Chapter 10. Enjoy!

I sit in my bed and I just want to hit myself at the moment. Why did I need to ruin that moment with Dimitri? It felt so good to be so close to him again. For all those years I have been trying to tell myself that I could life without him and that I would be fine.

But that has been a lie from the beginning. I've been so far from the Rose I used to be. The person that makes fun of everyone and that has an attitude. I've been silent and lonely for the five years I've spent without him.

The old Rose would have chased him. She would have demand answers and a life together. But the person I was couldn't do that. I was happy that I stood on my feet back then. But now. Now I'm more than that. I want a life with Dimitri. I want to grow old together.

I, Rose Hathaway, wants to bind herself to a man. And I can't be anything than happy about it! It feels like my life has finally a purpose. With him in my life my life has meaning and I have something to look towards to.

I stand up quickly and I reach the kitchen before I remember that he is sharing a room with Mo. I can't just storm in that room and ask if Dimitri comes with me to my room. Not when Mo wanted to share a room with me.

How can this be such a mess at the moment. I curse and pull my hands through my hear.

'What's wrong?' his voice asks. Startling me. I spin around and there he is. Sitting on the couch. An amused look on his face as he is looking at me.

'What are you doing here? Why are you not in your bed?' I ask. It comes out a little bossier than I intent to. He chuckles and he stands up.

'I wanted to. But there is someone taking all the bed for himself.' He says with a smile. He walks toward me as I am walking to him.

He is standing in front of me. Tall and strong. My hands go up to his chest as his hands settle on my hips. His head slightly bend towards me. Our lips only inches apart.

'You can sleep with me. Please stay with me.' I whisper. His eyes glowing in the dark. He licks his lips and he nods slowly. The sparks are flowing between the two of us. How many times I have dreamed to have him with me for a night.

I take his hand and lead him to my room. He closes the door after him and then we are standing there staring at each other. Anticipation building with every second. Only our hands are tangled together.

I remove my hand from his and I walk around the room. His eyes that are following me every step are dark. I turn the little lamp on the side of the bed on and walk back to him. Now I can see him better. His eyes are moving over my body and it makes me shiver.

'I'm so sorry that I ever left you, my Roza. I'm sorry that you had to go through it all without me by your side. But give me another chance and I will never leave you again. I promise that I will never hurt you again Roza.' he says. His accents thicker with all the emotions he puts in it.

And I can only stand there listening to his beautiful voice. Not able to say something back to him. So instead of speaking I reach up and tangle my hands in his hear. I pull him closer and I press my lips against his. It takes him only a second to react and he wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me closer to him. His lips moving with mine.

His tongue traces my bottom lip, asking for permission. I happily give it to him and our tongues are soon battling for domination. My hands travel down to the hem of his shirt. His lips leaves mine and he places open mouthed kisses on my neck. I let my head fall back giving him better access.

My hands slide under his shirt and I gasp as I feel his hard stomach. I pull his shirt over his head wanting to have more skin to touch. My hands roam over his chest and his spine.

'Roza…' he says softly in me ear and I know that he tries to stay in control. Something that he always found it hard around me.

'Don't you want me Dimitri? Because I want you so badly.' I whisper hoarsely. His eyes bore in mine and I can see the fight that is going on inside of him. I can kiss him and he all his control will break down.

'It's not that I don't want you Roza. Because I want to. But I want it to be special.' He says and I can see the truth in his eyes. And I know that I can't do this to him. Not now. Dimitri always believed in doing the right thing and this isn't the right thing. Not in this moment.

We have barely talked and there are so much things that are keeping us apart. So I step back and give him a little space to become in control of himself again.

'Let's go to bed and just sleep, alright?' he says and he turns around. Letting me stare at his bare back. What a sight is that. I can't help myself to reach out and let my hand trace his spine. I can feel him shiver underneath my touch.

'I'm going to take a quick shower. And then I will meet you in bed.' He says and he walks away. I guess that he just needs a little time to collect himself.

'Mind if I join you?' I can't help to ask. I hear him taking in a sharp breath and his hands are shaking lightly.

