Song List For This Chapter…
Jon Bellion, Zedd - Beautiful Now
Christian Lopez Band - Will I See You Again
Kings of Leon - Dancing On My Own (Robyn Cover) ((Look this up on YouTube...it's beautiful))
Rihanna - Diamonds
Imagine Dragons - It's Time
Christina Perri - A Thousand Years
Train - 50 Ways To Say Goodbye
Gavin DeGraw - Not Over You
Adele - Set Fire To The Rain
Fun. - Some Nights
Gotye Feat. Kimbra - Sombody That I Used To Know
Alec runs over and hugs Magnus tightly and I can hear him saying that he's sorry for not calling him. Magnus runs his glitter painted fingernails through Alec's messy hair and smiles at him.
"All is forgiven my love. Now we have a tracking spell to perform. Let us just see where our dark haired beauty has gone shall we?"
After a few quite moments Magnus rolls his eyes dramatically and looks at the three of us who are looking at him like he might hold the answer to the universe or some shit.
"You three are going to be pissed when I tell you were she is."
"Just tell us already." Alec shrieks. The smile on Magnus's face tells me that Izzy isn't in any kind of danger and I can feel my shoulders relax. I glance at Simon and he is no longer panicking but he still looks confused.
"She's at the Pandemonium." Magnus sounds bored.
"You have got to be kidding me?" Simon says in disbelief.
"I am going to kill her!" Alec shouts.
"Not if I don't kill her first; she fucked up my date night with Clary." I say calmly.
Magnus tells the three of us goodbye and heads home for the night after he tells us we now owe him two hours of beauty sleep for bothering him. When we get to Simons street he stops walking and grabs my shoulder.
"What is it Simon? Do you want to go put on a pretty shirt or something? Don't worry they will let you in as long as you stick with us two hotties."
"I'm not going to the Pandemonium with you."
"What? Why not?"
"Let's just say that my inappropriate joke about her fucking someone in the bushes might not be that far off from the truth. I'd rather not have to see it right in front of my eyes; I still have a little bit of dignity left."
"I'm really sorry Simon." Alec says softly.
"Don't be sorry; just go make sure she's actually okay."
I hate the look on his face and I don't even know what to say to him so I end up just giving him an awkward hug. The awkward hug turns out to be fucking sad as he grips me tightly in return. His sad whisper is enough to make me want to bawl like a baby or punch a hole in a wall; whichever comes first.
"This is me holding my head up high Jace. It's time I let her go."
I put my hands on his shoulders to look into his coffee colored eyes before he turns away and walks slowly towards his apartment. Alec and I walk the last three blocks to the club and I tell him I will be in as soon as I call Clary to let her know that we found Izzy so she won't worry. Just when I'm about to hang up my phone after it rings for the fifth time I hear a click.
"Did you find her?"
"Yeah baby we found her. She's okay. She must have dropped her phone so that's why we couldn't get ahold of her."
"Where was she?"
"At the Pandemonium; she's still here, Alec went in to find her and I need to go in and help him but I just wanted to call you real quick so you weren't worried."
"Wow! We'll talk about when you get home. Be safe; love you."
"Love you; see you soon."
I shove my phone back into my pocket as I make my way into the club. The too warm air and the pounding music hits me as soon as I open the door. I look around at what looks to be probably close to four hundred people dancing and mingling with each other. I used to spend at least two nights a week here before Clary and I got together but that feels like a lifetime ago as I look around the open space to see if I can spot Alec or Izzy. All the sweaty bodies sliding against each other to the pulse of the music makes the intense heat in the club feel suffocating as I shove my way through the crowd as I try to spot my siblings.
"Does the mother of your child know you're here or does she have your balls in a jar at home?"
I turn around to see fucking Kailea smiling at me; by the way she slurred her words I can tell she's drunk.
"I'm just here long enough to find my sister; have you seen her by any chance?"
"No sorry. I should send you the bill for my tooth you know."
"Just send it to the institute and Alec will take care of it."
"Come dance with me Jace."
"No."
"Oh please! Just one little harmless dance; for old time sakes?"
Kailea has her hand pressed against my chest as she drunkenly bats her heavily make up-ed eyes at me.
"I don't want to dance with you Kailea. Look your drunk so I will cut you a little bit of slack but you need to keep your hands off of me okay."
She makes no attempt to remove her hand from my chest; in fact now she has both of her hands pressed firmly against my body and her strong alcohol laced breath is almost overpowering to my nose as she tilts her head up to talk to me.
"Come on Jace. Let's go in the bathroom; I can make you feel good and I promise not to tell Clary." She slurs.
"Keep your hands off of my brother you little slut!"
Izzy came out of nowhere and jumped in between Kailea and I and now she is shoving Kailea away from me. I watch as Izzy slams her palms against Kailea's chest a few more times until they are both about ten feet away from me but when I see tears running down Kailea's face; I close the gap and grip Izzy's shoulder to stop her from pushing her again.
"Leave her alone Izzy; she's drunk."
