing orgasms."
"Disgustingly detailed? What's that supposed to mean?"
"Please don't make me repeat that shit; it's bad enough I have a mental image of your penis burned into my brain."
"Oh…okay… I get what you're saying…the details are disgusting because I'm a dude and you think dudes are gross."
"It's not that I think they are gross; I'm just not physically attracted to guys. I prefer the soft pretty girls."
"Me too!"
"Now who's being the asshole?"
"Sorry Em."
"Just because I'm not attracted to guys doesn't mean I can't recognize an attractive guy when I see one."
"I get what you're saying. I am confident enough with my sexuality to tell you that I can recognize an attractive member of the same sex as well. Take Alec for example; he's a good looking dude."
"It's those blue eyes of his."
"Yep his blue eyes and his dark hair and his pale skin and his nice teeth and his pouty lips."
"Are you sure you're straight Jace?"
"Shut up. Can we get back to my story?"
"Yes but just so you know; I think you are probably the most attractive guy I have ever met."
"Well thank you Em. If it weren't for the fact that you are like a sister to me I would probably try to show you what you are missing out on being a lesbian."
"By what? Giving me a good hard fucking? Showing me that it just takes a real man to get the job done right?"
"Absolutely!"
"Wow…you're an idiot you know that right? Go get me another beer since you drank the rest of mine."
After I throw away our empty cans I grab more beer from the cooler and hand one to Em as I sit back on the bed.
"You know I wasn't being serious when I said that right? I am not one of those sexist pigs that think one hard fuck from a man can make a woman not be a lesbian anymore."
"I know you were only joking…let's get back to your story."
"Okay…without all the details…I am pretty confident when I say I showed Clary a good time…everything seemed fine but after it was over we were laying in my bed and I was running my fingers over her face and I thought she was going to fall asleep. Next thing I know she jumps out of bed throws her clothes on and practically runs out of my room."
"Did you go after her?"
"Not at first...at first I was too surprise by her quick exit that I was confused on why she left…after a few minutes I went to her room only to hear her taking a shower so I went back to my own room."
"Let me guess; now she doesn't want anything to do with you?"
"She fucking hates me Em…she threw a remote control at me a screamed at me."
"When did that happen?"
"The next afternoon. She stayed in her bed all day and I was worried about her. When I went in to see if she was okay she flipped shit on me. I tried to talk to her again on Sunday but she just wasn't having it. Even last night I only wanted to see how she was feeling because she was ill yesterday and she just told me to go away. I don't get it Em; what did I do wrong? Why doesn't she want to talk to me? Why is she so damn angry with me?"
"Can I tell you something without you getting mad at me?" She asks.
"Sure."
"You know how after you have sex with a girl you drop them like dead weight? Well maybe that was what Clary did to you?"
"Fuck…that can't be true; can it?"
"Why couldn't it be true Jace? You think only men are allowed to follow the fuck them and forget them rule?"
"You don't understand Em…you didn't hear the things she said to me; the things I said to her. What Clary and I did was not just fucking or simple sex…it was…it was so much more than that…Christ just kissing her…" I trail off.
"Never thought I would see this day."
"What are you taking about Emma?"
"Let me ask you something; why do you care if she doesn't want to talk to you?"
"I…I don't exactly know the answer to that Em…that's what I am having trouble with…on one hand I have to live in the same house with her and I don't want things to be awkward between us…on another hand there must be more to it than that because I would never have sex with a virgin…too much drama behind that kind of situation…too much pressure…yet I dived right into the deep end of that pool now didn't I?"
"How did it make you feel?"
"How did what make me feel?"
"Christ Jace! Did you enjoy having sex with her?"
"I told you it wasn't just sex…but yes I did…I have never felt anything like that before."
"Do you think it's just physical?"
"Surely not right?"
"Why couldn't it just be physical? Different people have different chemistry. Once in a while two people have such intense chemistry together physically that it can almost be overwhelming."
"Oh for crying out loud! I think it's quite possible that instead of you helping me you have only fucked my brain up more Em."
"It's seems pretty cut and dry to me Jace. Its either simple chemistry or you actually have feelings for her."
"Fuck…can we talk about something else; I don't want to talk about her anymore. I don't even want to think about her anymore. I want to have fun with you; I have missed you so much."
AUTHORS NOTE:
HELLO ALL MY LOVELY READERS! THANKS FOR TAKING THE TIME TO READ MY STORY AND PLEASE TAKE A SHORT MINUTE TO TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK OF MY STORY SO FAR. DON'T BE AFRAID TO GIVE NEGATIVE REVIEWS AND PLEASE DON'T BE AFRAID TO ASK ME ANY QUESTIONS YOU MIGHT HAVE. I HAVE A QUESTION FOR YOU READERS RIGHT NOW. I NOTICE THAT SOME WRITERS WILL GIVE SONG SUGESTONS TO THEIR READERS AND SINCE I AM A HUGE MUSIC LOVER I DO LISTEN TO MUSIC WHEN I AM WRITING SO MY QUESTION FOR YOU LOVELY PEOPLE WOULD BE: DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT I AM LISTINING TO WHEN I AM WRITING EACH CHAPTER?
WITH LOVE
~N~