I OWN NOTHING!
LJ
He's gone.
He's gone.
I am empty without him and he's gone…
This is all that Katherine Castle could fathom as she sat silently on the floor in front of the coach while a forensics team and a bunch of uniforms invaded her home. But it didn't matter to her, she felt so useless it had been almost two hours since she had discovered that her reason for existing had vanished and she was not coping.
A helpless Ryan slowly approached his boss as she practically fell into a coma in the middle of her living room.
"Beckett?" he asked quietly so as not to frighten her, but he received no response, "Becks? Can you talk to me? I need to know what happened. Please come on, castle needs you right now."
At the mention of her husband's name her eyes immediately shifted to his. She hadn't really been listening to what he was saying. But he was right. Her husband needed her to bring him back home, no matter how much pain she was in, she needed to pull herself together.
"I'm sorry Ryan, your right." Ryan gave her a soft smile and gently helped her up from her foetal position on the floor. Then guiding her to a chair at the dining room table and taking the chair next to her. Just as they sat down, Esposito comes up behind Ryan and is shocked by the state of his boss. However the silent look from Ryan tells him not to say anything, apart from finding Castle.
"Hey Beckett? CSU have finished their initial sweep. The door wasn't broken into and there are no finger prints or any DNA apart from castles. Can you tell me what happened?"
Beckett knew that she should answer Esposito and she was trying she really was but it all just became too much. More tears started to leak from her eyes, and her whole body started to convulse with fever.
She eventually managed to get out, "I came downstairs when you wanted to talk to Castle, I found the door wide open and him not here." She choked out the last part, her chest was aching. She had not felt this kind of pain since her mother died and now everything was just flooding back.
"Can you tell me how long you think he could have been missing?"
"Um, it could be anywhere from an hour to five. I was asleep, I thought he was too. I just don't know. I'm so sorry." And with that she broke down and ran from the room.
Beckett ran up the stairs and into their bedroom. She threw herself on the bed and buried herself deep within the covers as the tears kept flowing soaking the sheets.
Every part of her body was in deep, immense pain. Her heart was tearing on the inside and she was on the verge of hyperventilating. Suddenly she found herself needing to smell him, touch him, and hear him. She knew some of those wishes couldn't come true but she could try. Kate through the covers off herself and dashed into the walk in closet; by-passing her own clothes and heading straight for his. She found a button down shirt he had been wearing the day before and a pair of well-worn tracksuit bottoms. Kate tore off her own clothes and pulled herself into her husbands.
Immediately she was surrounded by him. It wasn't even close enough to what she really wanted, but it was something. For the first time in hours she finally felt a sense of home and calm.
Kate then steadily made her way back to the bed, turning and facing where her husband would usually lie. Trying the best she could to imagine him there with her. Kate opened her eyes as the silent tears came again.
Kate stared straight ahead, almost in a day dream. Trying to picture his baby blue eyes and bright smile gazing back at her.
Kate was however distracted by a piercing gleam of light. Like the reflection of a watch face in the sunlight.
That's when she saw it. On the ground, lying on the carpet next to Rick's beside table lay the object that was creating such light, due to the sun light streaming through the window.
His wedding band.
Kate pushed herself from the bed and leaped over to snatch up the ring.
She couldn't understand it. He never took this off.
Even when she had to take hers off every day for work. He never took his off. NEVER!
It always made her feel guilty in a way, she had to take hers off but he never did. But he would always console her by saying,
"You do wear your ring; you wear in over your heart. And it means just as much to me when it's around your neck, as when it does when it's around your finger."
Even when the boys once questioned him on why he wore a wedding ring, he claimed that it had belonged to the woman he fell in love with many years ago and he would never part with it.
Even though the boys assumed it was his ex-wife and that un-nerved Kate a bit. She couldn't help but smile when he said these things. Knowing she was the only woman he has ever truly fallen in love with.
Kate was brought from her daze by the door flying open. And a young distraught castle standing in the door way.
Alexis through herself onto the bed and into Kate's arms, already sobbing.
Kate was still in shock from what she had just found; and was even more startled by the abrupt arrival of Alexis.
Before she had time to properly react, the young scared girl spoke up,
"Mum? Where is my Dad?"
Kate opened her mouth to respond, but nothing came out.
For the first time in her life, Kate Castle just did not know.
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