Izzy turns around as Kailea disappears into the crowd.
"What is going on Jace? Why are you defending her? Please tell me you're not cheating on Clary."
"Fuck you Izzy! I would never cheat on Clary. You are the one who has the wandering eye not me."
Izzy ignores my low blow and flips her hair over her shoulder.
"Why are you even here Jace?"
"Looking for you. Why the fuck are you here? How could you do that to Alec?"
"Oh don't be so dramatic Jace; I followed a demon here. It's dead by the way; I killed it. When I looked for my phone to call Alec I realized it was gone. I must have lost it."
I pull her broken phone out of my pocket and hand it to her.
"Oh damn. It's broken. Where did you find this?"
"I didn't find it anywhere. Simon found it in the middle of the street on Fifth Avenue."
"Simon's here?" She says excitedly.
"No he went home when he found out you were okay."
"Oh…well that sucks. You know what Jace; I really feel like dancing right now. How about it brother? Since we're all here why don't you dance with your sister?"
"No thanks Izzy; as soon as we find your brother I am going home to Clary."
"Don't you miss coming here at all Jace?" She pouts.
"Not even a little bit."
"Well I miss you coming; you used to dance with me all the time and Alec is a terrible dancer. Magnus can dance pretty well but he thinks this place sucks."
"Simon is an excellent dancer. Why don't you ask him to come here with you?"
"I don't think he really likes to come here."
When she rolls her dark eyes at me and flips her dark hair over her shoulder I feel a pang of anger flood into my body; the words I speak to her come out in a harsh tone as I narrow my golden eyes at her.
"You are so stupid Izzy; you are also fucking blind. Simon wants to be wherever you are; haven't you figured that out yet?"
"Oh hey look! There's Alec!" Izzy shouts as she shoves past me to go talk to Alec; she completely ignores everything I just said to her. Feeling defeated; I follow her so I can tell them I am going home for the night. Alec looks pissed as he shakes his pale finger in Izzy's face; Izzy has her hands on her hips as she looks up the four inches of height that Alec has over her. I stand back a few feet and watch the two of them to see how heated their argument might get. When Alec's arms slide over Izzy's shoulders for a hug I decide it's safe to approach the two of them.
"You two okay then?" I ask.
"Yeah were good; thanks for helping me find her Jace."
"No problem Alec."
"Do you want a drink? Izzy wants me to dance with her so I'm going to grab something from the bar."
"No you go ahead; I'm going to go home now that everything's good."
"Come on Jace; stay and have a drink with me. Clary's sleeping and you're already here so what's the big deal."
"It's not a big deal but I told Clary I would be home as soon as I made sure Izzy was okay."
"Izzy might be okay but I'm not; I'm still fucking shaking over this whole night. I could use a strong drink to calm my nerves and I hate to drink alone but if you're afraid of Clary then I guess I will just see you at home." Alec's tone is light and playful as he makes his little joke about me being afraid of Clary but I still find it important to make him understand that, that isn't the reason why I want to go home.
"I'm not afraid of Clary; but I do respect her and I already told her I was coming home."
"So what, you're a big boy Jace you can have one drink with your brother to help him calm his nerves. For Christ sakes you are here with me and Izzy; how is that being disrespectful to her?"
I would love to tell him and Izzy that the biggest reason why I want to leave is because this place just isn't my scene anymore. Being at the club; drinking too much alcohol and dancing with too many girls until I find one that is willing to give me a blow job or wants to fuck in the bathroom; is all part of my old life-style that I never want to fall back into. I decide to just give into them and have a fucking drink so they don't think I am blowing them off. I know the only reason why they want me to stay is because before Clary the three of us used to spend almost every weekend here together. Since I started seeing Clary I haven't spent a whole lot of time just hanging out with my siblings so staying for a drink should make them happy.
"I guess you're right but just one drink and then I'm out of here."
Izzy wraps her long fingers around my arm as Alec makes his way to the bar to get us some drinks.
"Jace come dance with me; it's going to take him like ten minutes to get our drinks anyhow."
Izzy gives me her best puppy dog eyes as she puts her bottom lip out and I can't help but laugh at her. I grab her by the elbow and lead her onto the dance floor. I take a moment to pick up the beat of the thumping music and begin to dance with my sister as she snakes around me. After two songs I feel a thin layer of sweat on my body from dancing and from all the bodies around me. The third song has a slower beat and I have Izzy's back pressed against my chest as we dance close; I keep most of my focus on dancing but I am also looking for Alec to bring us our drinks because I'm thirsty. I see him shoving his way through the crowd; I begin to laugh at him because he is trying to balance three glasses in his hands without spilling our drinks. I pat Izzy's hip to get her attention and she spins around to look at me; I point to Alec and the two of us make our way over to our brother.
"Sorry it took me so long; getting drinks in here can be a nightmare."
"Only for you it is Alec. Izzy and I get our drinks right away when we go up there. You just need to learn to be a little more assertive with people."
