Author note: So yeah. well I haven't updated in a while. TCAP got in the way and I have been really tired. well, Don't forget to review. It helps me update faster and stuff. I hope you all like it.
Giving up isn't an option.
Izaya waited till Shizuo left to sit back down at his desk, but he didn't start where he had left off on his work. Instead he just sat there thinking. There was a lot on his mind and Shizuo was the main topic. He couldn't figure out if Shizuo and himself were enemies or not. Shizuo may have said they were enemies but Shizuos actions didn't quite back his words up.
'If he wants to kill me then why would he bring me back home after I passed out?' Izaya thought to himself. 'And why would I pass out in the middle of a fight. Me Izaya Orihara passing out in the presence of someone that wants to kill me. That doesn't sound like something I would.' Izaya sat there trying to figure it out for about 15 minutes before getting on his computer.
After a few weeks passed with no sign of Izaya people start to get a bit worried. Shizuo was walking down the street with his hands in his pockets and a cigarette in his mouth. He didn't have to work that day so he was planning on relaxing at home with a gallon of milk. He just had to go to the store to buy more, since he had ran out of it that morning. He hadn't been thinking too much Izaya. He didn't want to think about Izaya because of the last time they talked. Shizuo got to the store and bought himself some milk. As he walked home he passed by the bar he goes to sometimes. He stood in front of the door to the bar trying to decide if he should stop in and watch the game that was suppose to be on that day. A few minutes passed and he decided to just go in for a minute. When he walked in The person at the bar greeted him with a smile.
"hey. Shizuo, how have you been? it's been awhile since last you came here." The man behind the bar said.
"Yeah well, I have been busy." Shizuo replied with a blank expression. In Shizuos gut something wasn't right. Something was off and he didn't like it. He looked around the bar a bit and quickly spotted the problem. "Izaya." He said with a bit of anger.
Izaya was sitting in a booth with his head down on the table. He was holding a beer as it sat on the table next to his head. His clothing was dirty and rugged. He looked like he hadn't taken a bath in a while. Shizuo walked up to the booth where Izaya sat. Izaya lifted his head to take a sip of the beer he had. He looked up at Shizuo.
"I didn't think you liked alcoholic beverages, flea." Shizuo spoke with a smirk on his face.
"I don't" Izaya replied with a blank expression.
"then why are you drinking a beer and why do you look like you have been sleeping outside in the dirt?" Shizuo asked.
"Why do you care?" Izaya asked trying to avoid the question.
"just answer my questions you damn flea." Shizuo didn't let him avoid it.
"fine. I lost clients because of my appearance and then I wasn't able to pay for my apartment. Now I don't have anywhere to go really and I don't want to go to shinras because he would probably experiment on me. I also didn't want to be in the way of him and celty. They are lovers after all. So, I have been sleeping on that bench at the park area. I came here to try and drown my problem away with this awful stuff." Izaya explained a bit more than he had to. Shizuo started to laugh a bit.
"You hit rock bottom didn't you. Maybe you will finally learn what it's like down at the bottom of the food chain." Shizuo spoke a bit happily. Izaya put his head down not wanting to hear what came out of Shizuos mouth. He really didn't need to hear those words especially not from Shizuo. After a few minutes of awkward silence Shizuo spoke again.
"You know what, I'm not going to let you drink anymore of this." Shizuo said as he took the beer bottle away from Izaya and smashed it against the wall. Izaya looked at him a bit surprised and a bit angry.
"what did you do that for?!" Izaya exclaimed.
Shizuo smirked. "you aren't allowed to drink anymore." Shizuo knew the more Izaya drank then the farther away the real Izaya was, so Shizuo wasn't going to have it like that. Izaya was becoming anointed with Shizuo and just wanted to be left alone. He use to be on top of the world. He use to have everything he ever wanted, But now all of that was gone. All of it taken out from under him and he never saw it coming. He wanted to just sit there and drown everything away. He didn't like his life anymore and wanted it gone, but he couldn't bring the courage to kill himself.
"Kill me" Izaya said as he looked back at Shizuo. Shizuo was a little in shock from Izayas sudden words. For a minute or two Shizuo and Izaya were just staring at each other in silence before Izaya spoke again. "Kill me, Shizuo."
"what?" Shizuo was a bit confused.
"I said kill me." Izaya replied.
"I know what you said. What I want to know is why?" Shizuo didn't want to kill Izaya while he was not the real Izaya because the real Izaya was his enemy not this Izaya.
"Because I'm done with this life. There is nothing here for me anymore. I'm giving up that is why." Izaya said blankly.
"you're not allowed to give up" Shizuo said as he picked Izaya up and placed him over his shoulder. Izaya didn't struggle since he had already given up on his life. Shizuo, still holding his gallon of milk and now Izaya, left the bar. Shizuo started to walk back to his apartment.
