Here is the newest chapter! I've gone back to chapter 2, 3 and 4 to give them more space! Enjoy and leave me lot of reviews!

Thank God that I survived the day. After the kiss that happened at Saturday I was afraid of seeing Dimitri again on Monday. I was afraid that he would try to get close to me again. I don't want to let him in again. But he didn't get close to me today. It was awkward. And that doesn't even begin to cover the situation between us. He only spoke to me when it was absolutely necessary. But I could feel his eyes on me the entire day. But when I looked at him he would look away. I shouldn't have said to him that he was the reason for the scars. He isn't the reason.

After graduation I was supposed to go to court and they would give a charge. But after everything that happened I was nearly depressed. I suffered from losing Lissa and the bond between us. I suffered from all the shadows that tried to pull me down. And in school I only managed to keep standing on my own two feet was because of Dimitri. After he broke up with me I ended up being alone. I went to court and prepared to spend the next three weeks there.

One night the pain inside me became too much for me to handle. And I tried everything. I ran for two hours. Leaving my muscles sour. I cried my eyes out. But it didn't made the pain easier. I tried to drink the pain away. It would make me feel numb. And when my feeling came rushing back it made me angry. That I was so weak. That I would cry over a guy. I never had. In my anger moment I threw a couple of plates to the wall. When I cleaned up the mess I made I cut myself. And that was the moment I felt it for the first time. In that moment that I had psychical pain I wouldn't feel the emotional pain. That was the moment when the cutting started.

And I knew it was wrong and that I shouldn't do it. But I couldn't stop. It made me feel more at peace at that moment. I didn't want other to see it so I would only cut my legs. So I could wear shorts that reached far enough to cover it.

But after those three weeks I was still stuck at court. That was the moment that Hans told me that nobody filled a request for me to be his/her guardian. And a part of me had expected it already. I should have been the guardian of the last Dragomir. And because of that Lissa died, people thought that it would bring evil to them when they get the guardian of the last Dragomir. It happened before. Not in the same way as it happened to me. But when a king or queen was murdered, the guardians never got a new charge. They spent the rest of their lives at court or at an academy. And that would be my future from that moment on.

I left Hans' office that night without a vision of a proper future. I always dreamed of being a kick-ass guardian. I even wanted to reach the status my mother and Dimitri had. But my life was planned before it even started. After that night I let the shadows get closer to me. I didn't even fight anymore. And I knew that people were worried about me. Adrian screamed night after night at me. My mother came to look at me. I knew that she was disappointed at me. That I gave up so quickly. And at some point everything became too much to bare. I ran from court and I let all the walls down. Pulling every shadow to me that I could reach. That night, I tried to take my own life.

That week went by so fast. We still don't talk and I feel like I can finally breath again now I know that I won't have to see him today. He has a shift at the gates today. So the academy will be save for now. I called with Adrian this morning and he was as shocked as I was that Dimitri is here. And he promised to visit soon. I also called Abe because I remembered that I forget to tell him that I am working at the academy for two weeks now. It sounds bad, I know that. But we have moments where we speak to each other every day and we have moment were we don't speak for weeks.

He was worried that I am back here. And he went furious when he found out that Dimitri is here. He isn't very pleased with the idea that Dimitri and I spent so much time together. He was there when I broke and he picked me up. Abe helped me getting me back on my feet and gave me a job. I wouldn't be where I am today if Abe wasn't in my life. I am lucky to have such a good father. He really made up for the years that he missed and a lot more. He told me that he would stop by at the academy soon. He wanted a small talk with Dimitri. We all know what that means. I tried to convince Abe that I could handle it myself but he felt it was his duty as my father to deal with him.

At the moment I'm on my way to the gym. In the time I worked for Abe I met a girl, Mies, she became a great friend of mine. She is two years older than me and she is from the Netherlands. She taught me to dance and I still love to do that. And since the students doesn't come in the gym on Saturday, I can dance. I begin my stretches and put on some music. I find myself dancing the rest of the afternoon. Music as Thinking at loud comes by.

It is already 4:30 when I am finally done with the dancing. Nobody walked in and I'm glad about that. It was nice to have a little time for myself. I walk towards my room and take a quick shower. Time for dinner. I pick up some food and sit down next to Mo. He smiles at me and gives me a small bag. I look up in surprise.

'Just open it. I know you want to.' He says with a smile. He just gave me a gift. How sweet! And that after I left him in the middle of a conversation. I open it and gasp. Donuts! Oh my gosh. I missed them so much. I smile my man eater smile at Mo and look back in the bag. There are like five chocolate glazed donuts in there. My mouth waters at the sight of them. I've been at the academy for like three weeks now and I haven't had a donuts since I left court. This makes my day. Hell, it makes my whole week!

'You know you are amazing!' I say and look up at Mo. He looks at me with a glint in his eyes and chuckles.

'I know Rose. Now take a bite.' He says and nudge the bag closer to me. I pick one out of it and take a large bite. I moan at the taste of it. I'm like an addict here. Mo lets out another chuckle but I ignore it. I close my eyes and finish the donuts in seconds. After I finish the donuts, I even lick my fingers.

'I have never seen a girl eat like that.' Mo says and I look up at him. A little bit shocked and embarrassed. His eyes are a tint darker than usual. I wonder why. His stare makes me even more embarrassed and I look away. His fingers pushes up my chin so I have to look at him.

'Don't. I like it when a lady can eat!' he says and smiles a sweet smile at me. His eyes lock with mine and I see so much emotion in it. From the moment I know that he is a good person and that he will be a wonderful friend.

After I have eaten all of the donuts I kiss Mo's cheek and thank him. He suggest to train today and I accept. After we both get changed we spend the whole day outside training.

So, how was this chapter? It has a little more explaining, but there is more to come. I'm currently writing chapter 8 and things will come a lot clearer by then!
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