"I just don't want to be rude."
"Why not everyone else in here is fucking rude? What did you get me to drink?"
"I just made it easy for the bartender and ordered three double shots of Jack."
"Ewe! Alec I don't drink that shit. I'm going to get something fruity; I'll be right back." Izzy's dark hair swings from side to side as she make her way towards the bar. I grab one of the glasses from Alec and drink the amber colored liquid down in one big gulp and then I take the other glass from him and do the same thing with it.
"Shit Jace! Slow down a little bit."
"I'm good Alec; you will thank me later for drinking Izzy's drink. If you drink four shots of Jack you are going to need to be carried home."
"No I wouldn't. I can handle my liquor. How do you know you won't need carried home?"
"Handle your liquor my ass! You'll be stumbling around just from those two shot as it is. I won't need carried home trust me. I would have to drink a whole fifth of Jack before I would have a problem but I still wouldn't need carried home."
"Well maybe not carried home but you might end up calling a vampire to walk you home."
Alec and I both laugh as we wait for Izzy to make her way back towards us. She has some kind of bright blue drink with a pink umbrella sticking out of the top of it.
"What the hell is that Izzy?"
"The bar tender called it Electric Lemonade. Do you want to try it? It's so yummy."
I take a sip from her glass and find that it's not as fruity as some of the shit she usually drinks before handing it back to her.
"That's really fucking good actually."
"You should get one."
"I will not be seen drinking something that has a pink umbrella sticking out of it."
"So tell them you want your umbrella to be green."
"No I think I've had enough actually. Well I've had a drink with you Alec and I even was nice and danced with you little sister so can I go home now?"
"Oh don't go yet; I still want to dance." Izzy whines.
"I'll dance with you Izzy; let Jace go home." Alec adds helpfully.
"Fine I'll dance with you but if you step on my toes again I'm going to make you regret it."
"Have fun you two and I'll see you tomorrow."
They both wave to me as Izzy drags Alec into the crowd towards the dance floor; I shove my way through the sea of people and the fresh air outside of the club feels about fifteen degrees cooler. I lean against the brick building for a few minutes because my head feels dizzy; maybe four shots of Jack after not drinking for almost six month might have been a bit too much. The sound of someone throwing up down the alley draws my attention out of my buzzed state. I walk around the corner with the intentions of making fun of whatever drunk bastard is puking behind the dumpster only to find none other than Kailea doubled over as she retches. I try to back up towards the sidewalk but she sees me and stands up as she wipes her mouth with the back of her hand.
"Well this is embarrassing." She slurs as she looks at me with red rimmed eyes; she has streaks of mascara running down her cheeks.
"You okay Kailea?"
"No…I'm drunk."
"That's a bit of an understatement; you can't talk right and I bet you couldn't walk a straight line if you tried."
"Go to hell Jace." She snaps.
"Are you here by yourself?"
"Yeah, so what's it to you?"
"Just wondering if you had someone who will make sure you get home okay."
"I'm a big girl; I think I can find my way home without getting lost."
"Come on; I'll walk you home. I wouldn't want any weirdos fucking with you." I offer.
"I don't think Clary would appreciate you going home with me Jace."
I don't know why but for some reason I find Kailea's drunken words to be comical; the alcohol in her system seems to have given her an even bolder attitude than she usually has. I walk over and grab her wrist and start walking towards the sidewalk.
"You're right about that Kailea; Clary would not be too happy if I went home with you but I'm not going home with you; I am simply making sure that a drunk girl gets home safe. Clary might hate your guts but that doesn't mean she would want something bad to happen to you."
"Did you forget that she threatened to cut my tits off and she also threatened to kill me?"
Now I'm really laughing at her because of her tone; she really must be afraid of Clary; honestly I don't blame her for being afraid of my moody little red head. Clary can be pretty fucking ruthless when she wants to be but I still know she would be proud of me to do the right thing by making sure Kailea gets home safe. Kailea is just a tiny little thing; not much bigger than Clary actually; her blond hair and revealing clothes is enough to attract the sicko's towards her as it is but if they see she's by herself and drunk god knows what could happen to her.
"Clary was having a bad day when she said those things to you." I can't keep the humor out of my voice.
"Are you really as happy as you say you are Jace?"
"Yes I really am."
"Are you worried that things will change between you and Clary after the baby comes?"
"I know things will change but I also know that I will love those changes."
"Izzy told me that you and Clary were getting married; is that true?"
"It's true."
"Why?"
"What do you mean why Kailea? I love Clary and she is pregnant with my child."
"Just because she's pregnant doesn't mean you have to marry her."
"I know that. I asked her to marry me because I want to spend the rest of my life with her not because I feel like it's some kind of moral obligation. For Christ sakes I would never marry someone that I wasn't in love with; baby or no baby."
"How do you know you will feel the same way about her in say five years Jace? You aren't even eighteen yet and people change their minds about a lot of things when they get older."
"There will never be a day where I will not want her; that I know for a fact."
