April's POV

I rushed into the infirmary to find Casey being pinned down by Leo and Raph. He was in a mind of madness with his eyes wild and limbs thrashing.

"I HATE HIM!" he was shrieking "I HATE THAT PIGGING BASTARD!"

I stood to the side of him, clutching Shadow protectively in my arms who mercifully wasn't making a sound.

The guys had managed to get him face down with his arms forced behind his back however he still continued to bellow in his drunk state.

Suddenly Leo raised his hand and struck him across the face. We all, including Casey immediately went silent in shock. I never expected Leo to be the cause o such violence.

A moment later Raph was on his feet glaring daggers at his brother "WHAT THE HECK DID YA DO THAT FOR!" he roared.

"I was trying to calm him down!" Leo retorted.

"DOES HE LOOK CALM TA YOU!" Raph jabbed at Casey who was kneeling on the floor with half of his face a stinging red and was taking huge gulping breathes. At least he wasn't screaming anymore.

While Raph and Leo stared venomously at each other I went so that I stood in front of Casey. I took a deep breath and crouched down before him. I didn't want to startle him and all the obvious tension wasn't going to do him any favours. I was about to say his name when someone beat me to it.

"Casey?" Shadow said from my arms. She reached out her little arms trying to get her brother. "Casey!" she giggled and clapped.

She was just so darn precious! I smiled down at Casey thinking that this would help him but instead he looked guiltily away. Shadow was confused by this and started to cry desperately for him "Casey? Casey! CASEY!"

Yet he ignored her. What was he doing? Can't he see how obvious she needs him! And all he can do is turn away from her.

"Casey, take your sister" I said firmly"

"No" he said with a sniff "She ain't safe with me, I can't be trusted ta hold her"

My jaw went limp. I couldn't believe what he was saying. The alcohol must still be clouding his brain.

"What are you saying?" I asked.

The tension in the room had reached breaking point with Casey's long silence and Shadows loading cries. Leo and Raph had stopped their glaring contest and now had all there attention on Casey.

"I could hurt her, like I hurt Donnie"
His eyes widened at Donnie's name "Awww crud Donnie; is he okay?" he asked frantically.

"Hey it's alright" I said placing my hand on his knee to try and calm him down "Trust me Donnie doesn't blame you"

"Yeah Donnie's cool man, he'll understand" Raph added coming so that he sat at his friends side.

Casey shook his head and clenched his fists in frustration. "But he shouldn't!" he burst "I hit him for nothin'. I don't deserve his forgiveness."

"Everyone deserves forgiveness" Leo said.

"Not everyone" Raph grumbled darkly under his breath.

Me and Leo sent him a 'not helping' look.

Casey let out a drunken chuckle and we all worriedly tuned our attention back to him.

"I wanted to be like him ya know, my dad. He was the greatest hockey player I'd ever known. He was my idol and when I was older I wanted to be just like him" he glanced at the empty bottles and let out a dry laugh "Guess I am really like him now. Getting pathetically drunk then hurting the people closest to ya"

"You and that bastard ain't nothing alike" Raph said firmly.

Casey just scoffed in response.

Shadow's cries were now at the point of making us death and only Casey could calm get down when she was like this. That gave me an idea.

"Hold her!" I said dropping into Casey arms before he could refuse. He quickly adjusted himself do that he could hold her properly and protect her head. He started to cradle her naturally and within moments her cries were reduced to sniffs.

"That is why you aren't your father" I said. He looked at me confused and I sighed "He wouldn't be able to care and love Shadow like you are doing now. He may be your Dad but you are your own person. You are brave and loyal so don't you ever say otherwise." I told him sternly.

He nodded meekly under my glare but then a real smile appeared on his face.

"I'm sorry guys; for everything. I'm a real pain in the ass"

"Yeah we know" Raph teased punching him lightly on the shoulder.

"Casey happy?" Shadow asked from her brothers arms who smiled down at her and kissed her on the forehead.

"Yes Sis, I'm all happy now thanks to you"

She giggled and tried to grab the loose strands of his hair. It was adorable.

"I hate to ask" Loe said breaking the atmosphere "But when are you going to see your Dad?"

He was about to answer when Raph butted in.

"WHAT! He ain't seriously gonna see that man. He don't deserve it!" he shouted clenching in fists in rage.

"Whoa dude chill!" Casey said placing his hand on his friends shoulder to calm him down "It's ok man, I have to see him. After all he's done he's still my dad and I need to know if he's ok"

Raph glared at him clearly worried about him but eventually he just put up his hands in surrender. "Whatever" he mumbled.

"Do you want me to come with you?" I asked Casey. If it were me I would want the support of my friends with me. But to my surprise he shook his head.

"No. I need to do this on my own" he said begging me silently. I sighed but I knew there wasn't anything I could do to change his mind so I nodded in understanding.

"I'll come with you and keep watch from the fire escape in case your Dad tries ta do anything" Raph said.

"No dude. I needs you ta look after Shadow. I don't want her ta see her Dad like this." Casey told him.

Raph looked like her was going to argue but instead he just poured and took Shadow from him.

"I could take you in the Shellraiser?" Leo offered.

"Thanks man" he replied.

Just as they were about to leave I grabbed Casey by the arm and gave him a quick peck on his cheek.

"Don't do anything stupid" I told him.

"Why would I do that?" he said with a smirk.

I had bad feeling about this.