A/N I want to thank Lynn Stark for the direction this chapter is going to take.
I looked down at my clasped fingers and then up at the boys.
"Off and on while I was in a coma I would see things. I think I saw you in your time of pleading. I saw you all very clearly. And all three of you begged me to come back to you. Seth and Dean you said you would follow me. Which I took to mean you would commit suicide to be with me. And Roman you swore to me that once Jojo was in a good place you would follow as well." I blurted. All three of them had their jaws open in astonishment. "But then I saw three of the most beautiful babies I've ever seen. And the one told me that if I didn't come back to you they would never be born. And then my parents and brother came to me. They told me things that only an angel would know and then she sent me back home."
"Holy crap! Are you serious?" Dean choked out.
"Yes, my mother even showed me things that you never told me about your childhood Dean."
"Really, like what?" he queried with a worried look.
"She showed me what happened when you were 13." I said without saying what I saw. Dean took a step closer to the bed and motioned for me to say it.
"Dean are you sure you want me to say it in front of Roman and Seth?"
"I have to know for sure if this was real or not and besides they're the closest to real brothers I have and if what you say disgusts them then it's good to find out now." He replied as he tightened his hold on my hand.
"She showed me the day your mother's boyfriend raped you." I said as tears streamed down my face.
"Holy Shit! No one but me knew about that." He breathed.
"She also showed me the 21 times you tried to commit suicide."
"Again, no one but me knew that." Dean breathed as he plopped down heavily in the chair next to the bed.
"Guys those babies, they looked like all of you. There was a little boy how looked like Rome, a little girl who looked like Sethie, and Deanie bear there was a little girl who looked like you." I said as I reached my hand out to him. He slid over to the edge of the chair and took my hand in his, his eyes filled with unshed tears.
"Angel, I really do think that was an out of body experience." Roman said.
"What were we doing when you saw us?" Seth asked.
"Dean was standing with his hand reaching toward me and then he fell to his knees. Seth you were sitting by the bed. And Roman you were in a chapel somewhere. And Dean when I saw you I reached out and touched your face and I swear we locked eyes." I declared.
"Oh my god! That was you!" Dean gasped.
"What do you mean?" I inquired.
"About 2 weeks into you being in a coma I did exactly what you just described. I was standing by the window; I turned toward the bed, with my hand outstretched, and pled with you to come back. And mid-sentence my legs went weak and I fell to my knees. While I was on my knees crying I felt something soft touch my cheek."
"You realize don't you that this is pretty good proof that out of body experiences are real. Right?" Seth asked.
"It's pretty good proof of near death experiences as well." Roman said in an awed tone.
"Guys, we can never tell anyone about this. Not now. Not ever." I commanded.
"Agreed!" The three of them said in unison. Dean and Seth went down to get something for them to eat as my dinner was getting ready to be served and they wanted to eat with me. Once the boys left Roman crawled into bed next to me and pulled me into his arms tenderly. He pressed his lips to my head and breathed deep.
"Angel eyes I'm so glad you're back. I could feel you slipping away no matter how hard we begged you to stay." He whispered as warm tears slid down his golden cheek. I reached up, wiped the tears away, and palmed his warm cheek.
"At first I didn't want to come back Roman. I felt like I was a monster who deserved to die and go to hell." I sighed.
"Why would you feel like that Angel eyes?" he questioned as he ran his fingers through my almost waist length, jet black hair.
"Romie, I am the direct reason over five hundred people are dead. I participated in more than one mission where there was a lot of collateral damage as the military saw it. And then I couldn't save Britney and I had to kill yet another person. All that death was weighing me down."
"Our love wasn't enough to bring you back?" Roman choked around a sob.
"That's not what I'm saying at all Romie. Your love was never the issue. There were at least three times that I was in a large amount of pain and then got pulled under and back into the darkness. It was like my body wasn't willing to fight to come back. It was tired and the guilt was getting to be more than it could hold Roman and it wanted to go home. My mind and my heart longed to come back every time I had a vision of one of you."