"She must be one hell of a good lay."
"Watch your mouth Kailea."
"I'm sorry I guess I am still am having trouble wrapping my brain around the fact that you're not a player anymore."
"I was never a player Kailea."
"Yes you were Jace. You just floated through life doing whatever and whoever you wanted to; you never worried about the consequences of your actions."
"My actions were always very clear Kailea; even with you."
"Yeah well just because you tell a girl that all you want from her is sex and nothing more doesn't mean anything. A girl might think she can handle something like that but after it actually happens sometimes things change; sometime people have feelings that they can't control."
"Shit…don't do this Kailea. Look I'm sorry if you have some kind of feelings for me but you need to understand that I will never return those feelings for you."
"Relax Jace I didn't really mean me. It's not like I'm in love with your or anything; I just liked the way you fuck me."
"Oh…well I guess that's good to know."
"It's good to know that I liked the way you fucked me?" She giggles and I almost laugh right with her but I don't want her to get the wrong idea.
"No not that; I already knew that because all girls like the way I fuck them. I'm good at it. What I meant was it's good to know that you don't have feelings for me."
"Pretty sure of yourself aren't you Jace?"
"Yep." I laugh and she rolls her eyes as she giggles at me.
We get to the front of her apartment building and I stop walking as I look down at her smeared face. I pull my shirt sleeve down over my hand and use it to wipe the black streaks off of her cheeks as she looks up at me.
"You're sweet you know that?" She whispers as I carefully use my shirt to wipe under her eyes.
"Sweet as sugar." I joke.
I drop my hand from her face and shove my hands in my pockets as I take a step back from her.
"Clary is a lucky girl to have you in her life."
"I'm the lucky one. I still have trouble understanding how she sees me. She knows about my past; about all the girls yet she still thinks I'm some kind of rare gift from god or something. The way she looks at me and the way she loves me makes me feel like I actually deserve someone as special as Clary. It's like in her eyes I am perfect or something; in her eyes I can do no wrong in life. The way she makes me feel; I feel like there really isn't anything I could ever do wrong in life as long as she is by my side. As long as I can look into her green eyes and wake up to her beautiful face every morning life couldn't be better."
"I can really see how happy she makes you now. Just now when you were talking about her you got an almost dream like look in your eye. I can tell that you miss her right now even though it's probably not been that long since you were last with her. I thought your calm demeanor since you got together was boredom but I realize I was wrong about that. You are at peace when you are with her; you were never at peace before her. If anything you were constantly restless; like you were always trying to find something exciting to do or…I don't know…I'm just drunkenly rambling now."
"No you're not…well yes you are drunk but I think I understand what you are saying. I was restless all the time before Clary and I think what I was trying to find was her. Now that I have found her I am completely at peace and I plan on keeping my claws into her forever."
"Do you think Clary would let me apologize to her or should I just leave it alone?"
"Um…well I guess that would be up to you really. You did say some pretty fucked up things to her; hell you said some fucked up things to me…no it's okay…I get that you were just shooting your mouth off so you don't owe me an apology. Honestly though I think for now it would just be best if you backed off for a while. Give her a little time to cool off and then maybe she would be willing to talk to you."
"I'll take your advice on that; I trust you Jace. For what it's worth I really am sorry for saying that shit; it was pretty messed up."
"Like I said it's no big deal…fucked up but no big deal. The tiff between you and Clary has been brewing for a long time."
"I know that. Can I ask you something?"
"Sure."
"Do you consider me your friend or was Clary being truthful when she said that you weren't?"
"Look Kailea, I have known you for what like two years or something like that? I used to like talking to you when we eat at Taki's; hell I have had you as more personal company a few times even but the way you have been acting around me since I have started dating Clary has made me feel very uncomfortable. If there ever was a time where I might have considered you some kind of a friend in the past; your actions and your words have made that impossible now."
"I promise to stop all that shit; please don't feel like you need to avoid me. I truly understand how much you love Clary now and I will respect you and hers relationship from now on."
"Thank you Kailea that means a lot to me."
"Well I'm tired and I smell like throw up so I am going to go up to my apartment now. Thank you for being a gentleman and walking my drunk ass home."
"You're welcome Kailea. I will see you around."
"Goodnight Jace."
"It will be a good night once I have my arms wrapped around a little red head."
She just laughs and shakes her head as she steps inside of the lobby of her apartment complex.
I find Clary sleeping when I get home; considering it's almost three-thirty in the morning it's understandable the she is out like a light. I grab a quick shower and brush my teeth twice to try to get the taste of Jack out of my mouth. I don't bother putting clothes on; I just drop my towel on the floor and climb into bed. I place my hand on Clary's hip as I nuzzle my face into her neck and gently kiss her soft skin as I whisper goodnight to her.
"You've been drinking." Her voice nearly makes me jump.
"Alec made me have a drink with him before I left the club; Izzy even made me dance with her. You're not angry with me are you?"
Clary rolls over and places her warm hand on my cheek as her green eyes look at me. I kiss the inside her palms as she begins to speak.
