Chapter Six, (How Ally Feels)
A/N Hey Everybody, so this chapter is for all of my followers and reviewers! It means a lot-It REALLY does! I read every one! This chapter has SUGGESTIVE CONTENT about death and grief. If you can't handle it, I suggest you skip it, which is basically the whole chapter! But I worked on this chapter for 2 days so I hope you like it! It would really be appreciated if you reviewed! Please? Also I need 6+ reviews to post the next chapter! I'm sure we can do it! I believe in you!
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Ally's P.O.V
I wake up feeling a pain in my arm, and all around me I hear, "Beep, beep,beep". That's weird I thought, cause it's Dez who's in the hospital. But here I am, in a sickeningly white room, laying in a uncomfortable hospital bed, and I notice I'm hooked up to many machines. Then I remember the doctor saying,"He's gone". I begin to cry and yell really loudly. I am thrashing around in my bed (as best as I can, stupid I.V) and screaming my lungs out. By now, I'm basically throwing a full tantrum like an angry toddler! Just then, the nurses come rushing in, and they witness the horrific,psychotic patient before them. They hear me screaming, "It's not fair! It should've been me! Why, Dez? Why? Why did you leave me! I need you! You didn't deserve this,it's all my fault!". Then I feel a sharp pain in my arm again, and I am soon overcome by this feeling of serenity. I feel my eye lids start to slowly droop, and soon I am fast asleep.
Dr. Feltghan's P.O.V
I order the nurse to contact any living relative of Ally Dawson. She soon returns and tells me that Ally does in fact have a few living relatives, close-by. I give her permission to go ahead and inform them of their daughter's current condition. (TIME SKIP: 1 HOUR) "Hello, Mr. and Mrs. Dawson. I'm sorry to inform you of such terrible news. Next thing I know, a middle-aged man is grabbing me by my shirt collar, and yelling at me. He says,"She's dead! She is, isn't she! Oh, why you good-for-nothing "doctor"! You should have your credentials taken away! You could've saved her! You didn't do everything you could've! I know how you doctors are! You don't care for the patient's well-being! All you care about is your money!". Then all of a sudden, the same man is crying on my shoulder and exclaiming his sadness. Then I hear a lady, maybe in her mid-40's, presumably his wife,try to talk some sense into him. She says, "Honey, don't you think we should let the man talk? Maybe he'll tell us what's wrong with Ally." I hear him reply that maybe that would work. Then out of nowhere, a huge boy approaches me, and demands I tell him what's wrong with his little sister. He picks me up to where I'm not touching the ground anymore and he says,"Ok cut the bull. You better tell me right now what's wrong with my little sister, you no-good son of a- llama" "Who do you think you are, makin a grieving family wait to hear the news of their beloved family member?". I quickly say that if he returns me to the ground that I'd gladly tell them what's wrong. He sets me down and I begin to deliver the bad news. I tell them that yesterday, Ally came in with her friend Dez. He had been cutting himself when Ally found him and called for help. She stayed here at the hospital and waited for him. Then when she was able to visit him, she was there when he died. After I pronounced him dead; she just collapsed on the floor and didn't wake up till this morning. Upon her awakening, she started screaming and thrashing about wildly. I presume she remembered what happened, and that had a negative impact on her. She wouldn't stop screaming and we were afraid she was becoming a danger to herself; so I ordered the nurses to give her an injection to calm her down. She was yelling how this was all her fault, and that it should've been her and since I don't know the circumstances, I presumed she was hallucinating. Then I noticed their faces had gone pale, and they had a very somber expression. Sensing the tension in the air, I politely excused myself to go check on my other patients.
Ally's Family's P.O.V
"I can't believe this","I knew she was deeply affected by what happened to Trish and Austin, but now this. I know how much she depended on Austin and Dez to be there for her. They were really important to her" Adam said. "My poor baby, she's had to face this all by herself" Penny says. "Let's go see her" Lester says.
Ally's P.O.V
"I wake up, but I feel groggy and I can't move. I look down and my wrists are strapped to my bed. I think, "What the heck?". I try to wriggle free from my restraints, but to no avail. I wonder why I'm strapped to my bed. Soon, a nurse walks in and offers me some water and some medication. I swallow it, and my grogginess starts to fade away and then I am fully awake. I try to politely ask Nurse Tinny why I'm restrained to my bed, and she just gives me a small, sympathetic smile and then she exits the room. *Ugh, this is why I hate any kind of medical "professional"! They don't try to help you! They give you the most minimal amount of care possible for a sky-high price and they don't tell you a darn thing!* I am mentally ranting, when I hear my door open. I then proceed to say, "Ah, I see your back. Did you decide to tell me why I'm actually restrained?". But as I turn to look at Nurse Tinny, I only see the people who I didn't want to see at all right now. My Mom,Dad, and brother. I start to panic, and I frantically start to push the button that calls the nurses for help! Basically, my life did depend on it! Nurse Tinny and a few others rush in, and immediately start tending to me. I am just babbling like a baby, breaking out in a sweat, and my eyes are dilating. Soon, the stress becomes overbearing and I pass out. Again.
Ally's Family's P.O.V
"I can't believe this", my brother said! "We postpone our day to come see the little brat, and yet she just passes out on us!" he continues. Penny suggests that she's just got overstressed about everything that happening. Lester says, "Adam does have a point dear. I did close the store and you stopped writing on your new book". Penny agrees, but for her only daughter;she believes it's worth it. A few hours later, they receive news that Ally has woken up again and requests to speak with them.
Ally's P.O.V
Once I wake up for like the third time, I decide I have to tell my family how I feel. "Mom,Dad,Adam?" I try to get their attention. Then I begin my horrible story about how I feel. "You guys, I think I need help. I mean I seem like I'm okay, but on the inside I'm not. I feel broken and depressed all the time. I try to put on a brave front, but it's all a facade." "I try to act like everything's alright, but honestly I am not sure anymore". "Sometimes I think of killing myself just to end this suffering. Besides I know I'm causing y'all pain and I don't want that." I feel like you would be better off without me, but I don't know. I also get bullied at school because they know what happened, and it just makes me wanna die. I've really thought about trying, but the only think stopping me is my stubborn belief of something better. I want things to get better, but nothing in my life is ever good so why should I bother trying to live?" " It's not like I'm ever gonna make a difference in the world, so I might as well not be a waste of space!" I say. I'm cut off by my mom engulfing me in a hug and sternly saying, "Alison Grace Dawson! /emDon't say such things! We love you and we would never think that about you! So I don't want to hear such nonsense!". I then start crying, wondering how I could be so stupid as to believe what the kids said at school was true. I should've known better. But now I feel slightly better. My family leaves for home, saying they'll see me on visiting day. I wave goodbye and I'm like, "Wait, What? Visiting day? I'm supposed to be going home!" But I get no answer in response.
Dr. Feltghan's P.O.V
I make my way to room # 247 to check on Ally. She sure has given us quite the scare, with her passing out so much. But now, I wonder how's she's going to react to what I'm gonna tell her next. I knock and open her door, stepping in but making sure her restraints are still in place. Once I feel they are secure, I say "Ally, I have some more news." "Your family has decided to leave you in the care of one our hospital facilities." "You're staying in the psychiatric ward" I tell her.
A/N Yes I do know that Adam's outlook changes, but when you're in a hospital for a long time without any news you get kind restless... But please review and leave questions! I love to answer them! Best Regards, I.O.M.H.I.L