St. Vincent's Angel's Room
Angel's POV

The pain was there again and so was the darkness, but there off to the right was a bright light and I went toward it. I heard voices and saw people around a hospital bed and I realized it was me on the hospital bed. The pain took me again and I went under without a thought. I don't know how long I was in the darkness but I opened my eyes when I heard Dean's gravelly voice say my name.

"Angel wings, come home to me baby!" he rasped. Then there he was standing there with his hand outstretched reaching for me desperately. "Angel wings, you can't leave me like this, not before I have a chance to tell you how much I love you and we've had a chance to grow old together. If you don't come home to me I will follow you to the next life! I can't live without you! No, I don't want to live without you. It's not fair!" he sobbed as he fell to his knees. I walked over, squatted down on the balls of my feet, and touched the side of his face. And as if he felt me he lifted his head and our eyes met, his crystal blue and my violet locked on each other. "Angel wings, you cannot leave me! I need you far too much." And then the darkness came again. I don't know how long I was in the darkness until I heard my Seth's voice choked with sobs. And then he was there in the darkness reaching for me with tears streaming from those big brown eyes.

"Angel lips, come back to me! I can't live without you! My life and my career means nothing without you there to share it with. I've never loved someone so completely in my entire life and I can't lose that. I can't lose you! Like Dean if you don't come back I will follow you to the next life. My heart could not handle the pain of losing you! My soul would die the second you slipped from this earthly plane." He sobbed. I reached for him, but he disappeared and the darkness returned. And again I don't know how long I was in the darkness until I saw my Roman, on his knees in a chapel somewhere with tears streaming from those grey eyes.

"Angel eyes you have to come back! You have to! Dean, Seth, Jojo, and I love you far too much for you to leave us for good. I would promise to follow you into the next life, but I have Jojo to think about I know you understand that. But know that I would never be the same without you Angel eyes. I would close myself off. My heart would be closed to everyone but family. And I swear to you if you go once Jojo is in a place she can care for herself I will follow you and join you in heaven. But please don't make me have to do that Angel eyes. Just come back to me! To us all!" he choked over his sobs. He disappeared as I reached for him. Once again the darkness came and I floated for how long I have no idea. The next thing I knew there were 3 fetuses who grew right before my eyes. Then were the fetuses had been stood 3 toddlers, a little boy who looked like Roman, a little girl who looked like Dean, and another little girl who looked like Seth. The little girl who looked like Dean Spoke;

"Mommy you have to go back. We won't be born if you don't." she said with a soft lisp. I took a step toward her. "Our daddy's will never know us or the joy of seeing us grow up if you don't go back." I reached for her with tears streaming down my face and they disappeared. This time I wasn't swallowed by the darkness as my mom, my dad, and my brother appeared before me. My mother walked over and pulled me up off my knees and dried my tears.

"Akira it is not your time. You have far too much to do baby girl." She whispered as she placed her hands on my shoulders. "Akira, God himself chose those men for you! Predestined them babies to be yours. You are meant to live far longer than this."

"But Mommy it's so hard! I'm fighting I really am. But I'm so tired Mommy! The weight of those I've killed weighs on me, makes me wish for peace." I said through my tears.

"That may be so Akira, but does that need for peace outweigh the love and the need of you that those men feel for you? They all have need of you, but especially Dean. Your loss would literally kill him Akira. He has never known love like you give him and like he feels for you." She stated as she took my face in her hands. "You know his life Akria, you've made a bigger impact on him then you know. He has fought everything God has put in his path. He has chosen the wrong so many times that God had almost given up; but that all changed the day he met you. You made him feel things and want things that even God himself couldn't. You can't, in his eyes, prove to him that God doesn't love him Akira. Let me show you everything he never told you." She said as she pressed her palm to my forehead. I dropped to my knees and sobbed as the images finally cleared.

"Oh my god Momma how could he have lived through all of that and not gone insane? And still somewhat believe in a higher power?" I sobbed.

"Somewhere deep inside him he knew there was someone out there who would love him despite everything. Love him despite his flaws and reckless nature, despite his mental issues and most of all just love him." She whispered. She smiled and nodded her head in encouragement. "You can live with the weight baby. Soon you'll be a mommy and life mate, just take the first step back to them."

"But what about you, daddy, and bubba?"