"No I'm not angry with you. Tell me what happened with your sister."
"It was a bit of a misunderstanding really. She followed a demon into the club and she dropped her phone. Alec kind of freaked out for no reason; and in turn he freaked me and Simon out as well."
The moon light catches the diamond on her ring as she pushes her hair off of her face and I smile at the sight of what that ring means to me. That ring tells me and everyone else in the world that this beautiful girls heart belongs to me and no one else.
"What are you grinning at? How much did you have to drink?" She giggles.
"I'm grinning at you; my beautiful wife to be."
I pull her closer to me and consume her full lips with my mouth. She starts to slide her hands over my body as we kiss and when her hand reaches my hip she breaks our kiss by giggling into my mouth.
"Are you naked Jace?"
"Mmm-hmm. You should be naked too."
"No way; you're drunk and I'm still a little sore."
"I can kiss it all better momma; my tongue has healing powers. I promise I'm not drunk; well not anymore. I took a long walk before I came home so I barely have a buzz now. Now stop talking and get those clothes off; I want to hear you moan my name over and over again baby." I purr.
She pulls her face away from me to avoid my kiss as I slide my fingers under her t-shirt. She pulls my face away from her neck by griping me with her hands so I will look at her.
"Why did you talk a long walk? Is everything okay?"
"Everything's fine baby. I walked Kailea home from the club; kiss me please I want you so bad right now."
"What?" She shrieks.
"Shh…you're going to wake the whole house up screaming like that."
"I don't care! Why would you walk that bitch home? I can't believe you would do that!"
"Fuck, you are really pissed at me aren't you?" I say bitterly as my anger flares.
"Why shouldn't I be pissed?" She snaps.
I sit up in bed and turn on my bedside lamp before looking at her.
"How about because you should trust me Clary? How about because I love you and I would never do anything to hurt you? She was drunk; I mean really, really drunk and I was worried that she wouldn't get home safe. You might hate her but I thought you would be proud of me for being a gentleman by making sure a drunk girl got home safe. Why are you making me feel like I did something wrong?" I can't help the anger that is in my words as I speak to her in a fairly loud tone.
"Why couldn't Alec walk her home?"
"Seriously? That's what you have to say to me right now?"
"No wonder she won't leave you alone. You keep her on a string by being nice to her all the time." Clary's words are cold as ice as her green eyes glare at me.
"This is such bullshit! I can't believe we are fighting over something so stupid." I shout.
"We're not fighting!" She shouts back.
"Really? Then why are we both fucking pissed off? Why are we both shouting? I'm done; I am tired and I'm going the fuck to sleep. I refuse to stay awake and listen to you scream at me for doing the right thing. I wouldn't care if my worst fucking enemy walked you home just so you would be safe; all I would care about is that you got home safe and nothing more. Goodnight Clary."
I shut off the lamp and turn my back to her as I sink down on my pillow; hoping that she will just let me go the fuck to sleep for tonight. I have already raised my voice at her and I feel like I might have been a little out of line with some of things I said so I just want to get some sleep and try to talk to her tomorrow when I am calmed down. As angry as I am with her right now; the hurt I feel by her lack of trust in me makes my stomach hurt. I don't want my stomach to hurt and I don't want to focus on the pain I feel from her mistrust so I grit my teeth and hang onto the anger as I try to go to sleep.
The sunlight shining through my eyelids wakes me up the next morning and when I roll over and open my eyes; I find an empty bed. I feel a strange sensation wash over me when I don't see Clary's warm body sleeping next to me. After a full night's sleep I might not be angry anymore but it still hurt to know that maybe Clary doesn't trust me. I realize that last night was one of the first times since we have been together that the two of us have went to bed angry; that simple fact makes my stomach churn painfully as I roll out of bed and dress quickly before trying to find her. As I near the kitchen I feel all my tense muscles relax when I hear the familiar sound of Clary's laughter. Her and Izzy are sitting at the kitchen table as Alec stands by the stove cooking pancakes. Risking getting slapped or screamed at; I wrap my arms around Clary's shoulders and kiss her neck from behind.
"Good morning beautiful." I whisper in her ear.
"Good morning Jace." Shit I don't understand her tone. She doesn't really sound mad but she doesn't really sound happy either. Her tone was kind of flat and neutral.
"Jace do you want some pancakes?" Alec calls from the stove.
"I'm not hungry."
"Since when aren't you hungry Jace?" Izzy stares at me in disbelief.
"My stomach hurts this morning so I think I'll just have some coffee."
"Are you sick? Do you want me to stay home with you?" Clary's green eyes are filled with concern as she looks at me.
"Nice try Clary! You are going shopping with me today even if I have to drag you out of this house; you have avoided it long enough." Izzy narrows her dark eyes at Clary and I feel the urge to laugh at my sister's insistent attitude this morning but the pain in my stomach from the uncertain state of my relationship with Clary keeps me from actually laughing.
