POLINGY

I was back home pacing in my office drinking a scotch trying to calm my mind but it wasn't working I messed up she saw me, she talked to me now I don't know what to do. That wasn't in the plan at all for her to talk to me or see me or even noticed that I was following her and the Chagny boy to look my way, now they both have seen me, and the plans are going all wrong.

"What is wrong?" Debienne asked Debienne my wife and partner came walking in looking at me.

"Everything" I said

"Like what you are more than over reacting I'm sure" she said I shook my head no.

"I am not I messed up" I said

"Messed up what please tell me what did you mess up?" she asked

"Christine..Christine I was following her getting all the info I can and she saw me. She looked at me and noticed I was following her and she spoke to me and I foolishly called her by name and she chased after me asking me why was I following her" I said drinking the rest from my cup.

"YOU DID WHAT? WHAT AGAIN? NO ALL THIS WORK WE DID YOU FUCKED IT ALL UP?" she screamed and I stop walking looking at her.

"I made a mistake she caught me off guard" I explained

"HOW? HOW? YOU FOLLOWED HER SHE SAW YOU, YOU SPOKE TO HER, CHASED YOU NOW YOU CAN'T GO BACK OUT THERE" She screamed I knew she was right I couldn't go back out there to watch her to get close to her again, since she seen my face and spoke to me.

"I know Deb I'm sorry, what do we do now?" I asked sitting down next to her.

"WE? WE? WE WILL DO NOTHING? You done enough, now I have to do it all myself" she said getting up then looked at me pointing my finger at her. "If that has messed things up, if YOU have messed things up for me getting this baby I will kill you myself trust me, I know ways of hiding a body. I WANT THAT BABY!" she turned and left the office and I just sat there thinking ever since she laid eyes on Christine and saw her alone she wanted her child since we wasn't able to have any kids of our own and I could have messed things up for us.

CHRISTINE

2 months later I am now 7 months pregnant and very big the doctor said everything is going well. At the doctor's office I met this older lady who said she ran a daycare and would give me a good price, so I took her number told her I will think about it. She also told me to keep in touch even if I didn't use her daycare.

Right now I was in the now baby room putting stuff together and just looking forward to being a mom, cause my mom and dad was great parents so I knew I would be too. And the funny thing is I wasn't missing Erik anymore yes I still thought about him, I still thought about going to him home and giving his ass a piece of my mind, but I didn't not cause I didn't care but cause HE didn't care.

I can't make a guy be a man and do what's right and that's why I am so happy Raoul is here. Even tho this baby is not his, he still there taking care of us as if Matthias was his baby. And I was even working a little at the opera house helping Raoul with the girl, I was helping with their notes, dance steps, hair and make-up and clothing. I didn't want to but he said I need to get out of the house and do something and I was making money at the sametime doing something I still loved being in the opera house. A few times I would feel a breeze and I would look to see if I saw Erik, even tho I didn't I knew he was there.

One time I went to his box, box 5 and stood there talking getting things off my chest and I did leave the ultra sound picture there on the seat, and when I came back the next day it was gone so I knew he had it. No one else was crazy or bold enough to go to box 5 to get it. Raoul knew I did that, so did Meg and Judi... But Meg she said she went up there and said a few words that word make sailors go running. I just laughed and thank her. Right now like I said I was in the baby room putting stuff together. Raoul was in the kitchen getting dinner ready for us, Judi,Meg and Carlotta was coming over.

I was able to get in touch with her when I said her name one day and Raoul said he knew who she was, that his dad and hers ran in the same company. Carlotta tried her best to talk me into going to Erik but after I got tuff with her she let it go. As I was putting stuff up struggling to put 2 pieces together I noticed someone was at the door. I looked up and was met with a smiling, chuckling face.

"What Phil" I ask Philippe who's Raoul's older brother and very weird if you ask me, he smiles alot and talks too much and Meg has a thing for him. But I met him one night bumping into him in the hallway on the way to the bathroom at Raoul's house then I found out it was their family home. He just smiled at me looked down at my belly saying this is why Raoul was sneaking around that he wanted to hide the beauty that was carrying his baby.

