I ran to my small apartment and tried to calm myself down with a hot cup of tea.
"Wait, when did tea ever calm me down and how did I know?" I thought out loud. I was so confused about so many things and for some reason I wasn't scared. After hours of thinking about my kiss with Shin and old memories resurfacing. I finally drifted to sleep. I woke up the following morning to a loud banging noise. I fell out of my bed and hit the ground startled.
"Ow." I groaned rubbing my head. I approached the door cautiously and peeked through the eye hole to see Shin with an irritated expression.
"I know you are there stupid, open up already." he ordered.
I opened the door without thinking and realized I was still in my night gown. My face turned bright red, but Shin didn't seem to notice. He sat down on my bed with a carefree expression and motioned for me to come over. I walked over and sat down beside him. It was quiet for a few minutes, before he finally spoke.
"Listen, I understand you are confused, but you need to know that you can't trust that guy." Shin growled.
"I understand," I answered.
"I am sure you understand, but you can be reckless sometimes/" he muttered under his breath.
"I am weak, stupid, and naïve, but I will try my best to change those unlikeable traits," I spat, suddenly.
"You really are an idiot." he laughed, placing his hand on my head gently.
So even Shin can smile? I understood what he was saying before, but why am I an idiot for saying so?... Maybe I really am clueless. I let out a sigh and sat up.
Before I could react Shin grabbed my arm and pulled me onto his lap. This surprised me and I let out a yelp.
He held me tight, as if I was going to disappear. "Just a little longer... I know I can be forceful, but just a little longer," Shin said.
I stayed silent and let him hold me for the next few minutes.
"It's alright, you remember me now and that's what's important," I said in a reassuring tone.
He nodded and approached the door.
"Leaving already?" I asked.
"I am going to go get a few things, stay here and don't open this door for anyone but me. Understand?" he finished.
I nodded and he left.
I was so unsure about so many things. I knew and loved Ukyo, yet I loved Shin as well. It was like I had two different lives with each of them. Shin told me to avoid Ukyo, but it was difficult to accept that Ukyo was a danger. I sat down on my bed and waited for hours, until someone knocked at the door.
"Wh-who's there?" I asked quietly.
"Toma and I," Shin answered.
"Toma?" I repeated in confusion.
"Yeah! Childhood friend, known him your entire life?" Shin said with an irritated tone.
I opened the door to see Shin and a man I had never seen before. He had blonde hair and golden eyes that shown brightly. Toma entered behind Shin with a bright smile. Wow he seems so kind..
"Toma hand me that bag," Shin told Toma who was holding a plastic bag.
Inside were eggs, ham, and bread. Before I knew it Shin was cooking. In about 15 minutes, he handed me a tray of delicious food. The eggs practically melted in my mouth. I wanted to say thank you, but with Toma so close, I felt a little awkward.
Instead I bowed and finished my meal.
"So, Shin filled me in with the...err situation? Is it true?" he asked looking at me.
I nodded towards him as I collected the trays.
I wanted to say something, but for some reason I just couldn't. "I will help clean up," Toma said standing up.
Shin just laid in my bed and ignored us. I suppose it was fair, considering he cooked the meal.
Toma stood next to me and handed me dirty plates, then his hand touched mine. A few seconds after his eyes were opened wide and he began to back away from me. "To-toma? Are you alright?" I asked concerned.
"I am fine, I think. Something...strange just happened is all. Similar to what happened to Shin actually, but that's impossible." he muttered to himself.
Shin, now interested walked up beside me and stared at Toma. "Toma, I think you should go home," Shin said leading him towards the door.
"You kissed her and she remembered right?" Toma asked suddenly. Shin nodded and without a word Toma left the apartment. Shin looked a little shaken up, but recovered quickly.
"Do you think Toma really believed you?" I asked.
"I don't know, but what I do know is that this will be trouble.
"I have college tomorrow, so I won't be with you during the day. Usually you would work at the Café, but I would rather you avoid contact with that place, so I will be paying your bills for the next few months, until you can find a different well paying job.
"That's too much." I mumbled in surprise.
"Just shut up and be thankful, and relax for once. I want you to stay home as much as possible for the rest of the month. Afterwards, start job hunting." he explained with a sour expression.
"Shin..." I muttered in gratitude.
I ran up to him and hugged him. At first he seemed surprised, then hugged me back. It was these moments, that I remembered why I loved him. He could be so foul, yet so gentle and kind.
After he left I spent the rest of the day in bed. Why did Toma become startled after we touched and why was Shin troubled by this? These questions bounced around in my head until I drifted to sleep.
The next day I decided it would be best for me to take a walk and stretch my legs, after being inside for so many days. I was just going to the park, so he shouldn't mind...
I made my way to the park and when I arrived I saw a familiar face. "Toma!" I said waving. I expected to see a kind smile, but instead greeted me with an icy expression. He walked over and sat down next to me without a word.
"Who am I?" he asked suddenly.
"You are Toma..." I answered.
"Wrong," he said moving his face close to mine. I inched away quickly, but he continued to move closer. I tried to stand up, but he grabbed my arm leaving me defenseless.
'Shin was right, I really am stupid!' I thought to myself.
Toma's nose was now touching mine and then his lips met mine. Just like before, memories poured into my mind. I screamed, as it overwhelmed me.
"Not again." I whispered, my eyes closing.