Clary completely ignores Izzy as she rises from her chair and crosses the kitchen to place her hand on my cheek as I lean against the counter. My eyes close and my lips magnetically turn into her palm where I kiss her skin softly.
"You look pale Jace. Maybe you should go back to bed."
When I open my eyes to look at her; I try to use my golden eyes to tell her how sorry I am and to tell her how much I love her. I know the only reason why my stomach hurts and my skin is pale is because I am worried that there is something broken between the two of us. I want to talk to her but being in the kitchen with my siblings is not how I want to begin to fix this mess.
"Will you come and tuck me in?" I ask softly.
"No! Clary don't you dare go upstairs with him. We are leaving in thirty minutes and if we don't stick to our schedule then my entire day will be shot to hell."
Clary keeps her hand on my face and her green eyes on me as she speaks to Izzy.
"I will be ready to go in thirty minutes but for now I am going upstairs with Jace. He looks really sick and I just want to make sure he's okay. And remember Izzy this is supposed to be my day since it's my baby that we are shopping for so just calm down."
Clary slides her hand into mine and leads me down the hall towards the elevator; once inside she shuts the gate but doesn't press any of the buttons to take us upstairs. She spins around and throws her tiny body at my chest hard enough to slam my back against the wall of the elevator. Her tiny body begins to shake and I can hear her crying softly.
"Clary don't cry please." I whisper as I wrap my arms around her.
"I am so sorry Jace. I am sorry for over reacting and yelling at you last night. You are such a good person and you did do the right thing by walking her home. I'm sorry if you felt like I don't trust you and I'm sorry if I made you feel like you did something wrong. I was the wrong one not you. I love you so much and I hate that we went to sleep without me apologizing first. I barely slept at all last night because you had your back to me instead of your arms wrapped around me. I never felt so cold and alone as I laid there and looked at your back all night."
I peel her face off of my chest and lift her chin so I can look at her tear filled eyes. I lean down and brush my lips gently across her; it wasn't a kiss it was just the need to feel her lips against mine so I could speak. Like the brush of her lips somehow pulls the words out of my mouth.
"I never want to sleep with my back to you again. The only reason why I slept at all last night was because of the alcohol in my system. When I woke up this morning and you weren't there I thought the worst things Clary; I thought I fucked up so bad that you might have left me. I'm so sorry I yelled at you."
"Oh damn it! I can't stand the thought of you thinking I would leave you Jace. I love you so much and you make me so happy. I can't wait until our daughter is born and I can't wait to be married to you. You are everything to me Jace. You don't owe me an apology because I was being ridiculous and that's the only reason why you yelled at me."
I place my hands on her swollen stomach as I continue to look at her.
"You are everything to me too Clary; you and this baby are all I want in life. I know it upset you that I walked her home but I'm not sorry for doing it. I am actually very glad I did walk her home because I was able to make her understand just how important you are to me. She won't be a problem anymore; in fact she would really like to be able to apologize to you for being so disrespectful to you and to our relationship."
"Should I give her a chance to apologize? I mean you know her better than I do so should I trust her to behave herself from now on or should I just leave it alone?"
"I think you should do what feels right to you. If it helps you make the decision; I really think she was being sincere. I think she really does feel bad about the way she has been acting but like I said it's your decision not mine."
"How are you with all of this?"
"I'm fine; I still don't really consider Kailea my friend but that doesn't mean I want to break up a girl fight every time I want a hamburger. It would be nice if we could all act like adults when we are around each other but if she makes you that uncomfortable then we don't have to go to Taki's anymore. I don't want my girl all upset because of some stupid waitress. I can always learn how to make coconut pancakes for you." I smile at her when she giggles about my offer to cook her pancakes.
"No I can behave myself but I think I might need a couple of weeks to muster up the courage to look at her again."
"Are we okay now Clary?"
"Yes we're okay. I really am sorry for hurting you Jace."
"And I'm sorry for keeping my back to you all night. Let's never do that again okay."
"Deal. Now let's get you into bed."
"I don't need to go to bed. My stomach doesn't hurt anymore now that I know you and I are okay."
"You might not be sick anymore but that doesn't mean you shouldn't go to bed."
Her seductive voice and her bright green eyes tell me that she isn't just going to tuck me into bed and pat me on the head before she leaves to go shopping with my sister. My excitement for her body makes me want to take her right here in the elevator but she opens the door to our floor and steps out into the hallway before I can get my hands on her. I use my long legs to catch up with her hurried steps and she squeals when I scoop her up and carry her the rest of the way to our bedroom.
"I don't want to rush you or anything but unless you want Izzy to come up here and start screaming at us; we are going to have to make this kind of quick."
Clary hurriedly strips her clothes off as I do the same and I pull her naked body on top of me as I lay across the mattress.
"Are you still sore?"
"No, I'm okay now."
