Chapter Ten, (Funeral Hurtful Things)

A/N So this is long-awaited ch. 10! I hope it can live up to your expectations. I lost some people who were very important to me, but I wasn't allowed to go to the funeral so I never got closure. I decided to let Ally have "closure" because y'all might be getting tired of all these bad things happening. Enjoy! :)

Disclaimer: I do not own Austin and Ally. Only the plot!

Ally's P.O.V

We had been back in Miami for almost two weeks and I was attempting to get my life to return to "normal". I had the hard task of planning my parent's funeral, and I had absolutely no help at all from Adam because he was still ignoring me. I was extremely stressed and really emotional and the only people that could be there for me was Samantha. We had never planned a funeral before, so we were a little overwhelmed at all the preparations and all the choices. I decided to go with a bigger casket so that my Mom and Dad could be together eternally, and they would also be holding hands. "Till Death Do Us Part" doesn't apply at this time.

The casket is a dark,mahogany color, with silver chrome surrounding the edges. I decided for graveside violinists and a pianist because my Mom loved music so much and Daddy loved instruments. I have selected a bouquet of pink and white roses to be sat atop the casket before it's lowered into the ground. The pink is for my mother because it symbolizes her grace, charm, and elegance. She always tried to teach me and raise me right and I think she deserves the beautiful flowers. The white is a symbol of remembrance for her and Daddy, and all the good times we had and for the memories we share. It might've not been the easiest dealing with their highly emotional daughter through the years, but they still loved me. I know that in my heart for sure. At their funeral the songs "I'll Wait for You" and "If You Get There Before I Do Love,Me" will be playing. It may not directly relate to them but it talks about some important points I want people to remember. As I finish making all the necessary arrangements for the funeral, I think about how I haven't heard from Adam during any of this. You would think he would want to help plan his own parent's funeral, but I guess he's afraid if he does, that I'll have to plan his too. I've tried calling him, but he won't answer his phone, and I have no idea where he's staying! I am emotionally exhausted from having to deal with the difficult funeral plans and I decide I need to go home and try to relax. *Time Skip*

It is finally the day of the funeral, and let's just say, I'm not looking forward to it. I didn't think I would be making my parent's funeral arrangements until way farther down the road, but we never know what's going to occur. It's gonna be a small funeral, just me, Adam, Uncle Carl & Aunt Janine,Grandma & Grandpa( mother's side), Aunt Sally, Uncle Bill, Jeremy,Lilac, and Kelli, and I invited Samantha just out of respect. Once everyone arrived the funeral commenced. It was my turn to speak since I was giving the eulogy, so I stood up and made my way to the podium. I begin to read my eulogy at my deceased parent's funeral and my voice has a slight tremble as I start to speak. "Good afternoon, everyone. I appreciate all of you coming and paying your respects to my beloved parents. I look over to my left and I see Adam sitting next to Grandpa in the first row, but he won't look at me. Throughout my life I have experienced many tragedies, and through it all my parents have supported me and tried to help. I haven't been the easiest daughter to raise but I truly appreciate them being there for me. Now my mother was a special person. She was a rare person in this world because she always saw good even in the worst of people. If she could, she would always try to help and she never was mean to anyone. She taught me many valuable lessons in life,which have helped form me into the person I am today. Now for my father, he was such an amazing dad. He was always there for me but he wasn't afraid to be stern to teach me what was right and what was wrong. He has also impacted my life and changed me for the better. I love them both so much and it's a shame they died before I could be a better daughter for them. As Elisabeth Kubler-Ross has said,"Watching a peaceful death of a human being reminds us of a falling star;one of a million lights in a vast sky that flares up for a brief moment only to disappear into the endless night forever". Now my parents definitely did not die in a peaceful way, but this quote reminds me that my parents were two bright stars in the sky among millions of other people, but they stood out. They made a difference. Then Poof! They're gone and lost forever to what we have yet to experience. I look out in the audience and almost everyone is crying, and I realize I have to wipe my eyes too. Just remember to treasure the people in your life because you never know when they'll be taken away forever. Thank You. I step off the podium and return to my seat, and wait until the ceremony concludes.

