Author's Note: am so sorry about how short the last chapter was so I'll do my best to make this one extra long! Anyway I need a GOOD beta so if anyone can help me out thanks!I think ill add a couple of different POVs so don't get all confused. I DON'T OWN TWILIGHT!

Chapter 3

Alice POV.

Oh my gosh what have I done! I thought while running with the love of my entire existence. He just, well, didn't know that. And I didn't defend my sister! How could I? He was yelling horrible words at her and I just took him and ran? Edward suddenly jerked to a stop sending me flying. He caught me easily and I remembered I forgot to block my thoughts! Crap. He put me down and I'll admit it, I was SCARED. He held my hands and looked me in the eye and said, "What?" my mind went blank. How could I explain to him how I feel? How can I explain that I love him more than I love blood? More than I love life?

Edward couldn't reach inside my mind because I had remembered to block my thoughts. "Alice. He said calmly, "unblock your mind. I need to see what you're thinking as you are too afraid or won't tell me. As I unblocked my mind I thought about how much I loved Edward. How I hated myself for not hating him when he yelled at the human girl I considered my sister. How I hurt Jasper to try and make him jealous. How the whole family disapproved of me for the horrible actions I did for my own selfish purposes. I thought about all the dirty little things a thought about doing to him. If I were a human I would have been blushing when THAT thought came up. But the look on Edwards face when I thought that shot it down immediately. I continued thinking about how much I loved him, but how much it hurt me to want what wasn't mine. How I was jealous of Bella when I knew that he had loved her. Edward told me to stop and I rebuilt the barrier in my mind. Then, I ran away from the man I loved who knew how I felt.

Edward POV

As Alice pulled her love Jasper off of me, I caught some of her thoughts. She couldn't believe that she picked me over her friend. When I caught her thoughts I jerked to a stop suddenly, sending her flying into the air. Feeling bad, I caught her. I held her hands and looked her in the eye asking her what. Her mind was blank and she blocked her thoughts. She's afraid to tell me. I realized. In order not to scare her, I calmly asked her to unblock her mind and the reason for asking. As she did, I got a whirlwind of changing thoughts. In her thoughts it shouted at me: EDWARD I LOVE YOU. I can't believe I don't hate you for yelling at Bella. I hurt Jasper to make you jealous. Carlisle, Esme, the whole family disapproves of me for the things I did for my selfish purposes. Then, little, dinky Alice, thought of things that made my head spin around. Things that I thought her and Jasper WERE doing. She then immediately started thinking of how much she loved me, how much it hurt her to want what wasn't hers, and how jealous she was of Bella when I loved her instead. Hearing this I ordered her to stop. She rebuilt her barrier and ran away.

I didn't know what to do. I sat on the ground and thought for awhile. I thought about what Bella did to me. I honestly thought Bella forgave me for leaving her. I thought she loved me. She had awoken feelings in me that had been dormant for years. I trusted her, gave her my secret, gave her my HEART, and she just threw it all away. I wanted to spend the rest of her life with her. I didn't want her to deal with this purgatory like I did. I didn't want my beautiful Bella to become a monster like me. And she was using me. She wanted me to change her and that was all. No wait she didn't just want that. At first she did love me. Jasper wouldn't lie to me. Jasper and I were closer than most brothers. And If Jasper said it then it had to have been true. Even after what happened in Phoenix, she still loved me. After I left her she still… that's it. She couldn't forgive me or love me again after what I did to her. Problem solved. I know the reason. I totally deserved that actually. It could have been worse. She could have run away screaming. Or let me die.

And ALICE LOVED ME? How could she do that to Jasper? That alone should have repulsed me. And the whole family knew? Why couldn't they have at least mentioned it? And who knew she had such a dirty little mind? I don't know what to do about her. But, she loved me enough to not to defend Bella. That's real courage. Alice is a woman. She may look only like a young girl but she's old in ways that most of us cannot even fathom. It is so sad that she couldn't remember how she looked before, how her life was. If she would have loved another if she had never had her visions. What her life could have been. I know how my life would have ended. I would already be dead. Or more dead than I am now. Carlisle he would have been a priest, like his father. Esme, she would have been dead as well. Emmet, Rose, dead. Tragic accidents couldn't have been repaired without the venom. Alice, she if she had her visions, would have died in the asylum. Jasper, he may have died in the war or lived a long life in the south. And Bella would have married Jacob Black, had little babies, and lived happily ever after.

Bella POV

When I awoke, I found jasper reading a book on the chair next to my bed. Wait, I don't have an armchair in my room? Or purple sheets! And since when do I awake with jasper near me? Then it all came flashing back to me. I broke up with Edward! I was free! I looked down at myself and found myself in a pair of seemingly expensive pajamas. Alice must have somehow changed my clothes in my sleep. Wait, I don't remember coming up here. Last thing I remember I was telling jasper how Emmet was totally right. Then I woke up here! JASPER! I got really angry. Jasper, sensing my anger, look at me and smiled contritely. "Sorry." He said with his southern accent. He caught himself and resumed in a normal accent, "um sorry. I um had to before you made yourself feel any worse. Besides you needed your sleep you were dead on you r feet. Something tells me you haven't been getting much sleep have you?" when saying that he traced the dark circles under my eyes that were beginning to look as permanent as a vampires. I shrugged saying "well um. Edward usually doesn't give me much sleep. He's just not used to-"Jasper pushed his finger against my lips saying, "Do not make excuses for him. He should remember that you human and need things we don't. Sleep. Everyone else is gone. It's just you and me for 2 whole weeks! "