'Roza. Please don't.' he says with a small voice. It lets me know how hard this is for him. So I let him walk to the bathroom and I undress myself. I slip into my nightgown and sit on the bed. Waiting for Dimitri to join me.

I fell asleep long before I could see Dimitri coming back from his shower. And maybe that was for the best. But when I woke up I was wrapped in his arms. His chest against my back. It felt like heaven. It felt like home.

But the thing was that I didn't woke up when I wanted to. Next to me, kneeling by the bed, was Derek. He looked a little ashamed to be there. But there was a sparkle in his eyes saying that he found it very funny to see Dimitri and me like this.

He had woken me up because it was time to collect the stuff for the equinox ball. After that he had left us and I had to wake Dimitri. Normally he would be the first one to be awake. But I guess that he had the same feelings as I had.

I hadn't slept that good in years. After I had woken Dimitri we came into the living room together. Mo was so pissed that Dimitri had slept with me after he had said that I would sleep alone. But after a little talk about how he had taken all the bed he had shut himself up.

We had decided that we would spent another night at the motel before we would head back to the academy. It felt good to have a good time with some new friends.

I was sitting next to Mo as we were talking and drinking. Robert had managed to get a little campfire so we just could just enjoy this night with the five of us. After we had been caught by Derek, Dimitri and I were taking a little distance. We weren't ready to let the others now what was between us.

And maybe that was because we didn't know. So here I was sitting next to Mo. His arm was lightly wrapped around my shoulder and he was again trying to get me drunk.

'Maybe we should to a motel for a weekend another time. Just the two of us.' Mo says in my ear and I freeze. I meet Dimitri's eyes over the fire and he stiffens as well.

Mo is asking me for a weekend away. With just the two of us. I like Mo. I like him a lot. But as a friend. He reminds me of Mason. What would I do? What can I do?

It isn't that Mo is a bad guy. He isn't. And he would probably make a girl very happy. But I'm not that girl. If is see myself with someone. If is imagine growing old with someone. It isn't Mo. It would be Dimitri. It would always be Dimitri.

'I… I am sorry Mo. But I don't have that kind of feelings for you.' I say and I am finally meeting his gaze. His eyes bore into mine. But they don't have any kind emotion in them.

'Am I not good enough Roza.' he says with a mean tone as he says Roza.

'Oh, that's right. I'm not Russian. That's it right. You are always with him. Will you ever see that he isn't good enough for you? Because I am Rose.' He says loudly for everyone to hear. I can see the hurt in his eyes. He truly has feelings for me.

'I am sor..' I try to say but Mo interrupts me.

'No Rose. Spare your apology.' He says and he jumps up. Before anyone of us can react he had walked away.

So she is with the Russian. How can she choose for him. What does he have to offer to her? I guess that way I won't have chance to have her. Not in the way I wanted to. But that won't stop me. It never stopped me anyway.

I will just take from her what I want to have. She is a woman. She is weak. But I have to do it fast. My masters don't want to wait any longer than necessary. So they say and I will do.

Only two weeks until the equinox ball. And my plan had already started. She doesn't know what will happen to her. Kill her they say. And I will kill her. But I can play with my prey, right?

All my life they have decided what I needed to do with my life. As the son of a high moroi I needed to follow. I needed to be ashamed of the weak excuse of my human mother. Father told me she was a witch who took him under her spell. And to make things right for me I need to follow him.

I spend my life at a academy to become a guardian. I never met my father until after graduation. But he told me that I owned him everything since he paid for my education. So after graduation I became his guardian for a while.

Now I've been his guardian for several years and I killed more people then I can count. I can't remember their name or their face. They weren't important. They were weak people that weren't worth living. And they never saw me coming. I'm just that good.

But this assignment is not as the others. There is something about Rose that makes her important. Maybe not for me or the people around her. Not as much as she is to my father and his friends. I've learned about Rose existence about five years ago.

My father came back home and he was furious. Saying that he couldn't that to him. That he couldn't have kept her hidden from them for all those years. Nobody could do that in the business where we worked in.

He had always known from my existence since the day I was born. And they had made an agreement. And I didn't know what was it about. But I would find about that before I kill Rose. I wanted to know.

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