Happy day after New Years Guys! It's 2015 now and I here to give you my first chapter update for the year! Now as you've all been noticing, my chapters have been getting a tad bit shorter. This is because the story is ending and I am preparing you guys for this ending!
Now for this chapter we go on and see things through Natsu's perspective (this part was based on Where She Went by Gale Foreman) as he struggles to keep his promise to Lucy as she finally wakes up.
On a Side Note:
Words in italics - thoughts/ fashbacks
Everyone should know the drill by now! Mavis Reed does not own Fairy Tail or its characters, all rights belongs to Hiro Mashima. The main plot of the story was inspired by Gayle Foreman's If I Stay and a little bit of Where she Went so I will credit them as well so I will not be sued for copyright!
So please enjoy your second to the last weekly dose of Come Back to Me!
Chapter Nine: The Guilt
Natsu's P.O.V.
It's been three weeks since Lucy woke up, and I can still remember it like it was yesterday.
"Natsu," she said and my head jolted up, "thank goodness you're safe." Her voice was hoarse and she still looked sickly pale but I didn't care. I hugged her instantly. Here she was, sitting before me, her eyes were finally open. "Lucy," I whispered, "thank Mavis you're awake." She called out my name again and started to cry.
"Luce!" I panicked, "is something wrong does anything hurt!"
She shook her head, "I was so worried about you!"
"Worried about me? Lucy you nearly died and you were worried about me?"
She looked utterly confused and took a look around the room. Her eyes became wide, as if she just realized where she was.
"What happened? Why am I in the infirmary? When did we get back to the Guild?"
"You don't remember anything?"
She shook her head, "The only thing I remember was running to you before that baby Trevalis could stab –" She paused. I guess she was starting to remember.
"It wasn't me that was stabbed back there. It was you Lucy. I'm so sorry." I grabbed her hand and cried into it again, "I'm so sorry."
She took her hand and cupped my face, "You have nothing to be sorry for Natsu, I'd do anything to protect those dear to me."
I could feel my face heating and my heart beating faster. So this is what it means to be in love.
I suddenly remembered my promise, "Luce do you remember anything while you were asleep? Anything at all?" She shook her head, looks like she didn't hear me. Now's not probably the right time to tell her though, first things first, I had to fill her in on everything that happened lately concerning her.
I told her everything from the moment she lost consciousness up till now and she sat there silently. She fiddled with her keys and I felt an enormous sense of Guild.
"Luce I'm sure you'll get strong enough to be a mage again! You just got to go through some healing and training!"
She said and did nothing. It worried me. Her reaction was so, blank. If I were just told I couldn't use magic anymore I would have thrown a fit. Slowly she laid back down and her eyes began to drift close. "Luce?!"
She covered her eyes with her arms and I ran to grab Porlyusica-san and Wendy. When we came back into the room she was sitting up again and staring at the window.
"Lucy-san!" Wendy ran to her and cried in her arms while Porlyusica-san smiled. After that everything was a blur. The two of them checked on Lucy's vital signs and were glad that she was recovering quickly. Porlyusica-san explained to Lucy her situation on her Magical Container and she cried immensely.
After her check up, one by one, her spirits crossed over from the Spirit World to Earthland telling her the same thing: They'll still be her spirit even if she couldn't use them. The little magic she had left couldn't summon them, but it did make their contract still valid. They all agreed they'd appear only when absolutely needed on their own power.
Everyone was touched by this and agreed it was the best solution. Lucy was thankful to all her spirits and was glad she'd still be able to see them.
Once she was strong enough she was allowed visitors and I could barely get any time alone with her. To pass the time Erza, Gray, Wendy, and I managed to get a hold of our client and send them the sample we sacrificed so much to get. I was glad to get rid of that stupid thing. It was a constant reminder of why Lucy was in the situation in the first place.
Slowly the days passed by and I still couldn't visit her. I was starting to get anxious. I still had something very important to tell her, but I didn't know how. I was also worried how she would reaction to my confession. I mean it's my fault she nearly died in the first place. How could she possible return my feelings? A week after she woke up I decided to not tell her yet. I know I promised that I would tell her as soon as she woke up, but it was too risky. I'd tell her when I think the time is right, besides it's not like anyone heard me saying that I'd confess to her.
My mind drifted back to reality. It was time for Lucy's daily walk. I grabbed her wheelchair that Gajeel made for her upon Levy's request, and walked into her room. Lucy wasn't allowed to leave the infirmary room just yet, but the guild decorated it to make her feel more comfortable. We brought over her bed from home, painted the walls, and brought her little sister doll, Michelle. She was sitting up and staring out the window when I walked in.
"Lucy!" I called out and she turned her head, "It's time to head outside."
She sighed, "I don't want to."
I frowned. Her mood today seemed gloomier than usual. "Lucy you okay?"
"Yes, don't mind me."
I just couldn't handle her depressing mood, so I picked up and placed her into the wheelchair.
"Hey!" she protested, "I said I didn't want to go!"
"No can do Luce. Porlyusica-san said your body needs to absorb sunlight to get better or something so you need to go outside!"
"I don't need sunlight Natsu I'm fine!"
"Yes you do! You need to get better so you can start training your magic–"
"I'm never getting better!" she yelled and I gasped, "Don't you get it Natsu! I'm never going to use magic again!"
"Luce…" I kneeled in front of her, "what's gotten into you?"
She faced the other way and I followed, she continued to avoid me until I held her face gently to look at me. "Luce, tell me."
She sighed, "I'm tired. I'm really tired Natsu."
"Tired of what?"
"Being pitied that's what! Everyone's been doing nothing but pity me! Porlyusica-san, Wendy, Erza, Gray, Levy, everyone, especially you!"
Her sudden anger caught me off guard and I fell on my butt, "Lucy, are you angry with me?" Again she avoided me. This time I held her shoulders and waited for her to look at me. When she faced my direction I asked again, "Are you angry at me?"
She stared at the ground, "Yes I am."
I was afraid, but I asked anyways, "Why?"
She didn't speak for a while until she mumbled something like you made me come back, and I tensed up. I stared at her, dumbfounded. It all started coming back to me, but she couldn't possibly know I asked her to stay. No one knew but me.
"Lucy… What did you say?" I know she remembers my super hearing but she decided to shout it out as if I didn't hear it the first time.
"You made me come back!"
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