Jasper seemed a little more enthusiastic than I thought he should be. Maybe it was just a show so I didn't get nervous. "I honestly can't sleep." I said. My stomach made a loud noise announcing its need for food. Jasper's super sensitive ears heard it. He smiled that wonderful smile and said "ok little lady. How bout I get you some breakfast?" he said it with that wonderful southern accent of his. I nodded saying, "I can get it myself you know." He shook his head and said in a normal voice, "it's my honest pleasure to serve you. You had the nerve to stick up to Edward. Most of us don't." he then got up and went downstairs.

When he returned a few minutes later, he had a tray full of chocolate chip pancakes, crispy bacon, and blueberry frosted Pop Tarts. Junk food. NICE! As I was filled with joy of being able to eat food that was bad for me and not have Edward take it from me, jasper smiled taking in my emotions and enjoying them. He put the food on the end table and asked me, "Why does the prospect of being served breakfast in bed make you so happy? I'm sure Edward must have done that thousands of times." I answered him saying, "It's not the breakfast in bed thing. Thought I do appreciate that. It's the fact that none of that food is anyway healthy for me. Edward would never let me eat anything even remotely unhealthy for me. No more bacon, pop tarts, chocolate, red meat, gummy bears, French fries. You name it. If it had any Trans fat, calories, carbs, I couldn't eat it."

Jasper looked appalled at my words. He transformed his face into a smile and said, "You couldn't eat red meat because he wanted it himself." I laughed and quickly dug in to the food. It was DELICOUS! "Jasper?" I said as I finished my food. While I was eating I caught him staring at me from time to time. I wonder what he was thinking. "Um get out." I said politely. "What" he said hurt by my words. "I mean um get out of the room so I can get dressed." "Oh." He said leaving. "Oh and Alice left some clothes in the closet for you. She figured you wouldn't be heading home for awhile so…" he shrugged and left. Oh my gosh! I thought. What did Alice get me THIS time! She knows I hate playing Bella Barbie. I opened the closet and on the entire rack on the east wall was a Sign labeled "BELLAS" on the southern wall, the smallest, it said "JASPER" then the rest of the room was labeled "ALICE". Wow Alice, overdo your closet much? I went over to my side of the closet. Of course it was filled with super expensive evening gowns.

I walked to the other end of the wall and found some scanty shirts and some super short shorts. The evening dress was definitely the better choice compared to those scanty outfits. I picked out three different dresses. A deep purple, a dark blue, and a jet black spaghetti strap mid-thigh dress. The blue dress was definitely out. Blue was Edwards's favorite color. And the black one? I don't know kind of skanky. The deep purple was a reasonable length and not to incredibly low cut. It showed just the right amount of cleavage. It was kind of a man catcher but I looked good in it. I styled my hair a little. Put it up and into some loose curls that hung down my back. Even I could admit, I looked tempting.

I left the closet looking like I was going to dinner rather than just around the house. I grabbed my plates and brought them down stairs. In the middle of walking down jasper took the plates from me and tripping me down the stairs on accident. Jasper barely managed to catch me before I broke my neck or something. He set me upright and put the dishes in the sink. I got to the bottom of the stairs and sat at the kitchen table. Watching Jasper do dishes was hilarious. It was like he had no idea what he was doing. I offered to help when he squirted the blue dish soap on his white shirt but he refused. He used up at least half the bottle on a single plate. When he wiped it with the sponge and the plate was just smeared with grease and blue soap, he muttered to himself, "It worked on the commercial! I must not have used enough soap." At that I laughed and got up and finished the dishes easily within 10 minutes.

As I finished with a smug smile on my face, I looked at jasper who looked dumbfounded. "You never did that before did you?" I asked him laughing. "no." he said sheepishly. "But on the commercial for this soap it looked easy and I donated one dollar to save wildlife." I started laughing. "You need to go eat." I said noticing his dark hungry eyes. "I thought you hunted already?" I said. "Well, um. I actually went to a KISS concert. Esme said I wasn't allowed to go so I went hunting instead." He said slyly. "You want some memorabilia? I got Gene Simmons to sign a whole lot of stuff and I'm so keeping most of it." He said excitedly. "Um sure." I said. "But afterwards you need to go hunting. I don't need to worry about cutting myself or anything." I said remembering my last birthday party. "Sure sure." Said Jasper. He sounded so much like my best werewolf friend that I was instantly panged by the hollow part that was in my heart when I wasn't with him. I decided since I was free I was going to see Jake. I doubted Jasper would stop me. He wouldn't have a reason to.

"Jasper?" I asked when he had brought down various KISS merchandise. "Yes?" he answered warily. "do you mind if when you go hunting, I go down to La Push and see Jake?" I asked in a rush, worried hed say no. "Bella, im not Edward. You don't need my permisioon to see people you trust. If that's what you want to do you may. If not then you can hang our here or suomthig." He said soothingly. He reminded me that not all men are jerks.

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