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CHRISTINE

After a wonderful night of making love and love and more love I thought my body was going to be sore from all this but it wasn't. I won't lie and say it didn't hurt cause it did but now it feels good, to finally be with Erik and show our love to each other.

We both had woke up around the sametime guessing around 2, I moved to kiss him, running my fingers through his dark hair. I was laying on my back my legs extended over the side. "Put it in me,make love to me somemore please my Erik."

Erik moved on top of me kissing me, letting his fingers touch me, in away no one has ever touched me before I knew in my heart that we were created for each other. Erik slowly thrust in me making sure he didn't hurt me and this made my heart warm and fill with so much love. He bent at his waist to lean over me and kiss my forehead. His hips moved outside his control. Pure animal lust drove him to thrust his pelvis against mine harder. Enjoying every minute of it, I couldn't stop moaning or saying his name, as I kissed his neck. Erik gasped with shallow breaths and surged within me.

Erik collapsed panting and sweating on the floor between my parted legs. He climbed onto his knees and buried his nose in my folds. My body reacted to the pleasure of a man's tongue by humping against his face. I wrapped my legs around his back. He inhaled to fill his lungs with my musk. I teetered on the edge of another orgasm. Butterfly flicks on the exposed live wire to my brain forced me to squeal and arch my back when the climax came. Erik crawl back into bed with me, wrapping his arms around me resting his head on my chest.

"I love you Christine completely mind body and soul." just then I felt something drop on my chest and I noticed it was Erik he was crying tears were freely falling, my lip quivering as I looked down at him touching his head. "You are mine now."

"Erik" I said but I stopped when I felt his head shake a little and I stopped. He moved up to me and kissed my cheek then laid his face to my neck. He growled against the soft flesh of my neck, grabbing a strong hold upon my hip.

"I require all of you, your entire being, to exist only for me." he said as he leaned in to kiss me as he pressed his lips gently against mine, I moved to kiss him back, but he pulled murmured something as he shifted his weight so that he was laying next to me more, pressed up against the side of my body as his fingers lazily trailed down my body from my shoulders towards the apex of my thighs, before running back up my side.

"Erik what are you-" I said but was shushed. With a grin his fingers found their way to softly rubbed my thighs, avoiding my pussy which so ached to be touch. His lips were running up and down my neck again planting a trail of gentle kisses along the desperately pulsing vein. His tongue followed, brushing small circles over the flesh, teasingly. Then a small croon escaped my lips and I tilted her neck to the side, exposing more of my neck to him. He grinned and gently bit me as his fingers brushed over my mound. With a gasp I began to try to squirm away from his fingers, something felt right at the sametime something felt off with him.

As he spoke his fingers were sliding back up my body he didn't hold in a soft groan, as he watched me for a moment. With a grin he leaned in tracing the curves of my breasts with his tongue. He continued this until he saw my nipples standing erect, and taking advantage of my own arousal he took one of the tender nipples into his lips, running his tongue around the areola as he sucked gently on the teat. This ripped the sweetest moan from my lips, as I squirmed beneath him. Erik mused as he continued to play with my nipple. His teeth nibbled on it playfully at first before pressing it between his teeth with a more sure pressure, pulling on the nipple to wrench a pained croon from me. I arched my back up to follow his lips, only to find his hand pressing down upon my sternum, forcing my back against the mattress as he pulled harder on the nipple. After a number of minutes of continued teasing he released the nipple, tracing the areola one more time before raising his head to look up at me.

"I love you, sweet one." he moaned as he leaned back down to do with this nipple what was done with the other. I was squirming underneath him, each sensation in my breasts causing ripples of pleasure to sear through my form. His other hand left my sternum after giving my other breast a gentle fondle and slid teasingly down my stomach and hips. His touches were so intimate that it sent a shiver down my finally released my nipple and trailed kisses back up my neck before resting his lips against my ear again.

"You're all mine Christine,every part of you, I'm going to explore you and feel you, love you make you crave me in everyway. from the music room to the bedroom." he said he began to run his fingers over my mound in a luxuriating was that caused a small pressure to build low within my belly. And for another few minutes until his fingers kept playing with my sensitive nub. I squirmed underneath his fingers and let out a cry of pleasure as that fire burned more brightly in my belly as he continued teasing it with his fingers.