I tried to tell him what was up but he wouldn't let me get word in until Raoul came out to see what was taking me so long to get back and to make sure I wasn't hurt or that someone had gotten me meaning Erik but when he saw his brother's wide smile he knew what was going on. After he explained it all his brother was proud of Raoul stepping up to being a man to be there for me. And now Philippe won't leave us alone with his goofy grins and rambling chatter.

"Nothing Christine looks like you could use a man's help." Philippe said

"Yea maybe can you get Raoul to help me" I said and Philippe laughed loud and hard. I giggled as he came in sitting on the floor with me helping me fix the rest of Matthias stuff.

"So I was thinking about you" Philippe said and I looked at him like he was crazy.

"Why was you thinking about me?" I asked as I was putting the babies clothes in the draws.

"Cause I can, I mean you and Raoul aren't a couple, I mean yall barely hug only kiss I seen yall do is either on the cheek or when he kisses you on the forehead. Yall don't sleep in the same room or nothing." Philippe said

"So what that doesn't mean we're not a couple we can just be private people and do all other stuff here where your ears can't hear." I said finally looking at him and he was smiling at me.

"I don't believe you, if yall was a couple my brother would have been told me and made it known to the world that you are his and he haven't plus I seen him and Judi kissing the other day at the car" Philippe said

"Your lying" I said

"Am I? I think I am not" Philippe said and I walked away from him and right out the room, right to the kitchen where Raoul was setting the table.

"Was you and Judi kissing?" I asked I watched as he slowed down setting the table then looked at me. "Christine"

"It's true huh? If your with Judi then why are you here with me? Why are you always spending time with me?" I asked

"It's not like that Christine, me and Judi-" he said but was cut off

"NO, NO I don't wanna hear it.. Here I am thinking that you liked me, that you never made a move on me because you respected me but no your with Judi... Get out!" I said

"Christine wait I do like you-" he said but I raised my hands stopping him.

"I don't wanna hear it just get out and you can take all your baby shit with you.. I don't need another man in my life who's full of shit GET OUT!" I yelled waking out of the room going back to the baby room and grabbing stuff. Walking to the door unlocking it and walking out to the steps throwing it down the stairs on the stairs, I went back in by this Raoul was out of the kitchen standing in the livingroom Philippe was standing there shocked.

"Christine stop let me explain myself first" he said but I walked right by him to the baby room and I opened the draws getting all the clothes and walking back out right pass him following me. "Don't do that, that's for Matthias I brought that for my son." I turned around looking at him.

"HE'S NOT YOUR SON, HE'S MINE NO BODY ELSES YOU GOT THAT TAKE YOUR SHIT RAOUL" I screamed walking outside throwing the stuff everywhere. Going back in Philippe walked passed me and went outside picking the stuff up.

"Christine stop please look Judi and I was talking, just talking and she said she always wanted to kiss me from the first time yall saw me and that to get it out of her system she wanted a small kiss and I was like a small kiss won't hurt no one and I kissed her it didn't mean nothing, I like you I wanna be with you. I was planning on asking you to be with me after the baby was born.'' he said

"What would it hurt?" I said walking to him and I slapped him. "That's what it would hurt.. NOW GET OUT OF MY HOUSE, I DON'T WANT EITHER ONE OF YOU HERE" I screamed as Philippe came in bring in everything I throw out which was only the clothes and pampers. Philippe put the stuff on the couch and left Raoul stood there looking at me. I had my head turned looking the other way.

"Christine please I wouldn't hurt you" he said

"Well you did and you might as well call Judi and Meg tell them not to come here, I don't wanna see them either." I said as I walked to the door he, walked out and I slammed and locked the door. I went back into Matthias room and stood there. Later that night I was walking in the park with Carlotta I told her everything and she was just a upset as I was. We walked and talked about alot of things, she talked me into keeping all the stuff Raoul brought. I told her I didn't want it and was going to throw it all out and buy me some new stuff but she told me not too.

"So just so you know not trying to kick you when your down but my dad saw Erik the other day" she said and I looked at her and nodded. "He said that he was looking different not sad but just different that he didn't really talk to him much not like he talked that much anyway, but that he was more silent then anything, like a lost puppy."

"Oh yea hmmph, so wanna go get something to eat?" I asked I don't wanna act like I didn't care cause I did but I can't with Erik news right now.

"Yes big mama let's go get yall something to eat." she said. 2 months later me and Meg,Judi finally talked and Judi told me she was sorry for what happen that she shouldn't have did it that she didn't mean to hurt me. I told her it was okay that I didn't wanna be in a relationship with Raoul that.