"We can make this as fast as you want to baby; you're in control this time." I say as I begin to stroke her center with my fingertips. She leans down and her big belly presses hard against my flat stomach as she kisses me. When she lifts her hips off of mine I know she is ready for me to slide my length into her and when I do we both sigh from the sensation. She lifts herself off of my chest and begins to grind her hips against mine and I enjoy how her round belly slides over my lower stomach. I run my fingers over her belly as she increases her pace a little more and within a few minutes of her rocking the sounds she makes and the way her body starts to jerk; I know her climax is coming on fast.
"Jace…I can't…you need to…" Her words come out in broken pants as I grip her hips and begin to pump my hips into her sweet center just in time for her to shudder apart. Her body shakes so much that all she can do is hang onto me as I stroke her with my length and within a few minutes I spill into her and still my movements. Clary lifts her hips off of me and lays down beside me as she drapes her arm and her leg over my body. I run my hand across her back as I plant kisses on her forehead.
"Thank you baby; I really needed that." I whisper.
"Mmm me too. So much for having a good hair day."
"Did Izzy straighten your hair for you? It looks…well it did look really pretty anyhow; now it's all sweaty."
"Yeah she did and she's going to be mad when I walk downstairs with my hair in a ponytail."
"She'll get over it as soon as you get to the mall."
"Ugh…I should probably get this over with but I would rather stay here with you."
"I know what you mean baby; I could go for round two or maybe even round three but you better go before she comes busting in here. Besides Alec and I have work to do today; we have to finish painting the nursery and figure out how to put together that changing table thing for the baby. Just so you know though; it's my turn later momma." I growl the last part into her ear before I nip her sensitive skin with my teeth.
Clary slides off the bed and I watch her as she dresses quickly and pulls her red hair into a knot on top of her head. She bends forward so that she can apply lip gloss to her full lips and I enjoy the view of her round bottom as it sticks out. I jump off the bed and put my hands on her hips while she is still bent forward; I grab the knot of red hair in my hand and bite the skin behind her ears as I press my hips against her rear end.
"Jace what are you doing?"
"Thinking about pulling your pants down and going for round two right here." I purr into her ear and her whole body shudders; making me want her even more than I already do.
"Bent over the dresser like this?" She asks with a surprised tone to her voice.
"Fucking right. Damn it Clary I can't get enough of you."
She moans as I press her body against the dresser and pull her head back by her hair so I can have access to her throat. My teeth graze her neck and collarbone as I slide my other hand off her hip and down between her thighs and she gasp when I press my fingers against her center.
"Jace you are going to make me late." She breathes.
"Not if I make this quick baby." I growl into her ear as I slide my fingers into the waist band of her pants. She moans loudly when I give her hair a not so gentle tug and I feel blood pool to my shaft with excitement.
"Can we go to the bed instead?"
"I want you right here Clary; I want to watch you in the mirror while I take you from behind."
"But this hurt my belly."
As soon as she says that I am hurting her I take my hands off her and step back from her. She slowly pushes herself off the dresser and she is rubbing her belly when she turns around. I drop to my knees in front of her and place my hands on her belly and kiss it before I look up at her.
"I'm sorry I hurt you. Are you okay?"
"I'm just fine Jace and you didn't really hurt me it was just really uncomfortable."
"I won't do something like that again; I promise. I don't even know what came over me in the first place; it's just when I saw you bent over like that I just wanted to be inside of you again."
"I hope you don't keep that promise Jace."
"Huh?"
"I think I would like to be bent over the dresser but not while I have this big belly sticking out in front of me."
"So what you are saying is that you want an extend rain check of sorts?"
"Yes."
"Thank fucking god! Because even though I promised I wouldn't do that to you again I still really want to."
"That's good because I want you to; just not till after this belly goes away."
"You better go downstairs before my hormones flare up again." I say with a grin.
She giggles as I stand and walk her to the door so she can leave for her shopping trip. I keep my naked body behind the open bedroom door just in case someone is in the hall. I grab Clary by her elbow and spin her around just before she leaves the room.
"What are you doing Jace?"
"You were seriously going to leave me for the whole day without even giving me a goodbye kiss?"
She giggles as she stands on her tip toes and kisses me quickly on the cheek; I grab her waist and bend down to capture her lips in my mouth before her playful giggle gets too out of hand.
"I love you baby."
"I love you Jace; have fun with Alec today."
"Please try to enjoy yourself too Clary. Shopping for baby clothes might be more fun than you think it will."
"I promise to try and have fun."
"I made sure to fill the tank up for you so you won't have to stop for gas."
"Oh that reminds me…I kind of misplaced your extra car key."
"I found it in the cupboard with the cereal and hung it back up in the garage for you."
"Why on earth would I put car keys with the cereal?"
"Guess you're just silly like that. Go on; get out of here now before my sister comes after you."
"Yeah I wouldn't want to mess up her itinerary sheet."
I watch her disappear into the elevator and I shut my door so I can get dressed. I quickly make up the bed and gather up the dirty laundry to take it down to the washroom before I go to find Alec. I find Alec in the washroom folding bath towels; sometimes I think that's all he ever does is hang out in the laundry room and fold clothes.