As my button began to swell and grow hard under his fingers, he smirked and took it between his fingers and pulled on it, causing my back to arch as a low moan was ripped from me. As his finger leaving my nub for a moment to press down between my labia dipping in my moist heat. Then he continued pulling his finger back, bringing the finger to his lips.

"Christine you taste so sweet, I love the taste of you." he moaned. I watched him and he was looking different from the calm, sweet Erik.I found his lips over mine, his lips tracing the contours of my lips my lips, allowing his tongue entrance into my mouth. His tongue explored my mouth my eyes clamped shut as I moaned in pleasure, not allowed to escape from the kiss, his teeth claiming my lower lip.

"Erik what are you doing please" I moaned against his lips kissing him. He moved his hand back down my body and started to slowly with me,whilst his other fingers started to massage my button. He abruptly pulled away from the kiss, his hovering less than an inch from me.

"Ask me, tell me you want me to touch you like this and make you cum." He murmured, lips brushing against mine as his words were illustrated by a luxuriated stroke along my slit. "I won't do anything that you don't want me to do...I promise my sweet Christine" I didn't say anything he groaned in displeasure, dragging his lips down my neck and chest, his breath brushing against my erect nipples. I whimpered again shifting against him. "I will never hurt you, I couldn't do it if I tried," licking my nipple and pulling my bud gently, "and you love me I love you."

Erik leaned in to kiss me again, "Grind against my hand." He murmured firmly before plunging into another kiss. His hand moved from my nipple to instead fondle my breast purposefully. I complied readily, pressing my pelvis into his hand, carefully at first before following his pace. The sounds of my wanton moans and his fingers sliding in and out of my dripping mound filled the room. He was pushing in a third finger as I whimpered, squirming against him adjusting to the digits. "Do you want to cum my dear" he inquired in seeming innocence, flicking my clit with his thumb.

This sent a jolt down my spine, causing me to shiver and writhe against his hand as his pace moved faster, hips complying to the tempo of his hand. I don't know what got into him, but he was a different person right now like a new awaken in him a passion. He flicked my clit again, pulling his fingers almost completely out of me and then pounding them completely in. He continued firmly, and I couldn't resist any longer, I had no will power, the fire was burning so brightly in my belly that the only thing that I could even consider was cumming.

"Please...please, I'm about to cum." I groaned hoarsely against his lips, as he pressed them against me again, roughly molesting my breast. He smirked and did not take more than a moment to comply with me. He forced his fingers in and out of me roughly and quickly, making sure to brush against my swollen nub with each thrust. It took less than five minutes. I was humping his hand with abandon, thinking about nothing except the relief that only he could give me at that moment and he did.

I nearly screamed as my orgasm came, ripping through my body and mind. My pussy clamped down around his fingers and my thighs pressed tightly against his legs. My back was arched, head pressing back against the wood of the head board. He watched me with a leer as I rode the orgasm, a prettier sight never before crossing his eyes. I writhed under him for a matter of moments before he leaned forward then kissed me.

He whispered. "Only I can give you this, no other man. And I shall show you further how much you need me and How much I love you. The love we share is stronger than anything now you belong to me my sweet one" I heard him but I was still coming down. He kissed me again and I watched as he got up and went into the bathroom. I laid there for about 10 minutes then I finally got up and walked slowly to the bathroom on wobbly legs. Once in there I saw Erik resting in the tub, then he turned and looked at me with a smile on his face.

"Sweet one, my sweet one Christine, do you care to join me?" he asked and I slowly walked in the bathroom. I plunged into the tub facing him our legs intertwined he looked at me but I didn't say anything, he smiled at me but I didn't return it so for a while soaking in silence, I turned myself in the tub and scooted to recline with my back against Erik's chest. He played with my hair, taking out of the pony tail that I had put it in, during the middle of the night. We was relaxed and washed up together.

"I love you." I said turning my head towards him kissing him"I love you, Erik."

"I love you too, Chrsitine." he said wrapping his arms around me. The water got cold before either one of us moved to get out.

"You love me and you're only 19." he said

I replied, "Yes and You're old enough to be my grandfather aren't you." We both got out and dryed off he smiled at me and kissed me. "And you love me like no other old man" he smiled at me. Our time together was always a goodtime I would sing while he played, he even taught me how to play the piano among other things he had in his music room. But I was shocked when I started to play and HE started to sing. I was lost in his voice it was so beautiful that I started to cry.

"Christine what's wrong?" he came to me looking in my eyes.

"Nothing just your voice moved me and it's so beautiful and I love it" I said he smiled kissing my hair.

