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So here is chapter 7:

I am standing in a beautiful garden. There are flowers everywhere and the smell is so nice. It is warm and it is the middle of the moroi night. I am wearing a red dress that reach half my thighs. I walk around slowly, enjoying this beautiful moment. I feel so happy and free. It's like I'm no longer bound to shadows. I can feel him before I can see him. Dimitri. My hearts starts beating faster and every color shines brighter. His hands rest on my hips and he press a light kiss on the top of my head. His voice whispers my name. 'Roza'. Over and over again.

I turn around and rest my hand on his cheek. My beautiful man. He leans into my hand and leaves a small kiss on the inside of my wrist. My hearts start to swell when I look into his eyes. There is nothing more than love. Pure love. And I know that the same is radiating from my eyes. My love for him. He leans down and his lips capture mine. And in that kiss I lose myself and everything that's going on in our lives. Only he and I are important in this moment.

I tangle my hands in his hair and pull him even closer to me. His hands are still resting on my hips and he pulls my hips closer to his. And in that moment it feels like my whole body is on fire. I ached for him to touch him. To kiss me. To hold me close. My whole life is coming together in that moment and I know that I lived to meet him. That I was waiting until our lives would come together. And as long as I have him by my side nothing can go wrong. His hands move over my body making me shiver. I pull him down and notice we are lying on a bed. The garden is gone and instead we are in the cabin. I'm staring in Dimitri's beautiful eyes when it all just changes.

I am standing on a graveyard. There are a lot of stones but the one in front of me makes me want to run. 'Rosemarie Hathaway.', it says. I try to walk away but something is making me look back at it. There is a person kneeling in front of it. Crying and calling my name. A small girl. When I move back towards the stone I freeze. In front of the stone is my younger self. I guess that I'm eighteen years old. I try to reach her, comfort her. But I can't reach her. Instead I hear a voice from behind me. I don't have to turn to now who is standing there. Dimitri. I feel relieved. He will comfort her, me. I know he will. My younger self stands up and walks toward him. A happy smile on her face and her eyes sparkling. When she is only two meters from him he pulls out a gun and shoots her in her heart. I scream and I fall on my knees.

I wake up with a scream. My heart is beating so fast at the moment. It felt so real. First the beauty of him kissing me. And then where he kills me. He didn't really killed me. But it felt so back then. Sweat if forming and I feel dirty. I push the sheets back and walk towards my bathroom. Needing a shower. But even in the shower I can't let go of the dream that I had. It had been a long time when I had these kind of dreams for the last time. Only when something that reminded me about him came in front of me I would have these kind of dreams. And I guess him touching me and kissing me is a big trigger. After my shower I notice that it is 5 pm. Early in the morning for the moroi. Going back to bed isn't going to work anymore. I still love to sleep and I still love my bed. Just as I did when I was still in the academy. But after all the nightmares and trouble that I've been through the bed is a little less my friend anymore.

I have put on some clothes and am taking a walk. Not sure where I am going but it is nice to keep myself busy for a moment. Or at least my body. My mind is still replaying the dream over and over. Seeing Dimitri every day brings back memories and a lot of feelings. The kiss we shared made me feel alive. And I haven't feel alive for the last five years. It's like my life has been on hold when Dimitri walked out of my life. And the moment he walks back into it, it is like someone pushed play again. And my mind goes back to the night in the garden. He looked sad when he found out that I didn't know that he will be my training partner. But I still don't know what he expect me to do. Be happy to see him again and let him into my life again? After he left me heartbroken. I won't be running back into his arms like nothing happened. Even if there is a part of me that wants to.

After another half hour of walking I hear a voice coming closer to me. And in the same moment I recognize that voice. Dimitri. I look around me, trying to find an escape route. But there isn't one. So I do what the first thing I can think of. I climb into a tree. Hoping that he won't see me in here. I can't understand what he is saying because it is probably in Russian. And I only hear his voice. He must be on the phone talking with someone. He comes closer and he is easier to hear. I can't understand the words he is saying, but one thing I can understand. Roza. My Russian name. I don't know who is talking to but he is talking about me. Moments after he passed my tree I let myself fall down. I wanted to do it soundless but I guess I failed. Dimitri has turned in seconds and his stake is in his hands. He says my name in a breath. Making it sound like a prayer.

'You startled me. What are you doing here?' he asks as he shoves his stake back in his belt. I smile an awkward smile and look up in the tree I just jumped out of. Shit, shit, shit. I didn't want to talk to him and now I have no choice. Why do I always help myself in this kind of situations.

'Ah, you know. Just hanging around.' I say. I can see a small smile lingering around his lips. I stare in his eyes and am locked for a moment. His guardian mask has fallen down for a moment and I can see so much emotions in his eyes that moment. Regret, guilt, happiness but also love. Wait, he still loves me?

'Roza, I-I… I just… Can we…' He tries to say something but it won't come out his mouth. Frustrated he had his hands in his hair and he turn away from me. It still affects me when he says my name like that. His little pet name for me. What does he want to say? I just need to know. I take a step closer to him and lay my hand on his back. For a moment I can just enjoy to feel his body under my hand. But in a moment he has turned around and his hands are on my cheeks. His eyes bore into mine and I see the pleading look in them.

'Roza, can we go somewhere and just talk? Will you please listen to me? I know I hurt you and I know you hurt yourself because of it. But please Roza. I never mend to. I never mend to hurt you, to break you. Will you listen to me? Give me a little chance?' He says. His accents thick because of the emotions he let himself show in this moment. I can even see tears forming in his eyes. My heart aches because of the tears.

But I don't know if I can just give him that chance. Because I know that if I will go with him and listen to him, that I will end up forgiving him about it all. Then I will let him inside again and I can't control myself anymore. His hands on my cheeks just feels so right. He makes me feel alive again. Maybe I should just give him another chance?

But what if I don't give him this chance. What will he do? Will he give up and leave me? Or will he even try harder? But options scare me. I am not ready to have a relationship with him again. But I can't bear to see him with another woman. Somewhere he is still mine and he will always be mine.

What should I do?

What do you think that Rose should do? Go with him and try again. Or leave?