A/N Ok so I want to apologize for any heart attacks I may have caused. Can you forgive me TGWnevertoforget? So quick update this time but the muse has left the building with the last lines of this so it'll be at least a few days for the next update. I think I'm suffering from the moonlighting curse... So they're together now what?! Anyways enjoy, review if you like.

OMG I forgot to thank tore-my-yellow-dress for her sad but brilliant idea that Will,was trying to protect Alicia.

Will's scream woke Alicia. She hadn't heard screams of terror like that since after 9/11. Her and Peter had been in New York and Jackie had accidentally let Zach watch the news coverage. For weeks after Zach had had nightmares that Peter and her were in the buildings as they had collapsed. They had taken him to a psychiatrist who had diagnosed him with PTSD it had taken a few weeks for the worst of the nightmares to subside. Alicia glanced at the clock and noticed that it was only 4 a.m. The screams sounded familiar but she couldn't place them until she realized that the strangled sobs were Will calling her name. Alicia gently shook his good shoulder.

"Will, honey you need to wake up, everything is ok, I'm right here and I'm not going anywhere." Alicia shook Will a few more times until his eyes finally popped open. Will didn't say a word as he reached up and grabbed Alicia he held her in a desperate hug and he rocked. After a few moments he was able to speak,

"You have to promise to never leave me again, if something had happened to you that day, if it had been you and not me, I wouldn't have made it. I can't stand the thought that there could be a world without you in it."

"I'm right here are I'm not going anywhere" Alicia repeated. "This is where I want to be"

Will kissed Alicia's cheeks, and her forehead. He kissed anything he could reach. Alicia's body immediately began to respond. She could feel the tension in Will's body under her fingers as her lips found his in the dark. They had not redressed after the previous evenings "activities" and Will's hands and fingers were lighting fires everywhere that they touched her. As he kissed her, Alicia could taste the desperation on his breath. Her body strained to meet his and their coupling was hot and fast.

As they lay close together in the wake of the storm Alicia could still feel tension radiating from Will in waves.

"If you want to talk, I'm a pretty good listener…"

His voice cracked at first and he began telling the story robotically with little emotion.

"It happened just like that day, only in the dream you're in the courtroom and not just in my head. Jeffrey came in from his holding cell, he had a new bruise on his face. He begged me not to ask the judge to put him in solitary, but I didn't listen, the kid was getting beat up nightly, every day we had court there was another bruise or cut. He seemed … twitchy…" Will paused and took a breath. "I asked the judge to approach the bench, I told Jeffrey that solitary was better than this. He always had a scared look to him but his face got desperate. Finn and I approached the bench and that was when we heard the first shot, I turned around just in time to see the gun recoil in Jeffrey's hand and he was getting ready to take another shot

I had believed in this kid, I thought if I could get his attention that he'd stop shooting. He was just a scared kid literally in the trial of his life. By the time I got to him he'd already shot that professor the next thing it was kind of like a mind and body disconnect, I heard the gunshot, and I remember thinking that hurt my ears and then I felt the bullet tear through my shoulder and I started to fall to the ground. But I had to get the gun away from him, I didn't see the gun in his hand all I could see was you, Leesh. You had been in that courtroom the day before and I didn't know if you were even in the courthouse but all I could see was a bullet slamming into you. And I couldn't let that happen so injured shoulder and all I threw myself at Jeffrey, that's when the second and third bullets hit me. Finn pulled me over to the prosecution's table. I couldn't talk and breathing was hard but I was screaming your name. It's funny when something like that happens your life is supposed to flash before your eyes, but mine didn't. All that played were memories of you and me, and your face. There was blood everywhere and I just wanted to close my eyes and watch your face play across my eye lids. Then Kalinda was there and she was trying to talk to me. She kept telling me not to close my eyes and I wanted to tell her to shut up, I wanted to tell her to find you, to find you and tell you that I loved you. But in the dream you're there right In front of the gun and I can't get to you. I'm lying on Finn's leg and I can't get to you. Kalinda doesn't know you're there too, she doesn't see you laying on the ground she's trying to keep me awake and I'm trying to get her to go to you, I need her to help you but she doesn't hear what I'm saying because of the second shot, the one through my neck."

Alicia gently extracted herself from Will's grip and went to the kitchen she grabbed a glass of water for Will and found a wash cloth to wet with cool water for his face. She returns to his bedroom and sits down next to him she hands him the glass and waits as he takes a sip then wipes his face gently with the washcloth. When she's done she takes his face between her hands and places a delicate kiss on his forehead.

"You called me that day, do you remember? I spent the whole night trying to figure out what you wanted to say to me in that voicemail. I thought it was going to be the last thing I ever heard you say."

"I called to tell you that I needed to see you, I wanted to tell you that I wanted us to figure out a way to make this work, but I didn't want to make the same mistake twice and tell you in a voicemail, I was going to tell you in person and I was going to make you listen to me."

"I'll never be more glad that you got the chance to tell me all this, I had nightmares that I'd spend the rest of my life trying to find out what happened in that courtroom, and that I'd never get the chance to tell you all that I needed to tell you." Alicia wiped the tears from her face

Will finished his water and he and Alicia laid back on the bed together. Alicia was in a stunned silence she didn't know that she had that kind of power over Will. He had been willing to give up his life on the off chance that she might have been in that courtroom. She reached out and pulled Will's head to her chest and rubbed circles on his back until she felt him doze off. When she was sure he was asleep she used her years of practice as a mom to slide him gently to his pillow, granted it was much harder with a grown man versus toddlers and teenagers, and she left his bedroom.

Alicia walked to the picture window in Will's living room. It was peaceful to see the lights and watch the city sleep. Everything was happening so fast these days. The divorce, her and Will, Zach would be heading to Georgetown soon. Alicia just needed a moment. A moment when everything wasn't so all over the place.