"Nothing is more beautiful then my sweet one, my sweet Christine" he said making me blush and look away.

2 months went by and a few things changed for one we went out more together, he never let me go out alone. We was always together, shopping for the things I needed never what he needed he always said I was the only thing he needed, I slept in his bed every night only going to mine when I had to get some stuff out of my room. He even turned one of his bigger rooms to a movie room for me getting a 60 inch tv, dvd player and satelltie cable. A huge couch and chair but he never came in there with me to watch tv with me. He said he had no use to watch the idiot box or the idiots on the tv. I just laughed at him telling him don't knock it til he trys it.

With all this going on felt sick, he thought the food was bad and threw it all away and went shopping for fresher food for me but still it was hard for me to eat, the food smelt funking and made me throw up anyway.. He threw food away like 2 more times and I told him to stop doing that, and I could have a cold from going out on the balcony barefoot and with out a coat or sweater on at night. With me saying that made him not allow me out unless I was fully dressed hat and coat but I fought against putting on gloves, that's where I drew the line, he limited our walks in the park and how long we would be out there..

One day I was walking around the house looking for Erik but he was nowhere to be found in his big ass house, so I knew he must be out doing whatever it is he does, cause I knew he always didn't go to the opera house. And well I needed to get out of the house and I coudn't wait for the walk in the park, I wanted to get out now. I went and got my coat, and shoes then left my room, I watched how he unlocked the doors to the house everytime we left so I knew how to get in and out of the house with knowing that I went out, moving pass his traps and got out. Once I walked out the door the sunlight hit me and I smiled but I still felt sick so I walked to the corner store and got 2 things I really needed cause I know my body. I know something is wrong here. After the store I was going to go back home but saw the opera house and I went in, right through the front door where I heard Habanera playing I love that song, I have the 3rd verse in it, but why was they doing it now.

I walked into the grand ball room and I saw them performing it, I walked in more standing to the side watching, I know the count and the line number. I am first string number3 right next to Judi and Meg I watched and saw Tina was in my spot. I stood there watching she was doing my part MY PART the part that Erik promised me that would never be taken that no one will ever touch. I felt the tears sting my eyes when I realized he lied to me, I was replace then I felt sick covering my mouth running to the door pushing it open running out to the nearest bathroom.

Once in I started to throw up and throw up and throw up more. Once I was done I cried I couldn't believe it, I couldn't believe it he lied to me. I walked out of the stall going to the sink wash out my mouth a few times. Drying my eyes I walked out of the bathroom not looking where I was going and I bumped into someone.

"Oh Sorry" they said

"No no it was my fault" I said then looked up and there he was Raoul he looked at me in shock first then I was wrapped up in his arms before I could run away.

"CHRISTINE, CHRISTINE! OH GOD YOUR OKAY SO GLAD YOUR OKAY." Raoul said hugging me tight.

"Raoul down please" I said and he did I hugged him back.

"Your okay I heard that you left to go live with family out of state Judi, Meg said it wasn't true that you didn't have any other family, your here where have you been. Come with me I have to let them know your not gone." Raoul said

"Wait answer this why is Tina in my spot I thought it was going to stay open for me?" I asked

"It was but we was told by" Raoul said and looked around the back at me. "We was told by Erik to fill that spot that you wasn't coming back no time soon" hearing that, it was true Erik lied to me. I started to cry and Raoul hugged me tight. "I believed it at first but after Meg and Judie told me that I knew it was a trick are you still with him?"

"Yes I am I-" I said but was cut of when the lights in the lobby shut off and I was grabbed by the waist, picked up off of the floor, by strong arms and I knew who it was. "LET ME GO RAUOL HELP ME"

"CHRISTINE, CHRISTINE" Raoul yelled I couldn't see anything I was kicking and screaming for him to let me go. He moved so fast and before I knew it we was back in the house and then only in the house he put me down.

"Christine what was you doing there? What was you doing there?" he asked sitting me down on th couch but I got back up.

