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That's What Little Girls Are Made Of…
Chapter 34
BPOV
I knew it!
I knew he wouldn't let me down!
Edward would never miss one of my firsts!
Even if it was a stupid first date with Tyler `yuck-mouth´ Crowley!
I knew in my heart, that Edward would never miss any of my firsts!
Over the years, no matter how big or small the moment, Edward has always dropped everything to share them with me.
Esme was the only one who knew that in a moment of weakness, I let my doubts and fears consume me. Last week when she found me crying me eyes out in my room, I was once again amazed at how loving and compassionate she truly was. Without dismissing my feelings, Esme handled me like none other than a seasoned mother could; I was so blessed to have her in my life.
"Bella, Sweetheart," Esme called from the foyer. "I'm home, time for supper!"
Curling in on myself, I felt my stomach churn. There was no way that I was going to be able to eat, let alone stop crying.
I was a mess!
Earlier, after hanging up with Edward, and it registered that he wasn't coming to see me off to my first dance. I couldn't help but to turn into a sobbing mess when I realized just how bad that made me feel. Esme had always documented my firsts with endless picture taking that would quickly turn into Edward and me goofing off and Carlisle later joining in.
Though, in Edward's defense, he did ask me if I wanted him to come, but like the lying, little immature kid that I am, I brushed it off by saying it was no big deal!
Boy was that a lie!
"Bella...Bella, are you here?" The sound of Esme's frantic sounding voice coming up the stairs had me snapping to attention.
Stumbling my way to the door, I collided with a frazzled looking Esme as she came barreling into my room. "Sorry," I sniffled noisily. "I didn't mean to worry you, Me-Me." Esme was just starting to leave me home alone for short periods of time by myself, so I knew that when I didn't answer right away, she would go into panic mode.
"Oh Dear," she lamented, clutching me to her chest. "When you didn't answer right away, I thought something had happened. You gave me quite a scare young lady," Esme playfully scolded.
With her worries now tapered, Esme took a moment to really look at me. Immediately, she went into momma bear mode. "Sweetheart," her brow furrowing in concern, "why are you crying? Are you okay? Did something happen after I left?"
Unable to keep anything from her, and not wanting to, I opened my mouth, and released the floodgates. "ItalkedtoEandtoldhimaboutthe danceandhe´snotcoming!" I blurted out in a full-on sob.
"Now...now, calm down, Sweetheart," Esme cooed, rubbing soothing circles in my back. "I can barely make out what you´re saying." Ushering me toward the bed, Esme darted out of the room, only to return with a half-gallon of Ben and Jerry`s Rocky Road ice cream.
She always knew exactly what I needed!
"Bella," Esme regarded me seriously, after a few spoonfuls of ice cream. "You, my sweet girl, have got to learn to say what you mean, and mean what you say. Men aren´t always smart enough to read between the lines." She gave me an all-knowing wink, and just like that, dinner was forgotten as she regaled me with tales of all the times Carlisle failed to read-between-the-lines.
Without addressing the large pink elephant in the room, Esme never once belittled, or discounted my feelings for Edward. Carlisle called to tell us he was called into surgery, and Esme and I talked well into the night about everything and nothing at all, until I fell asleep with my head in her lap.
Me-Me may not have given birth to me, but she sure was doing a damn good job at being my mother!
While I can´t say that the tears stopped after that night, I can say that I never had to try and hide them. Even as I sit here in this crowded gym, surrounded by my peers, feeling like the loneliest person in the world, I know that tonight when we get home, I´ll have the two best people in the world who will allow me to crawl into bed with them and cry myself to sleep.
Charlie could not have chosen two better people to oversee my life!
Just couldn´t resist going back and getting a little Me-Me time! Don´t forget to push the little review button!
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