CHAPTER 8
"It's disgusting,"
"It is not!"
"It is. It is smelly and dirty and it disgusts me,"
"Don't be so melodramatic!"
"I'm not,"
"You so are,"
I hit him over the head, causing him to scream like a girl.
"Ow, stop doing that!"
"I'll stop when you stop being annoying,"
"Sorry, but that's not possible," Eren grinned, turning around to face me. "It's in my genes, there's no changing that,"
He chuckled, before leaning down to kiss me, but I turned my head to the side in the last minute.
"Help me up," I ordered him instead, reaching out my hands so that he could pull me up.
"No,"
"Excuse me?"
He giggled before sitting down in my lap. I looked at him, quite baffled.
The kid was definitely getting too much confidence, thinking that he could defy me like this.
"You took a shower this morning! You can wait until tomorrow,"
"But it's – "
"Leeeeeevi, do what I say for once. I'm the one in charge, remember?"
"I remember no such thing,"
"Petra said that I was!"
I sighed, rolling my eyes.
This is stupid. I'm able to take care of myself!
"I can take care of myself," I chose to tell him, making sure to sound very annoyed.
"You wouldn't even last a day without me," He laughed, pushing me down onto the cushion behind me and forcing a quick kiss on me before I could protest.
"Shut up," I just said, since I knew that if I said he was wrong again, it would hurt him more than normally.
Kids these days. They were so predictable.
"Make me," He said teasingly, trying to get me in the mood. I wasn't though, since I still couldn't get the thoughts out of my head. I felt so dirty right know, that the only thing I could think about, was to get clean.
He was probably horny, that much I could tell, but it wasn't enough to distract me from …
"Levi!"
The voice cut through my thoughts, and I raised an eyebrow.
"What?"
He didn't answer that though. Instead he just looked at me with a thoughtful look in his eyes.
What the hell is he doing. He should know by now that I'm not in the mood.
"What do I have to do?" He asked suddenly, placing his hands on my shoulders and looked at me with determination in his eyes.
"What do you mean?"
"To get you to notice me!"
I took a deep breath not to break out in full sarcasm mode.
"Eren, you are literally sitting on me. I don't think it's possible for me not to notice you right now," I let out a small chuckle, amused by how foolish he sounded.
"That's not what I mean. You … You never touch me anymore,"
Idiot. How can he not know why that is?
"How am I supposed to know that?!" He suddenly exclaimed, not even giving me enough time to answer.
"Eh, know what?" I asked, furrowing my brows. That was weird. It had seemed like something that could have been said to answer exactly what I had thought …
Eren's cheeks started blushing, and he quickly shook his head.
"N-Nothing!" He said, suddenly seeming nervous. "Just … Please tell me what I've done wrong,"
I was quiet for a long moment, before finally answering.
"How am I supposed to get turned on, when I feel so filthy? How am I supposed to let you touch me when I'm this dirty? How can I even let myself touch you, when you are clean and I am not?"
"That's stupid," He immidiately answered, hitting me on the shoulder. "You're even more clean than I am right now!"
"Am not,"
"Am too!"
The discussion went on for another ten minutes, before he finally agreed to help me out into the shower.
After taking a long bath together, we went to the bedroom to sleep. It had become more and more natural for us to do that, and sometimes I even forgot that Eren had another home.
It was like he fit in so perfectly in my life, that I was having a hard time remembering how my life had been before him. Even if he was acting like a childish brat sometimes.
I hadn't been lonely before, I just hadn't been aware of how much nicer it was to have someone important in my life.
Eren fell asleep in my arms after only a few minutes, and I had buried my face into his hair to take a long sniff of him.
He smelled like home.
My arms around him tightened their wrap, and I let out a very long sigh. I was absolutely sure that he was asleep now, since I could finally relax.
If Eren was such an important piece of my new life, then how could it be that I was never able to relax around him? I always felt tense, like I needed to put up walls.
Walls in my head, I thought.
That was what scared me the most.
Eren had just seemed like a normal kid. Just a teenager who had appeared in my life out of nowhere. It had been easy at first, and I hadn't noticed anything odd about him. He was the typical teenager, just filled with those damn hormones.
But there was something else as well … I hadn't noticed it at first, but now it seemed like I couldn't stop noticing.
It was little things, yeah. But I couldn't shake the feeling that something was way off. It just wasn't possible for him to know the things that he did. The way he knew what I always wanted, even answering my thoughts before I could even say them out loud.
I always thought of my answers before actually saying them – that way, I was sure to keep my head cool, and be sure of that I wouldn't say anything incorrect.
The thought of the possibility that Eren could actually ….
No. I couldn't finish that sentence. If I said the words out loud, if I even just thought of them … I couldn't believe myself.
Why?
Because that kind of thing isn't even possible.
I started to question my own sanity.
This isn't a scene in a X-Men movie. This is real life, for god's sake!
I sighed again.
But there was something wrong with Eren, I knew that much.
I made the sad realisation that I didn't trust Eren – well, not as much as I had deluded myself to think.
Something was definitely going on, so I decided to take it into my own hands. I was going to find out what, if it was the last thing I did.
Ehehehe, I love the 'full sarcasm mode'.As if it's a switch that Levi can turn on and off.
Other than that, sorry for it being so short. I know that this story has really short chapters, and I sincerely apologize for that!
Well ... Stay lovely, as always xoxo