"Angel, what the doctor didn't tell you was your heart and your breathing stopped 3 times and they said that if it happened one more time they wouldn't be able to bring you back." Roman said on a hushed breath.
"That must have been my body giving in to the guilt and the need to go home. It took the vision of my family and those babies to get my body in the fight again. For it to decide the guilt was something it could bare in order to be loved and to be a mother." I breathed and nuzzled into Romans chest.
"Well, no matter how long it took or what it took to get you to come back all of us are glad you came back. We really wouldn't have made it without you. Especially Dean, he's more fragile than he lets on."
"I know, my mom told me." I whimpered. Just then the boys came in and right behind them was the nurse with my dinner. We sat in a companionable silence as we ate. The nurse came and took away my dinner remnants and we sat watching TV. Roman and Dean had crawled in bed with me while Seth relaxed in the chair next to the bed. I reached over, took Dean's hand, and put it on my belly. I leaned over and whispered in his ear "I have a feeling this baby is yours Dean." He nuzzled his nose in my hair and whispered back "I hope it is." A little while later the doctor came to check on me and said everything was going well and that I should be released into someone's care in about two weeks. Something occurred to me while the doctor was speaking.
"Guys have all three of you been off the road and TV all this time? "I asked after the doctor left.
"Yeah, we have." Roman said from beside me.
"How do you still have jobs?" I quizzed.
"Well, we told Stephanie and Triple H we weren't coming back until you either woke up or passed on." Seth said.
"You guys did that for me?"
"Of course we did baby girl. We love you and wanted to be here if either scenario came to pass." Dean whispered as he nuzzled his face in my hair again. Just then James pushed his way into the room fighting off the nurse and my doctor.
"Roman, I hate to interrupt but you need to get someone to Jessie's and quick." He verbally puked.
"What? Why?" he asked as he turned toward James.
"They're going to arrest Jessie."
"What? Why the fuck for?" Roman said his voice dangerously low.
"It turns out Jessie was helping Britney right up until almost the end. She was the one feeding her information. She's the one who told her where you would be at in Florida, what your addresses were, when you would be home, and what not. Jessie stopped communicating with her after she tried to kidnap Jojo."
"What the actual fuck!" Roman bellowed as he got up off the bed and started to pace.
"Roman I'm serious they are on their way there as we speak." James demanded as he ran his fingers through his hair. Roman pulled out his phone and dialed his dad's number.
"Dad, get over to Jessie's like right now. The FBI could already be there." He spoke rapidly into the phone.
"Roman, tell your dad to bring some identification with him and I'll let them know at the scene he's on his way to get Jojo." James ordered.
"Dad, make sure you have identification with you." Roman said.
"Roman, tell your dad to ask for Special Agent Dan Marcum. He's the one in charge of the scene. Tell him to tell Dan that he's Jojo's grandpa and there to take her to safety. If he doesn't she'll go directly into child services." James said with his phone to his ear. Roman relayed the information and hung up.
"Why did it take you so long to tell us this?" Roman asked James.
"We wanted to verify that it was really Jessie. We had to check and recheck before the director would allow us to arrest her. And I've been trying to put it off until you could be there for Jojo, but things with Angel kept getting worse and I couldn't hold off any more."
"And why was today the day to arrest her?" Roman demanded. James scratched his neck before he replied.
"She was going to take Jojo and run Roman."
"What! Are you serious?" Roman shouted. James motioned for Roman to calm down.
"We've been keeping close tabs on her while Angel has been in the hospital. The director had held off on arresting her as long as he could, but once a trace on her computer revealed her purchasing two airline tickets to Brazil we had to act."
"Not only has that bitch been helping my stalker she was going to run off with my daughter too." Roman roared and slammed his fist into the wall. The sound of my heart monitor blared out suddenly and everyone turned toward the bed.
TBC
A/N There is one chapter after this and then an epilogue. Please R/R