"Alec, I still for the life of me can't understand why you don't just send our stuff out to the laundry service; the clave allows for that in the household budget you know."
"I like to do laundry. Folding clothes is soothing to me."
I lift up one of Izzy's thongs and it looks like a small scrap of material with a couple of strings on it as I raise my eyebrows at Alec.
"And how exactly do you fold something like this?" I joke and he just shakes his head and snatches the red thong out of my hand.
"Grow up Jace!" He chuckles as his cheeks turn red from embarrassment.
"Why are you turning so red Alec? Was that your thong instead of Izzy's?"
"Shut up! I would never wear something like that. Come on we have painting to do."
I am still laughing as we make our way to the nursery that is two doors down from Clary and I's bedroom. Clary picked out a soft cream color for the walls and an even softer pink color for the trim work. She found these sticker things on the internet that we can put on the walls to decorate the plain cream color. There are several butterflies about the size of basketballs and lots of different flowers that are about the size of tennis balls. She also orders these words that we can stick on the wall beside the crib that say 'You Are My Sunshine, My Only Sunshine'. She gave me special instructions on where to hang the letters so there will be room to add our daughter's name to the wall after she is born.
Two hours later Alec and I have all the painting done and all the wall decals hung in their places and now we are sitting on the floor trying to figure out how to put the changing table together.
"I don't understand these instructions Jace. What does it mean when it says press part C into slot F while turning screw 9 counter clockwise? Do they think an octopus is putting this damn thing together?"
"Christ we should just burn this fucking thing and go buy one that's already put together." I groan.
"If we could get away with that without our feisty little red head finding out I would say hand me the lighter." Alec jokes.
My phone starts ringing in my pocket and when I see Clary's name on the caller ID I start laughing.
"Look at that Alec; she must know what we are planning and now she's calling to put us in our places."
I push the button to answer my phone as I chuckle at the panicked look on Alec's face.
"Hey there sexy momma; how goes the shopping?"
"Am I speaking to Jace Wayland?"
"Oh…uh…who is this?"
"Is this Jace Wayland?"
"Y-yes but who are you and why do you have my fiancés phone?"
"This is Cathleen Hawthorne and I am a charge nurse here at Lenox Hill hospital. I found your number listed under Clarissa's in case of emergency contact on her cellphone."
"What's happened? Where is Clary? Is she all right?" Every hair on my body is standing straight up as I wait to hear what she has to say.
"Sir I think it would be best for you to just come to the Emergency room and the doctor on Clarissa's services can explain things better to you than I can; I was only told to contact her next of kin but since I couldn't find any mother or father listing on her phone I called you."
"You can't even tell me if she's okay or even what happened? Is it the baby?"
"Please just come to the ER Mr. Wayland."
"Okay; I'm on my way right now."
I hang the phone up and grab Alec as I bolt out of the room towards the elevator. I shove him into the elevator and slam the gate shut as I press the ground floor button repeatedly.
"Jace tell me what's going on please." Alec voice is full of fear.
"I don't know; she wouldn't tell me anything. All I know is that Clary is in the Emergency Room and that I need to get there."
"What about Izzy? Where is our sister? Do you think Clary went into labor?"
"Aleeeeec! I don't fucking know! Let's just get there okay." My voice is strained to a high pitch as I try to control my rapid heartbeat.
Part of me wants to call Izzy to see what's going on but I need to focus on running down the busy side walk towards the hospital; I also remember that I couldn't call my sister even if I wanted to because her phone is broken. It will be faster getting there on foot than it would be to hail a cab during lunch time in Manhattan. Fuck, you could walk faster than the traffic moves sometimes in the city. I don't have to look over my shoulder to know that my parabitai is right behind me as I run; I know he wants to get to Clary and our sister just as fast as I do. Ten minutes later I am breathing hard and I am covered in sweat as Alec and I slow our running as we enter the sliding glass doors of the ER. For some strange reason I take the time to notice that the maintenance personnel hasn't touched up the red paint on the cement pole that I scraped with the side of my car months ago. There is a security guard standing at the entrance to the inside of the ER where they have sick and hurt people lying in the numerous beds.
"Whoa! Just where do you think you two are going? You have to have clearance to go back there."
"Look asshole some nurse called me from my fiancés phone stating that I need to be here so what more clearance do I need?" My words come out in a panicked rush and all I want to do is punch this fucker in the face so I can get to Clary. Alec grips my shoulder tightly; I know that's his silent warning to control my angry because if I punch this prick in the face right now I would end up in jail.
"Alright calm down young man let me check with the charge nurse."
"Hawthorne she said her name was nurse Hawthorne."
The security guard can see that we aren't trying to cause any type of threat and he slides a card into the machine next to the doors and lets us go into the ER. I hear him tell us to go to the nurse's station as Alec and I walk hurriedly through the doors.
"Excuse me I got a call about my girlfff…I mean my fiancé; Clarissa Fairchild."