Author's Note:
I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry...
DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN FAIRY TAIL BUT IT WOULD BE OBVIOUS IF I DID
~~~εиנσy~
Okay, this is getting out of hand.
Lucy and I have been dating for a 3 (amazing) weeks. But I have a confession to make.
This whole relationship is a lie.
At first I honestly thought this wasn't gonna last long but now I'm afraid I'm actually getting feelings for Lucy.
About 5 months ago Gray and I had a bet that if I make Lucy fall in love with me he'd give me a thousand jewels. At first I thought that it was crazy plus I thought she was ugly.
But now I feel like I was blind then.
I'm not completely sure about my feelings, but I've never felt this way before, it's the strangest thing ever.
I walked into school with Lucy right beside me, she was quiet, but then again she was always silent. It's really easy to see through Lucy though. Every single organ is shouting whatever she's feeling. But since she's silent no one ever knows what's in her head, and to be honest, neither do I. Sure her feelings are quite easy to detect but once it's the reason why she's feeling a certain way, I'm completely clueless.
"Lucy" I muttered
She looked up at me with her huge chocolate brown eyes.
"Doesn't it suck that we only have one class together?" I asked
"Hm, not really, but I guess it would be nice to be together more often" she simply said.
She went ahead to her class and I went outside to go under the bleachers. It was what we usually did for the first period. We as in Cana, Gray, Erza and I.
"You're late" Erza said as walked to them.
"I don't remember this little meeting to have a certain time to come." I replied.
"Lay off Erza, Natsu was just dropping off his new girlfriend" Gray said.
"Oh yeah, how's project make-lucy-heartfilia-fall-in-love-with-natsu coming along?" Cana asked.
"Uhhhh..." I paused, for a second I thought I would tell them about my "feelings" for Lucy but something stopped me.
"It's great!" I said smiling.
"Ooooh what about that fake backstory I told you to tell her?" Gray asked me.
I nodded.
"Great!" he said, hitting my back.
"Um, then why do you look weird?" Cana asked.
"What?" I asked back.
"You look confused and upset, what's the matter with you?" she continued.
"It's nothing" I said.
"Hm...I don't buy it" Erza said staring at my face.
"What don't you buy?" I spoke
Cana gasped "You have a crush on her, don't you?" She grinned.
"What? No!" I responded
"Natsu Dragneel doesn't get crushes!" I flamed back.
"Whatever you say but, your face says it all" Erza teased.
First period went to a close and we went our separate ways and I made my way to English.
As I walked in didn't see Lucy in her usual spot.
Hm,
Maybe she's late
~~~εиנσy~
I made my way to the infirmary. It turns out Lucy's been feeling sick. I was told not to freak out much because she was just feeling hot.
I entered and found Lucy lying down asleep with a wet towel on her forehead. She was red but it looked like she was okay.
I just stood there, staring at her. I could do this for hours.
She was sound asleep.
Another girl walked in who was what I could only assume was Lucy's friend.
"Hey" she spoke.
"Hi" I responded
"I'm Lisanna, you're Natsu, right?"
"Yeah, that's me"
"So, you and Lucy, huh?"
"Yeah, it's weird"
"Listen, I'm gonna totally be honest with you, okay?"
I nodded
"When Lucy first told me you were dating I wasn't exactly thrilled. Lucy and I haven't really been friends for a long time but all I know is that she's really fragile. You might not notice it at first but she is. So, if you ever break Lucy's heart or even make her cry, I swear I'll hurt you in ways that haven't even been invented yet" she said.
Great, now I feel even more guilty.
Lisanna left and I as left alone with her.
I really don't want to hurt her but I honestly don't think that being with her will cause any less damage than breaking up with her.
What if my feelings aren't real?
Even if my feelings are true I can't help but think that this relationship was built on lies. I couldn't live with myself if that happened.
I was about to leave but Lucy woke up.
"Natsu?" she muttered
"Hey, how you feeling?" I asked.
"Fine, just fine. Is Virgo here yet?"
"No, well at least I didn't see her"
"Oh, I see"
"How long have you been in here?" she asked finally sitting up.
"About 20 minutes, but I was about to leave"
"Oh, okay"
"So um..."
I stood there silent.
"You can go home now you know" she said
I nodded and left her to recover.
I walked out of the school and my mind started ringing I couldn't handle it, I feel so guilty. I never intended it to go out of hand, and now Lisanna's all up on me, I have no idea what to do.
My vision blurred and I was lost in thought, clouded with thoughts on how this might end.
Gray walked up to me and I snapped back into earth, leaving my thoughts behind. I was already seated in the bus.
"Aren't with your girlfriend, huh?" he spoke
"Nope" I sat down and looked away from him
"Giving me the silent treatment, eh?"
I didn't speak.
"Fine, whatever" he said and walked back to his seat.
I was alone today. Well most of the time I was.
Dammit,
Why did I have to meet her like this?!
~~~εиנσy~
Author's Note:
heyy long time no update! :) Yeah I know I'm not really good at doing Natsu's POV I'm sorryyy. But hey you found out about something! yayyy! idk, do you like it? i had this idea before i started writing it. I had another idea of how they were gonna meet and I had a different storyline in mind but i ended up going with this one because i thought it was more interesting. Plus this adds more chapter so :3
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