"NO, NO YOU LIED TO ME ERIK YOU FUCKING LIED TO ME" I screamed

"Erik did not lie to you Christine" he said

"YES YOU DID TINA IS IN MY SPOT DOING MY PART AND YOU TOLD THEM I MOVED AWAY TO STAY WITH FAMILY YOU LIED TO THEM AND TO ME I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU!" I screamed

"I had to I don't want you away for me see what happen when you was apart from me, you ran into that boy" he said

"THAT BOY IS MY FRIEND... YOU, YOU... I HATE YOU I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU ERIK THIS IS NOT LOVE IT'S NOT" I scream and began to cry and I felt sick again, covering my mouth I ran out of the livingroom right to my room, to the bathroom closing, locking the door going and throwing up... As I was throwing up I heard his knocks on the door. "GO AWAY GET AWAY FROM ME" I throw up more and cried more. After a few more minutes I flushed washed my mouth and my face. And then I went into my pocket and took out the things I brought from the store and took them.

It must have been the worst 5 or 10 minutes of my life I waited and of course Erik knocked but I didn't answer him or anything. I finally stood up and walked to the vantiy table, looking down at the table and there was 3 clearblue pregnancy test flashing PREGNANT. I shook my head and I moved back from the table to the door. Sliding down against the door, sitting there in silence, I contemplated with myself about everything, and touched my stomach, rubbing it gently. It all made sense, now! My period was very very much late 2 months late, my emotions were everywhere,but I did feel slight shifts in how I felt. I felt the tears start to fall what am I going to do. I need to tell Erik first then go from there but I'm so mad at his ass for lying.

"Sorry" I muttered...I stayed there til I fell asleep on the floor. I slept all night til the next day, I woke up when it felt like I had to throw up. I got up and crawled to the toilet and throw up. I got up washed up then I finally left the bathroom opening the door and I saw Erik was sitting on the floor legs straighted out pillow behind his head. I went to my closet and opening it made him wake up. Once he saw me out of the bathroom he shot up coming to me, I put on a maxie dress by the time he got to me.

"Christine, my sweet one I'm so sorry Erik.. Erik didn't... I didn't mean to hurt you please my sweet one I love you so much." he said I didn't even bother to look at him when he went to touch me, I turned and moved back for him but my hand connected with his face and he didn't flinch, I moved back more thinking he was going to hit me back, but he didn't he move closer to me and hugged me tight. "Christine I will take all you give me, I am sorry for my actions"

"We need to talk Erik" I said

"Okay we will now" he said looking at me he moved to touch my face, but I moved my head back. "Christine?"

"We need to talk in the livingroom" I said moving out of his arms walking out of the room and right to the livingroom. Erik followed me and we both sat on the couch.

"What do you wanna talk to your Erik about?" He asked touching my arm. In my right hand I held on to the test in a fist.

"These 2 months I've been sick and I know why now" I said

"Why please tell me" he said

"Cause of this" I said giving him the pregnancy test, he looked down at them studing them, then he looked at me.

"You are with child? You are with my child?" He asked looking at me.

"Yes I am pregnant Erik, having a baby your baby" I said

"Christine I'm a old man and you're only 19... We are not in the same age frame" he said what is he trying to say to me what is he saying.. I DON'T WANNA HEAR IT! I CAN'T HEAR IT.

"Erik" I said with a shaky voice. He moved off of the couch on to the floor kneeling down.

"Forgive me for what Erik is about to say, I may not be the best father for a child" he said and I cringed and stared down at him.

"What are you saying you want me to get rid of our baby?" I asked

"Christine your Erik is asking you consider the thought-" he said but was cut off

My heart began to pound harder as I rose from the couch, startling him. He didn't rise he stayed, only knelt by her feet. "I can't believe you" I said as the tears came I ran to my room slamming the door, locking it going to my bed getting in it and cried. "He might not want you but I want you baby" I laid there rubbing my belly til I fell asleep.

ERIK

I was still kneeling on the floor as she walked away from me I hate that she screamed at me, I'm hurt that she is made at me for the things I did about not telling her the full truth about her spot. I love Christine so much that I kept her here with me, not wanting her to go out alone in fear that she will meet another and leave me alone. So I did some very underhanded things and thought that I was doing the right thing. It's clear that I wasn't I didn't I hurt her more than I thought I was helping her with it.

Now I stay kneeling looking at the pregnancy test showing that my sweet one my sweet Christine is carrying my child and I again hurt her by saying the wrong words. I am scared! Much of my concern stems from not having a role model to teach them how to be the father I want to be.I was not raised to be caregiver or to show love to another person other than my sweet one.A baby can make a good relationship better and a bad relationship worse. Ababy will make me feel neglected,she will have all this focus on the baby, and our relationship will get put on hold and I will feel left out and even jealous of the I am now that someone is closer to her then I am.

