Chapter 3.
Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure
out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.
They say every obstacles have a way of making you stronger. They make you want to put up the necessary fight to achieve what you long for, work hard to get where you want to end up.
But at what cost?
Watching your fiancé have a child with his ex girlfriend, raise it together, share custody, one week there one week here. Watch the man you love grow this amazing bond with his son or daughter who isn`t a part of you, in your house, and every day you watch your own dreams and goals in life drift further and further away.
Eventually, it's mine, yours and ours. If you`re lucky.
She ended up at home. Out on the balcony, looking out over the city`s soon to be night life. Still in her uniform, which makes her regret it when she feels the heat creep up under her clothes because of the excruciating high temperatures.
She fastens her grip on the railings when she feels pressure behind her eyelids. Knows that from now on, nothing will ever be the same again. Everything is about to change, and not for the better. Not for her part that is.
Because guess what! Sam Swarek, her fiancé, her soon to be husband is having a baby with another woman!
How`s that for an obstacle?
She also knows that her life, their life is getting put on hold for god knows how long. She bet`s, a wedding is the last thing on Sam Swarek's mind right now. So, is ever having a family with her.
What if she wanted to have a baby too? Soon, like in a near future. Is she supposed to watch her dreams getting crushed, stamped on and thrown in her face, while mocking her? While Marlo Cruz at last, despite everything, still get what Andy had been dreaming about with Sam?
And then there is Sam. Deep down, she knows he probably is struggling with this too. Here they thought they finally had life on their side, the happy kind, and then his ex girlfriend comes back to claim him as her baby`s father.
Where does she fit into all of this? How on earth is she going to be able to suck it up and stand by her husband's side with a child on his arm, that isn`t hers in any way.
When she thinks about it, it really comes down to that Sam`s first child won`t be hers. She will never be able to give him his first child.
He comes home.
His heart rate is long above what is considered healthy, and he is almost afraid to walk up the stairs once inside their house.
She didn`t even let him finish or get to explain that this situation she thought they had accidentally been thrown into, doesn`t actually exist. And thank god for that! But, regardless, he was an idiot for not telling her sooner. The station was something like a gossip magazine, and to think that this wouldn`t come out was considered stupidity from his side.
He finds her out on the balcony, hands gripping the railing, like her life depended on it. Head down and he knows for sure that she is crying.
"Andy?", he says with his lowest voice. Actually, he wasn`t even hundred present sure that she even heard him, especially when she doesn`t acknowledge his presence.
He stands next to her. "Andy, I need you to listen to me. This is nothing like you may think it is. So, please, let me explain it".
She looks up. Swollen, puffy and red eyes, and he is almost sure that she is shaking a little. "How the hell are you going to explain this? There isn`t much to explain except that you are having a baby, and I`m not".
He turns her around, so she faces him. He takes a gentle, but firm hold to her arms and with his look, he forces her to look back at him. "Will you just listen to me for a second?"
He takes her silence as a yes. "It`s not mine... the baby. I`m not... it`s not mine. I know I should have told you this as soon as she told me, but you had been attacked Andy! It didn`t seem like the best time..."
He eyed her. Trying to read her thoughts and what might come next. What she would say.
She didn`t say a word. Instead, she fell down, like a sack of potatoes. Out haled the biggest breath you could imagine, and he bet a ton of weight was lifted off of her shoulders the same second.
And then, she just cried.
In a fraction of the next second, he had joined her on the wooden floor. They were leaning back against the balcony banister and for the first time, Andy McNally was speechless.
Relieved, happy, out of words and so, so thankful. Suddenly, all of her dreams for a future didn`t seem so far away anymore.
She let out a deep breath again and broke the silence. "I... uh, I really thought all of my dreams was getting crushed. I can`t begin to tell you how happy I am that... it`s not yours". She moved closer and hinted that he should put his arm around her.
Instead, he got up on his feet and held out his arms for her to take. With a smile along with his dimples out, he spoke. "Come on, let`s get up from the floor".
He led them to the patio chaise and pulled her down with him. Arms around her and her feet in his lap.
"I am too. Happy it`s not mine I mean. But uh, tell me about those dreams of yours", he said as he brushed his lips against hers. When he tried to pull away she pulled him even closer.
"I uh, always thought... had this dream that your first child would be my first too you know... That that was something you and I would get to do together... and not with other people. I don`t think I would have wanted that with someone else. It was always you. It`s always going to be you Sam..."
The next sound coming from him was something she hadn`t heard before. It was like a sob mixed with relief and laugh, but she didn`t doubt that it was something good, because he followed with a big smile, that showed off his dimples. The same dimples she hoped he would pass on to their future kids.
"You know...last year, when Oliver tricked me into going with him to his cabin to do some work, I uh... may have told him I wanted that too..."
He met her eyes. Wondering what was going through her mind. He could hear her brain working pretty god damn hard.
"Really? You thought of that back then? I uh.. weren`t you with Marlo back then?"
"Yeah, it never... I mean, she wasn`t...only with you sweetheart".
"So, what exactly did you tell him?"
He chuckled. "Well, I told him that I missed you... that I missed us. And, uh, that I kept thinking about the future... kids, park on Sundays... real life, with you... It was always you Andy. Nobody else I`d rather experience that with then you".
"Let me guess... Because you love me?"
"Because I love you, with everything I have".
"I love you too Sam".
He pulled her closer. "So what do you say McNally, you want to have my babies?"
"With those dimples? Hell yeah! But, uh, let`s make me a Swarek before you pass on those dimples yeah?"
"We better do it soon then. Because I`m not sure I can wait too long McNally", he smirked, as he started unbuttoning her shirt.
"Fine by me. By the way, you can`t keep calling me McNally by then. I`m going to be a Swarek you know..."
"I know...then we better make a girl so you can pass on the name then".
FIN!