"you're confusing." Izaya whispered to himself.
"I could say the same to you, Flea." Shizuo replied even though Izaya wasn't talking to him. For the rest of the way both of them were silent. The had received a few looks from people they passed. When they got to Shizuos apartment Shizuo opened the door with his foot and walked in. Shizuo set the gallon of milk down on the small table next to the little kitchen area. Shizuo then dropped Izaya down on the ground. Izaya sat up unaffected by the action. Izaya looked miserable and depressed. Shizuo had already noticed this and was planning on trying to fix it. The more he tried to bring back the old Izaya the closer he got to see the real Izaya.
Shizuo went to his small living room and sat down on the couch. He had a small T.V in front of the couch. Shizuo grabbed the remote and turned it on. Izaya stayed sitting on the floor where he was dropped. He wanted to curl up and die there. He sighed and curled up into a little ball. Shizuo looked back at him.
"Hey, flea. what are you doing?" Shizuo asked even though he knew the answer. Izaya just closed his eyes ignoring Shizuo. Shizuo sighed and got up from the couch. He picked Izaya up and put him on the couch. Shizuo then sat down on the couch and continued watching the T.V. Izaya just curled up into a ball again.
"You damn flea. What did I say about giving up. I'm giving you a place to stay be happy." Shizuo tried to cheer Izaya up.
"this is a prison not a place to stay. I'm not allowed to leave. remember." Izaya turned Shizuos words against him. Shizuo stared at him.
"go shower. You smell awful." Shizuo said. Izaya sighed and stood up.
"where?" Izaya didn't bother saying a whole sentence.
"down the hallway the last door to your right." Shizuo said pointing to a hallway across the room. Izaya followed the directions that Shizuo had given him. Shizuo just continued to watch T.V. waiting till Izaya got back. An hour passed and Izaya was still taking a shower so, Shizuo decided to go check on him. He got up off the couch and went down the hallway leading to the bathroom. When he got to the door he knocked on it.
"Hey flea! You done yet?! it's been a while and I don't want to pay a big water bill this month!" Shizuo yelled. He waited for a response. There was no reply so Shizuo knocked again. "Are you still alive in there?!" Shizuo asked not trying to be sarcastic. There was no response yet again so Shizuo kicked the door down. Izaya was fully clothed and hunched over the toilet. He was throwing up. It must have been from the beer.
"did You even Shower yet?" Shizuo asked not knowing. Izaya didn't answer because he was still throwing up. Shizuo waited till he was finished which took about 30 more minutes. When Izaya was done he wiped his mouth and flushed the toilet.
"go away. I want to be left alone. I'm not feeling good." Izaya leaned against the shower with his eyes closed. Shizuo stared at Izaya examining the state he was in.
"Did you take a shower?" Shizuo asked with a calm voice.
"yes. now leave me alone shizuo. I want to be alone. I'm to weak for company right now." Izaya Said with a bit of a complaint in his voice.
"Well, It's a good thing I'm not here to keep you company." Shizuo said as he picked Izaya up and took him to the bedroom. He put Izaya down on the bed. "I'm here to make sure you don't die before you get back to your old self." Shizuo sat down at the end of the bed.
"my old self?" Izaya questioned as he curled up on the bed weakly.
"yeah ever since your appearance changed you have changed as well and my enemy was the old Izaya Orihara, not you. You're different. Izaya would have never even touch a beer or he would have found a different way to keep the place he lives in. You just gave up and started living on the streets. I want to kill Izaya Orihara as himself not as you." Shizuo explained.
"you figured it out didn't you?" Izaya said.
"figured what out? that you're not yourself?" Shizuo asked.
"That I'm not him. My life was passed on through my DNA so here I am, in this person's body. I wanted to stay dead but then that doctor found my body. The Izaya you speak of is still here but he has grown weaker and weaker as the days have gone by so I have taken his place. He is slowly dying a painless death. He will become a tormented soul if I stay here for much longer. I didn't want to be put into someone elses body, but I have no control over it." The demon that took Izayas body now spoke with Izayas voice.
"Is there nothing I can do about it? Is he just doomed to die and become a tormented soul?" Shizuo asked.
"If there was anything you could do then I would know, but you and Izaya are enemies so I don't think you can do anything. A person that Izaya loved could bring him back with their love. Do you know of anyone Izaya loved?" The demon asked.
"no. Izaya didn't love anyone. He loved all of humanity but no individuals that I know of." Shizuo spoke accepting the fact that he could do nothing to help.
"Do you know of anyone that loves Izaya? They might be able to help a little." The demon continued to look for a solution to the problem.
"There is no one that loves Izaya and there is no one that Izaya loves." Shizuo said bluntly now glaring at the ground.