Kate,
You're gone and I'm left here having to contemplate a life without you. It wasn't meant to be like this! I was meant to go to work and carry on leading Sulgrave whilst you stayed at home looking after our baby daughter; your only wish in life. Instead I've got to juggle running a school with looking after a newborn baby and the boys.
Looking after Flore-Grace isn't the problem though. The problem is I have to live a life without you by my side. I can't imagine it. I don't want to have to imagine it, let alone live it. You always were the love of my life, if only I had stood up and told the world sooner. You have the untold ability to light up a room just with your presence. I love your smile; your perfect smile. And those brown eyes did more talking than words ever could.
Our daughter will grow up knowing all about you, her fantastic mother. I'll make sure she knows so much about you that it's like you're here with us. Flora will grow up with the outdoors and grow to love hiking just as much as you did. I'll make sure she learns to play on the very piano that you were so proud of.
I love you, Kate. I hope you know just how much I love you. As I sit here and write this I keep expecting you to walk through the kitchen door with a cup of tea and to open your mouth for the soothing tone of your voice to escape. Or I expect to walk into the living room and find you sleeping peacefully with Flora in your arms. It's so unfair. You're the kindest person I've ever met, and just as I was able to make an honest woman out of you it all gets ripped from our clutches.
I will always love you.
Your dearest Caroline xx