Ch 6: I Only Love You in Death by AshyBear

Angelo. He's the only thing on my mind, I got him into this and I'll get him out of it safely. He seems to be taking the whole 'we just found an alien thing' well but he could just be in shock over the whole thing. But either way I know I can trust him with this. To keep it to himself.

We've been running for a few minutes before we hit a fence. I help Angelo up; I need him to get away. I can't let anything happen to him, especially since these guys seem to have guns.

I hear the bang ringing in my ears and I look up at Angelo, his face filled with concern. His eyes were filling with tears. I'm dying at the worst possible time, what if something happens to him? Then everything slowly faded into black.

I look around slowly, noticing Ianto's not in sight. He's probably in his bedroom or maybe it's like he said and I don't want to see him yet.

I love Ianto but I have a life with Angelo. It may not be solid or long term but it's real, real to me. But I guess this is real to Ianto, and this is real to me too. At least it's real while I'm here.

Maybe I should just go find Ianto, talking to him could help. And coffee could definitely help. I'll probably find him in his room.

I walked down the hall till I came to the door I recognized as his and took a deep breath. I walked in to see him stretched out on the large bed with a book covering his face. He was still wearing his suit minus the jacket which was neatly hung on the bedpost beside him.

"Hi" I said sheepishly, realizing he probably knew I didn't want to see him right away.

"Hello Jack" he said politely as he lowered his book.

His smile is enough to light up the room.

"Can I come sit with you?"

"Of course sir" he smiled.

I walked over to the large bed and climbed up beside him, noticing his shirt was mostly unbuttoned. No reason for only some of the buttons to be done up, might as well undo them all.

Ianto shivers when my fingers brush against his now bare skin. I wink at him before I kiss his neck and jaw before making my way to his lips until we're full on snogging. Just like I was with Angelo only hours ago. And now I feel guilty.

"I'm sorry" I say as I pull away from him.

"Are you okay?"

"You know I love you, right?"

"Yes" Ianto smiled "and I love you too"

I couldn't help but smile. He's such a sweet man; I just wish I could be with him when I'm alive so I can have a proper life with him. Then maybe this wouldn't be so hard.
I want to tell him about Angelo but it's hard to find the right way of saying it. I really don't want to hurt his feelings or make him think he means less to me.

"Jack, what's wrong?" He asked concerned "you said you're sorry, what are you sorry for?"

"I'm sorry"

"Jack please just tell me" he sounded even more worried now.

"I'msortofdatingsomeone" I say quickly.

"Pardon sir?"

"I said, I'm sort of dating someone"

"Oh, what do you mean by dating?"

"Well we live together in New York and we've been briefly working together but I really like him and he likes me and we've also slept together, multiple times. I really like him"

"I understand" Ianto said encouragingly.

"Really? I thought you'd be more upset. I mean considering this is real for you. Not that it isn't real for me too, I just mean I can't remember it when I'm alive so I can't help but have the same feelings for someone else if I don't know I have feelings for you"

Ianto chuckled "its okay Jack, it hurts but I know how you feel about me and you can't help but not remember this. So will you tell me about him?" he asked laying his head on my chest.

I kissed the top of his head lightly before giving my answer "His name's Angelo Colasanto, he's a really nice guy. A little ashamed of being himself but he's getting over that quickly. He looks at the world like he's a lost puppy, I get to show him things and tell him things that make his eyes light up with wonder, I love being with him"

"I half expected you to tell me about how good he is in bed" Ianto chuckled.

"Oh he's great in bed. He sometimes gets in these moods where he feels like what we're doing is wrong and for some reason it just makes it even hotter, like he wants to break all the rules to be with me"

"Well I'm happy for you sir and as always i'll wait for you" Ianto said smiling up at me "is it still okay if we kiss while you're here though?"

It's my turn to smile at him now. I lean in and brush my lips against his; as soon as our lips touch he grabs the back of my neck and pulls me in closer. The kiss is hot and possessive which makes me realize he's jealous. But if he keeps kissing me like this, then a little jealousy never hurt anybody.

I barely register the knocking in the background.

I gasp for breath and slightly register the end result of a terrible headache before taking in my surroundings.

Angelo? Did he get away? Please let him have gotten away.

I get up and walk down the alley until I catch my footing then break out into a run towards the room we rent together. Ignoring the people I pass I push myself to run even faster, hoping when I get there he'll be there.

He isn't, the room is empty besides the few things we left out before we went to finish my Torchwood mission. The stupid mission that got Angelo in trouble.

I have to believe he's okay though if he wasn't dead on the side of the road with me. He'll be okay.