-Flashback-

I couldn't take it anymore! "What do you see in him?!" I angrily asked Haruhi.

Tamaki glared at me, Haruhi looking at him. Tamaki was about to say something but Brooke beat him to it.

"I love him him because he's sweet, nice, a crybaby, he puts his family before anything, he's also an idiot but that's what I love about him." After Haruhi said that Tamaki smiled down at her and she smiled back at him.

I growled, "I'm an idiot to, and most of those things, but you still picked him over me?! I've done everything for you!" After saying that I noticed I was crying.

Haruhi looked at me with sorrow in her eyes, which only made me even more angry.

"Hikaru I'm sorry, but I don't like you that way, and you also told me that you were over me when I told you I told you I love Tamaki."

"What did you want me to say, 'Oh Haruhi I will always be in love with you, and every time I see you two together it'll feel like taking a bullet to the chest!' Yah cause that would've gone well!" After I said that Haruhi glared at me.

"You were the person who told me to confess to him, and helped Kyouya, Honey senpai, Kaoru, Mori senpai, and me help get Tamaki to see his mother again before she left back to France."

"And every day I regret doing that," I admitted. "I wish I never told you to do that, so that you and Tamaki wouldn't be together." After I said that I covered my mouth. I couldn't believe I just admitted that.

I saw Haruhi on the brink of tears; she hugged Tamaki and starts to cry softly into his chest, Tamaki glaring at me.

I lost control of my words again. "Now you're crying, for what? That I don't accept your freakin relationship? You know how many times I've cried about you? How about at the end of the year party where you said you won't go out with me, not even for a try to see if you liked it. How about the time at the airport and you and Tamaki were talking to his mom at the airport and you confessed to him, and how about every freakin time I realize you are with him and you didn't even give me a chance. You're such a freakin bitch!" Again after I said that I covered my mouth. What did I just do?

Tamaki glared at me and Haruhi was crying even harder.

"Haruhi I…." I tried to say.

"Don't you think you've said this enough Hikaru, you already made her cry, just go!" Tamaki yelled at me.

I looked at Haruhi and started to cry again, my bangs covered my eyes. "I'm sorry,"

After I said that I quickly ran down the hall of our school. I went to the nurses' office and said I didn't feel good, so she called my mom and I went home. When I got home I ran up to Kaoru's and my room. When I went into the room I slammed the door, threw my satchel off, and my tie from my uniform and I flopped onto my bed and cried. I cried for a couple hours until I fell asleep. When I woke up it was night time. I saw Kaoru asleep in his bed, I remember that I was still I my uniform so I get out of bed and got some clothes then went into the bathroom to change. When I came out of the bathroom after changing I looked at the clock, 1:30a.m. I've slept for more than thirteen hours, my stomach interrupted my thought. Well I'm not surprised, I've haven't eatin since yesterday morning. I quietly walked out of our room and went downstairs to the kitchen. I opened the fridge and saw that there was leftover spaghetti, my favorite, just not when it's cold, and heated it up again; my stomach didn't care either way. I grabbed the spaghetti out of the fridge and put in the microwave to cook. While cooking I let my eyes wander around the kitchen. Seeing the oven, stove, coffee maker, and then I spotted the knives, my eyes stopped wondering, just looking at the knives. I walked over to then; I pulled one of the big knives out from the holder. I stared at my reflection in the knife, I felt like I was in a trance. The trance broke when the microwave went off. I put the knife back into its holder, what the hell was I going to do? I walked to the microwave and took out my food. Then I went to get a fork and some parmesan cheese. I sat down at our dinner table and started eating. My eyes kept drifting to the knives, especially the big knife. I tried to look at something else, but my eyes just kept wandering back. After I was done eating I put my plate in the sink. Again my eyes kept wandering back to the knives. Then I thought of something, 'No a knife would mean I have to get close to him, he'll know something's up.'... "What?!" I panicked, "Why did I just think that? I think I might still just tired." I put my hand on my head, yah I was just tired, even though I don't feel tired. What the hell is wrong with me?

"I'll go for a walk, that'll clear my mind." I said to myself.

I grabbed my coat from the closet, put my shoes on, and opened the door. It was really cold, good thing I had my sweat pants on also. I went outside and closed the door behind me. I started walking, letting my legs take me where to go. I walked for maybe an hour when I saw something glaring from the street light, it must of been metal. Tempted, I walked over to it; I was shocked at what I found a black and blue gun on the ground in front of me. I looked at it for awhile, not knowing if I should pick it up. I looked at it some more then I finally picked it up. The gun was a lot heavier than it looked the cold metal in my hands. I checked if there were any bullets, the gun was loaded. I pointed the gun and shot it….. Nothing, the safety was on, did I learn nothing about the safety from The Walking Dead. I turned the safety off and tried again. I didn't expect the force that came after I shot the gun. I quickly dropped the gun and held my wrist hissing in pain. When the pain dialed down I picked up the gun again, aimed it at a can, shot it, and I hit it. Looking in amazement at what I just did, I looked at the gun again. 'I could use this on him.' a smirk comes to my face. After I thought that the smirk disappeared from my face and I quickly dropped the gun again.

"What the hell, why did I just think that?! I panicked.

I calmed down and looked down at the gun, and picked it up.

"Just for protection, nothing bad, just protection." I put the gun in my pocket and started to walk home.

Got another chapter yay, I hope you like it, I gotta warn you Hikaru starts to go a bit crazy in the next part, but you got to wait to see what he does. ;)