Will I be able to protect and provide for my family? I will need to be strong in ways I hadn't counted on before. I will have to provide support not worrying about financially but emotionally: Christine will need my help, she'll be undergoing dramatic emotional shifts, and I will have to be ready for her to lean on me. I don't know what to do or think?It's too monumental, too godlike, being part of the creation of life. Someone bigger than me must have done it. But why? why? It just seemed — I don't know — this was too good, too miraculous to happen to me. I didn't think someone so ugly could have a child what if he or she comes out looking like me... Christine will hate me for it and leave us both.

Childbirth is such a nerve-racking experience. Scary things can happen to my sweet on the one I love most in the whole world. I might lose the baby; I might lose Christine and have to bring the baby up alone, How can a monster raise a child. It really wasn't long ago that giving birth was fraught with danger. The fear I have is that WILL will love the baby more than anyone on earth — and exclude me from that intimate relationship. It's a very real fear of being replaced my father and Mother both replaced me soon Christine will too.

I stay there for a few minutes then I finally got up and walked to her door. I could hear her crying in there. I wanted to go in there and hold her. I waited and waited after knocking a few times she didn't answer and I used my talents to unlock the door and walked in, I saw her curled up in her bed. I walked to the bed climbing in the bed with her, I wrapped my arm around her, pulling her closer to me. I kissed her neck just laid there with her til I fell asleep too.

The next few days was not happy for me Christine didn't talk to me, she didn't look at me. She stayed to herself and the baby, Sat down a added up the time so she should be 17 or 18 weeks pregnant. I went to my library to read up on babies and pregnancy and there I found Christine sitting on the floor.

"Is there something wrong with the chairs? Yes I know they are a bit rough but I can get a softer on for you." I said she didn't look up at me at all. "Christine please for the sake of our child will you please get iin one of the chairs" She didn't move at all. So I walked to her and picked her up, she made a high pitch sound but I didn't care. I walked her to the couch and laid her down. Then got the list of books sitting to the side where so was,I sat them on the small table in front of her. "Now that's better,I'm going to go start lunch yall must be hungry" I turned and left the room going right to the kitchen started to make lunch and thinkig about a baby, my baby. "Maybe if I voice my problems I can solve them that way"

I moved around the kitchen getting thing for lunch and trying to calm my active mind but it wasn't working. "Will I do everything right? I fear not being able to properly provide for my family once baby is here...I'm scared that everything we do will now be centered around babies..That something will be wrong with the baby? All the crap that will be everywhere around the house...Not being a good father. I know what it's like to not have a father, and I don't want to repeat the cycle..Not being able to 'soothe' her when she cries...And what if this baby comeout looking like me?" I said I shook my head but then I knew I wasn't alone in the room. I turned to see Christine standing there big blue eyes sad and written with worry and concern.

"Is that how your feeling? Oh Erik" she said coming to me hugging me tight. "I love you Erik you have to tell me the truth"

"Sweet one your Erik has many fears with this and don't wish to stress you out" I said she moved my mask off of my face. "What if this baby looks like me?"

"Then I'll love him or her just like I love you... I mad at you but I still love you, this is hard for me too I never been a mother we will learn together Erik" she said and kissed me.

"Thank you Christine" I said and pulled her closer to me kissing her harder. I missed her this short time she wasn't speaking to me. And my memeber quickly was responding to the kiss, I felt Christine smile in the kiss. "Christine I love you and I'm sorry"

"Show me"she said I moved my hand softly teasing a nipple with my thumb. "Oooo," she moaned softly in my ear as she intensified our kiss.I missed her so much that I used my free hand to unbuckle my belt and then pull up her short dress. I was surprised to find Christine was not wearing panties.I then casually spun her so her back was to me and, while blowing in her ear, kissing her neck and then her lips, I pushed her dress up more and she bend towards the table I then placed memeber at the entrance of her wet womanhood and pushed. "Oh shiiit...ugggh," she groaned. With her already wet, I went right to the hilt. It felt like I was going to split her in half. I made love to her right there in the kitchen on the table, I miss the feel of her and I ran my fingers over her body feeling her moan and groan

"Uugggh," I grunt as I released deep inside her, who went into a multi-orgasm that rolled her eyes back into her head. She slowly stood up and I moved us to lay on the floor her on top of me kissing me, I will never lie to my sweet one again, but having a baby is scary and I Erik am scared.