It was hardest with nightmares. They still got the best of her. She was alive she shouldn't be having these. the flashbacks would be the death of her she knew it.

"I'm glad I found you." It was knifes stabbing her even in her dreams. Her eyes had only fear. She couldn't move. She couldn't.

"Don't you dare turn…" His voice said.

She couldn't understand him now she just glanced at Sean. Sean was trying to get him to stop. But no its went off. "SEAN?" She screamed with tears running down.

"Emma?" Manny said shaking her. "Emma wake up."

"What?" Emma said shaking.

"You were having a bad dream."

"Was more of a bad flashback." Emma said as she pulled the covers up to her.

"Are you ok?" Manny asked.

"I will be." Emma said. She grabbed her phone from the stand and decided to just lay in bed and text Sean.

Hey *Em

Shouldnt you be sleeping? *Sean

Same for you? *Em

True, couldn't sleep. *Sean

Same, had a dream. *Em

What kind? *Sean

The flashback kind that you wish you could forget. *Em

Him again? *Sean

Yea, Manny woke me up. *Em

Want to go for a ride? *Sean

Sure. I will get dressed and meet you outside. *Em

Sounds good. *Sean

Sean gave up sleeping months ago. It was pointless, he totally got what Emma felt. The dreams never seemed to stop ever. They always came back sometimes for him it wasn't just flashbacks those dreams took on their own way of life. Ways that would wake Sean and scare him so bad.

Sean got in his car and made his way to Emmas. It was 2am, he knew tomorrow was the last day of summer vacation. The next day he'd back at degrassi. He needed to work on sleeping again. Otherwise he was not going to survive school.

Emma got out of her window telling Manny she'd back and to cover for her if her mother came down. Manny agreed and she told Em go have some fun that she really needed to go and get some fresh air. Emma got into Seans car and they headed off into the night. Emma didn't say anything for awhile. She was still shaken by her dream. She wish she could understand why she was having it everynight.

"Emma?" Sean said finally.

"Sorry." She said not really knowing why she said sorry.

"For what?" Sean said laughing.

"I have no idea." She admitted. "So where we off to?"

"I have no idea." HE admitted.

"Well I have nothing planned as usual." She said smiling.

"My house watch a movie?" Sean asked.

"Sure." Emma said uneasy.

"Emma are you ok?" Sean asked.

"Can I ever be again?" She asked.

"You can be, if you let those who care in." Sean said to her.

"I'm trying." She said softly.

"I will always be here for you. I promise." He said.

"You're not going to leave?" She asked.

"No, I'll stay." Sean said.

"So you will be at school tomorrow?" She asked.

"Yea, even though its the last place I want to go." He admitted.

"Trust me I know what you mean." She said looking down.

They pulled into Sean's driveway. They both got out and headed inside. Emma waited a minute before going in but followed him inside. She made her way to his couch and sat down. She had no feelings for anything anymore. She just felt empty. She wish she could stop this feeling. It was bothering her so much.

"You ok?" Sean asked her again.

"Can I ask you something?" She said looking him in his eyes.

"Yes anything." He said grabbing them both a bottle of water.

"Do you feel empty?" She asked seriously.

"No." He admitted. "Why do you?"

"I feel nothing." She said.

"Emma have you said anything to your parents?" Sean asked. "You may be suffering from depression."

"I can't speak." She said. "I just don't talk to them. It feels weird."

"Want me to be there with you?"

"Please?" She asked.

"Always." Sean said smiling.

Jay didn't want to loose the only person who was his friend. Sean Cameron, he knew he'd hate him forever if he even found out the truth. Jay knew he was just at fault for Emma not being Emma. Emma wasn't even a person anymore. She was just lost in the world. She had no emotions Jay could see when she was around Sean. She didnt say anything to Jay anymore. He missed it in a way.

Sean what are you doing?*Jay

With Em, talking to her mom why? *Sean

I need to talk. *Jay

Is it important?* Sean

If I tell you, you will hate me. *Jay

What? *Sean

I pulled the prank on Rick, I told him not really but said Jimmy did it when I saw he was in the bathroom. *Jay

Goodbye *Sean

Sean please I am sorry *Jay

For what? Jimmy? Emma being depressed literally fightng depression and not telling anyone until this second? For me not knowing what to even feel about anything? I stopped him from killing her. You started the domino effect. *Sean

I am Sorrry *Jay

Should have thought about it before it happen. *Sean

SEAN *Jay

Goodbye, dont even look at me ever again. *Sean

Life was about to change for alot of people. For the best? Maybe, for the worst? Who knows, but this is degrassi. It's always interesting.