"As long as there is love and memory, there in no true loss."

-Jem Carstairs, City of Heavenly Fire

Chapter 9

Tris POV

I held my breath as Christina began to talk to Tobias. She did an excellent job, I have to say. Will left as soon as she came.

"We'll meet you in Zeke's apartment later," he whispered. "I'll go find Uriah. We'll meet up by six tonight. You've got two hours. Good luck Tris." Then he disappeared out the door, leaving me by myself to watch Tobias and Christina.

It was hard, watching Christina tell Tobias what I believed needed to be. I know that I couldn't do it. I wouldn't want to. I knew that from experience.

After Christina leaves, I watch Tobias. He looks sad, and a bit angry. I can't blame him. I would be angry if he asked someone else to talk to me because he couldn't do it. If only I could tell him in person.

Four POV

When Christina leaves, I just stand there. How could Tris not want to be with me? Why couldn't she have told me in person? I feel a flare of anger. Why doesn't she think I can handle the truth? It would be better coming from her.

But still, she doesn't want to be with me. After everything that happened, she decided for some reason that I wasn't right for her. And after everything that happened… I turned around and scanned the room. I feel like Tris was here when Christina was talking. I glance over by the door, and see a faint shimmering shape.

"Tris?" I ask aloud.

She looks around, then back at me. "Can you see me?" she asks.

"Yes." She looks at her shimmering hands, and curses under her breath.

"I didn't mean to appear," she says.

"I could've guessed," I snapped at her. "You obviously don't want to see me anymore."

She looked hurt, but how could she be? She was the one who didn't want to be with me. "I didn't mean it that way," she whispers.

"Oh yeah? Then why did you tell Christina what to say. Why couldn't you have talked to me? You had to have someone else do the dirty work for you."

"Stop," she says forcefully enough to make me calm down for a moment. "I didn't mean that I didn't want to see you again. I just don't think that it would be best if we stay together again." I can hear the pain in her voice as she says that.

"And why is that?"

"This is why I didn't want to appear to you," she mutters. "Um, I meant it's complicated, but I talked with some friends. Well, just Will and Uriah. They backed me up on this. I decided that maybe we should give you some time to move on…from me. That you should get time to fall in love with someone who is actually alive, instead of staying hung up on a ghost."

I choose my words carefully. "Tris, I will never find anyone like you. Why makes you think I want to move on?"

"Last time this happened…" she scratched her head, "well, we don't speak of it anymore. Nobody would tell me what happened."

"I assure you Tris, I will only ever love you."

She closes her eyes, as if she's praying for me to see her side. "Maybe if you gave some thought to finding someone else, you wouldn't be so concerned with getting back together with your dead girlfriend. And I am always right, aren't I?" at this point, she sounds secure and insecure at the same time. It's like she's trying to convince herself of this as she says it.

Still, what she said sounds harsh. She making me sound like some sort of creeper, who's obsessed with trying to bring back the dead, or be with the dead. "Tris," I begin. "I know you think that you're doing what's best for me, but I know what's best for me." I walk over to her. "And being with you is one of the best things that has happened in my life. I know that you're usually right, but I think this may be one scenario where you are wrong."

I squeeze her hand. She doesn't resist it. " Though some may not think it, this is what's best for me. For us. I understand your fear, that this might get us both in trouble. But if nobody know, how can we get in trouble?"

I see a smile on her lips, and she looks up at me. "Alright," she says. "I'll give us a chance." She hugs me, and leaves, a smile on her face.

Tris POV

After I left, I felt better for a little bit, but I was also disappointed. I failed. I knew I shouldn't have talked to Tobias. I knew that he would managed to change my mind.

But, this might be the start of a new era for us. It might cause a change within us ghosts. I just hope that I can go through with this. I feel like this may be wrong, that I might be making the worst decision of my ghostly life. Still, my gut tells me that this is the one of the best things I could've done. I guess I'll just have to wait and see how it shakes out.

Hey guys! It's been a while. I've been busy lately, with Blood of Olympus and catching up on Once Upon A Time. Please review! You guys are the best! Sorry for another short one!

Question of the Chapter: Which faction do you want to belong to? I think I'm erudite, but every online test tells me I'm either Candor or Dauntless:)Mostly Dauntless

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