"We aren't going anywhere. Heaven won't go away and we'll be here waiting for you when it's your time." She said as she hugged me tight. I stepped back and watched as they disappeared. I took a breath and whispered "I can do this! I'm coming home my boys!" The first thing I saw when I opened my eyes was my boys, Roman and Dean on the right and Seth on the left. All of them were sleeping, Roman and Dean on cots and Seth with his head on his arms on the mattress beside me. I smiled and laced my fingers in his soft, curly brown hair. He stirred and lifted his head. His big brown eyes filled with tears as he realized I was awake. He took my hand out of his hair, and pressed a kiss to the back of it.

"You're back Angel lips." He rasped his voice groggy from sleep. I shook my head yes as I couldn't talk due to the breathing tube down my throat.

"I will go get the nurse." He proclaimed. He stood and left the room. As I was waiting Dean woke up and looked around for Seth. He rolled off the cot, onto his knees, holding his heart when he realized I was awake. He started shaking Roman.

"Rome, wake up! Wake up she's back." He said with both a smile and tears in his eyes. Roman jerked awake.

"What? Dean did you say she was awake?" Roman asked and then looked in my direction when Dean waved his hand that way. They both stood and walked over to the bed. Two nurses walked in without Seth. The head nurse with the name tag that read "Grace" had a tray with some sterile instruments on it, walked over to the bed and put the tray on the stand.

"You two, out. We have things to do that she might not want you to see. Now scoot." The Grace ordered. They both scampered out of the room. "Angel, I'm so glad to see you're awake. Those boys have been in so much grief. We're going to take out this breathing tube now." Grace said. And then explained what they were going to do and then they walked me through doing it and soon I was breathing on my own.

"Natalie, go get her some ice chips and tell the boys they can come back in." Grace said to the other nurse. "Now Angel, don't try to talk just yet ok? Let's get some ice chips in you and some water too. Then you can talk." She said as she patted my hand. She turned as she heard three sets of feet practically running down the hall to the door. She smiled wide when the three of them burst through the door.

"Looks like there are some people here to see you." Grace said with a smile and then left. I noticed as they walked up to the bed that Seth was holding a notepad and pen. Just then the other nurse came back with another tray holding two pitchers and a glass. She placed it on the dining stand.

"One pitcher is ice chips and the other is water." She pointed out to me and left. Dean practically ran to my bedside. He gazed at me lovingly as he poured some ice chips in a glass. He reached into the glass, pulled out a chip, and ran it along my bottom lip. I moaned in relief as it cooled my lip. Roman and Seth just stood there looking at me.

"Oh, here Angel lips. The nurse said to communicate by writing for a while." Seth gushed as he handed me the notepad. Dean took down the rail on the right side of the bed and gently crawled in beside me and Seth did the same thing. They put their arms lightly around me.

"Guess I'll have to settle for sitting and holding your hand since I'm too big to get in the bed with you." Roman said with a smile as he sat down in the chair next to the bed and took my hand. I scribbled a note on the pad and showed it to Dean.

"I heard every word that you three said." Dean read aloud. All their eyes got huge once the true meaning of what he said sank in.

"You heard me say I was madly, head over heels in love with you?" Dean asked. I shook my head yes.

"That means you also heard us say that we would follow you if you left." Seth stated. I shook my head yes as a couple tears slid down my cheek. I scribbled again and handed it to Dean.

"I just want to lie here and rest until I can talk again." Dean read aloud. Seth and Dean settled in next to me and Roman scooted the chair closer to the bed and rested his head on his arms. All four of us drifted off until the sound of the doctor clearing his throat woke us up.

"I'm glad to see you have the breathing tube out Angel. How are you feeling?" he asked.

"I'm sore as hell doc, but glad to be back with my boys." I whispered.

"Has anyone told you how long you've been in a coma?"

"No doc. We haven't talked much since I woke up."

"You have been under for over a month Angel. And there is some good news other than you waking up. Do one of you want to tell her or should I?"

"No you tell her doc." Dean said with a smile.

"Angel, shortly after surgery we found out you were pregnant."

"Say what?" I mumbled.

"You're pregnant Angel and you're a little over a month along. You must have a guardian angel because by rights with all the trauma you've been through you should have lost the baby." He revealed.

"Oh my god! What I saw was true then." I whispered as one hand went to my belly and the other covered my mouth.

"What do you mean?" Dean asked.

"I can see that you need some alone time so I will come back to check on you later." The doctor said and left.

"Earlier when I said I heard what you said. I kind of fibbed. I saw you as you said it and well I saw a few other things as well."

"What are you saying Angel?" the three of them asked in unison.

"Guys I think I had one long out of body experience." I breathed.

A/N What will the boys say when she tells them what she saw? What is coming for the four of them? Pleae R/R