I step off the podium and return to my seat, and wait until the ceremony concludes. When it comes time, I get up and begin to hand out the roses from the top of the casket. I learned from the Funeral Director that people either keep them or place them on the mound. After we say our final goodbyes and we do what we want with our roses, the funeral ends. I see my Aunt Sally and my cousins come over to me and they give me their condolences. I try to make my way over to my brother, but I'm stopped when I hear, "Ally.". I turn around and I see Uncle Bill, and he embraces me in a hug and he says " Oh sweetie, I'm sorry. I know ya miss them, but It'll get better,I promise.". He then apologizes for having to leave so early but he said there was an emergency at his clinic. As I try to control my emotions I hear a blend of "Sorry for your loss", "Are you okay?", "It'll get easier" and a whole bunch of other false promises. I finally get to my brother and he's finishing his conversation with our grandparents. "Hey, Adam" I say. "I have nothing to say to you" he says agitated. "Adam, please. I don't want to argue with you. Especially not today." I plead. "Don't talk to me Ally. I told you I had nothing to say to you!" He spats. "But please Adam! Just listen to me! Come back! The house is so empty, and I'm all alone." I cry. "NO! YOU KNOW WHAT ALLY? I'M SICK OF YOU! YOU ARE 18 YEARS OLD! CAN'T YOU DEAL WITH YOURSELF!? IT'S NOT MY JOB TO CARE FOR YOU!" He yells. "Adam? Why are you being so mean to me? I didn't do anything to you! But you're my big brother and you're supposed to love and care for me." I desperately scream. "NO ALLY! YOU'RE WRONG! I DON'T LOVE YOU! I DON'T HAVE TO AND I WON'T LOOK AFTER YOU! IT'S TIME YOU HAVE TO FACE THE TRUTH AND GROW UP! ALL OUR LIVES' MOM AND DAD HAVE ALWAY PUT YOU FIRST! I'M OLDER BUT NO! ALL THEIR ATTENTION GOES TO YOU! EVERY TIME YOU LOST SOMEONE WHO WAS "SPECIAL" THEY ALWAYS COMFORTED YOU! DID THEY TRY TO COMFORT ME? NO. IF I WAS HURTING, DID THEY DO SOMETHING? NO. EVERY TIME YOU NEEDED THEM, THEY WERE THERE. BUT WHAT ABOUT ME, ALLY? THERE TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT ME. REMEMBER WHEN YOU WERE SAD AND THEY BROUGHT YOU ICE-CREAM? ANY FLAVOR YOU ANT? WELL I WOULD ASK FOR SOME AND THEY'D YELL AT ME TO GET OUUT! WHAT IF I WANTED SOME? WHAT IF I JUST WANTED SOME DARN ICE-CREAM ALLY? BECAUSE OF YOU, I DIDN'T EXIST! I WASN'T AS IMPORTANT! NO ONE WAS MORE IMPORTANT THAN THEIR "PRECIOUS" DAUGHTER. WELL I'M SICK AND TIRED OF YOU RUINING MY LIFE! I WAS ALWAYS SECOND-BEST AND YOU WERE ALWAYS THE "GOOD-CHILD". THE ONE THEY LOVED. THE ONE THEY WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR. WELL GUESS WHAT,ALLY? THEY DIED BECAUSE OF YOU! THEY WERE SO WORRIED ABOUT YOU, AND ALL THEY CARED ABOUT WAS FINDING YOU. I HATE YOU! I WISH YOU WERE NEVER BORN! LIFE WOULD BE SO MUCH EASIER WITHOUT YOU! IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT. IF YOU HADN'T WENT ALL CRAZY AND ESCAPED THE MENTAL WARD; THEN THEY WOULDN'T HAVE HAD TO SERCH FOR YOU! SO YOU WERE THE CUSE OF OUR PARENT'S DEATHS! ARE YOU HAPPY? ARE YOU HAPPY, ALLY? YOU KILLED OUR PARENTS! IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT! YOU RUIN AND DESTROY EVERY SINGLE THING YOU TOUCH! NO ONE SHOULD EVER GET CLOSE TO YOU BECAUSE YOU'LL JUST DESTROY THEM TOO! SO HAVE FUN TRYING TO LIVE WITH THE FACT THAT OUR PARENTS DIED BECAUSE OF YOU! I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN! DO ME A FAVOR AND STAY AWAY FROM ME FOREVER!" Adam screamed at me until he was red in the face. By that time I was bawling and I didn't understand why Adam was being so mean to me! What did I do? I'd never seen him so angry, but then I took time to reflect and thinking about all those times, when I would be upset and my parent's would bring me ice cream and he would be standing in my doorway and he'd ask for some and all my parents would do is yell at him to get out. Maybe, just maybe he was right. Maybe it was all my fault…..

A/N The songs are by Joe Nichols and Collin Raye! They get all the credit!

Anyway I hope you enjoyed this chapter! I hope I surprised y'all! Please review and tell me what you think!

Best Regards, I.O.M.H.I.L