Today I was at Raoul's house he was having a cook out just for the fun of it, and I got up going to the bathroom, there was a few people here, mainly from the opera house. I went to the bathroom to relieve myself, but before I sat down on the toilet, I felt a hard cramp. I grabbed the underside of my belly and rubbed it. But then I felt it again. What the hell? Shit that hurt! I got up and cleaned up, I washed my hands then grabbed ahold of the sink before I felt a gush of liquid pour out from underneath my dress. Holy fucking shit! I stared down frantically at the water running down my legs.

"Oh, God...," I whispered, as I slowly opened the bathroom door. "Meg, MEG I need to go to the hospital."

Meg came around the corner, "Hey, what did you—oh my God!" She rushed over to me and called for Judi. Raoul came running grabbing his keys. The three of them helped me into the back seat. And we was off to the hospital, the whole ride there I cried, and cried this hurt so bad. We finally reached the hospital I was checked in and took right to a room. The nurses came in to examine and prep me I wasn't at all ready for this, and threw the tears I wanted Erik here to hold my hand to be there for me.

Once it was time to push I thought I was being ripped into 2, it was the fucking worst I cursed out Raoul,Meg everyone.

"Christine, we need you to breathe and push, okay?" the doctor said.

"I can't, I can't,please please" I yelled back. "It hurts too much, fuck motherfucker!"

"Squeeze my hand," Raoul suggested.

"Fuck your hand asshole" I screamed

"Yes, you can. breath for me and push he'll be here," the doctor calmly responded. I pushed harder and harder... Harder then I ever have in my life. After 4 or 5 hours of pushing. The final push.

"That's it, he's here," the doctor said I looked and saw him my baby. Matthias. I could see his little pale arms flailing as he cried. They brought him to me after the cleaned him up I looked him over he is a beautiful baby, his eyes OH GOD his eyes are beautiful just like Erik's eyes, he looked just like Erik as if he spit him out instead of were no other words to describe him .

"I love you mommy's baby," I whispered to him, kissing him for the first that night, I woke up in the hospital bed. I glanced around the room and no one was in here with me I looked in the little crib where Matthias was but I didn't see him, I was getting ready to panic but stopped when I saw a figure move from the side.

"Erik" I whispered.

ERIK

I stood there listening to my sweet one scream and crying I wanted so bad to walk in there and help her and calm her down and let her know it's alright but I didn't. I wasn't sure how she was going to react to seeing me after all these months, I saw her looking pregnant and beautiful at the opera house helping out with the other woman. She came to my box a few times and her friend Meg came to the box cursing and fussing at me about not being there, I didn't care about what she had to say. I was glad to get the ultra sound Christine left me, I held on to it carried it around with me, my only picture of my son.

When she went into labor I was there watching as she laughed and talked at Raoul's party. And now here I am waiting in the hospital for that moment to meet my son, to see my sweet one my sweet Christine. I waited then being me caused a little miss leading so I could clear out the room and spend time alone with them. I walked into the room there they both was my sweet Christine sleeping. I stood there just looking at them when my son Matthias started to fuss a little. I walked to him looking down at him, I picked him up unsure on how I should hold him. I questioned if I was holding him right,my arms feeling like steel bands, although my son felt surprisingly light.

I finally took a breath and relaxed. I gently pulled Matthias away from my chest, so I could get a good look at him. My eyes roamed over every inch of my son's tiny fragile body. From his dark hair, to his cute nose, tiny feet and even his fingernails. Everything about my son was perfect. I did look at his face more than anything he wasn't like me his face was smooth, no scare on his perfect face, he wiggled a little and started to fuss alittle.

"Shhh little one" I whisper Funny, I had just met him less than a few minutes ago, and already I knew in an instant without thought that I would give up everything I had, including my life, for my son. That was the truest statement I'd thought in a long time. I gently rubbed Matthias's forehead and his soft, full cheeks. I lightly tapped his nose and then I bent down to kiss him. He then surprised me suddenly waking, staring up at me. He gave a small yawn and continued to stare. He had colorless eyes like mine. We stared at each other for a few short minutes when I heard Christine move in the bed and I looked at her then started to move closer to the bed.

"Erik" Christine whispered.