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That´s What Little Girls Are Made Of...
Chapter Ninety-Four
EPOV
For weeks, it seemed like Bella was trying to tell me something. Problem was I had no clue as to what it was. Every time she tried, something or someone always got in the way. And then when I´d bring it up, she´d say it was nothing, and we´d talk about it later.
Not going to lie, it was making me nervous.
For some strange reason, I was dreading her graduation, and our impending move. I just had a gut feeling that I was going to lose her once we moved back to Chicago and she started school.
It didn´t surprise me when she said that she would be living on campus with Angela. I kind of expected it. What I didn´t expect was the overwhelming feelings of loneliness and abandonment.
Yeah, I sound pretty stupid, huh?
Bella is a seventeen-year-old soon to be eighteen-year-old young woman; it´s only natural that she would want her independence. Too bad said independence put her a lot closer to Jacob Black than it did to me.
Jealousy, as I learned firsthand over the last year was a very powerful thing.
I´m embarrassed to admit the number of nights I lay awake in bed fuming from thoughts of him touching her, kissing her, fucking her!
Isabella is mine, and that mutt had no right to put his fucking paws on her!
Granted, they´d always been chaste around me, barely ever touching, or when they did, it was only in a friendly manner. It confused the hell out of me, but I just figured they didn´t want me to break his neck, so they did the heavier shit in secret.
The question of whether or not Bella was still a virgin was burning a hole in my brain, but I didn´t have the balls to come out and ask her.
Even if she is now, what would stop her from changing that once she was living on her own unsupervised?
Those were the types of worries that plagued me these days. As fucked up and perverse as it sounded, I hated the fact that I would have limited control over what she did in a few months. My guardianship would change to trustee, or executor of her trust fund.
After September thirteenth, Bella would be free to do as she pleased.
Aside from financially, I would have no say, whatsoever, in Isabella´s life.
I felt like Izzy was slipping away from me, and, little by little, I was going to lose her.
Damn, I felt like such a pussy for feeling like this!
For now, I would just live in the moment.
Staring down into two fingers of whisky I´d poured in a tumbler; I resigned myself to putting Isabella´s needs and wants first.
Tonight was a big night for my girl, and, I was determined to make it a special one. I´d made reservations at La Bella Italia in Port Angeles for dinner, and it was there that I would present her with the first part of her gifts.
Over the years, I´d continued to add to her charm bracelet for each one of her milestones, and tonight would be no different. The tiny platinum cap and scroll had been engraved with today´s date, and it would make her bracelet complete.
I´d already ordered a new bracelet with a diamond encrusted number eighteen charm to give to her for her birthday. It may seem a bit premature, but I was hoping Izzy would continue to let me share in all her special moments.
Slamming back the last of my scotch, I looked down at my watch and saw that it was time to go. After popping a mint in my mouth, I headed to the stairs in search of my beautiful girl. Squashing my insecurities, I purposed in my mind to make this a night my girl would never forget. Having to go through this without Charlie, Esme, or Carlisle was already hard enough; Bella didn´t need my brooding thrown in to an already emotionally charged day.
In the mean time, we had the rest of our stay in Forks to be together. After that, I guess we´d just play it by ear.
"Izzy!"
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