A/N: Hello! Xena here, and I will try to keep a better upload schedule. I have been putting this one up over on AFf and my tablet on which I do my writing is still broken and I cannot find anyone to fix it... :( Sorry about the end of the last chapter I didn't mean to break anyone's heart, but since I am evil I cannot let you know if that was foreshadowing or not (MUAHAHAHAHA) Without further ado here is chapter four.

It knocked the air right of Kris' chest .

"No." he couldn't say much else. He wasn't thinking much else. He wouldn't let this end like this.

"What do you mean no?" Tao looked at him in shock. "I don't really think it's your choice. This is my room and if I want you to leave you will."

"I don't believe you want me to go," the break in his voice made it apparent this was his last ditch effort.

"Tao, please, I don't want this end, I love you."

Tao clenched his fists and glared at floor as Kris' shoulders started to shake. Kris didn't want to be crying, but he felt broken.

"I don't want you to leave, ever. That won't happen though, you'll eventually have to leave."

"I can keep coming to see you Tao. I'll come back every night and if I can't come I'll call and we can..."

"No, Kris I mean you'll eventually have to leave me." Tao's voice broke and his eyes teared over. Kris stared at him, mouth agape, not understanding.

"This can't last forever." The younger boy's voice was barely a whisper, but it hurt. It hurt both of them in ways neither knew he could hurt.

Kris bowed into his knees and let the sobs shake his body. He didn't know how to fix this. He didn't know how keep Tao, he had never allowed himself to even think about losing him before now.

He felt Tao's hand on his back for a second then the boy stood from the bed. He heard a soft thump followed by a retching noise and looked up to see Tao crouched in front of the trashcan.

He laughed slightly at this. "You never could hold your liquor."

"As I recall you aren't so great yourself mister 'Guys I'm a dragon, no, guys I can FUCKING FLY!'" Tao laughed back.

And like that the tension broke, with tears still in their eyes both boys laughed. Kris walked over and sat next to Tao by the trashcan, kissing him on the forehead. Tao leaned his head onto the Hyung's chest and laughed.

"My head feels awful."

"Your breath smells awful."

"Oh come one, don't you want a kiss," Tao strained his head upward and Kris tried to pull away until his head hit the wall. He stuck out his arm and placed his palm over Tao's face.

"Not until you brush your teeth."

"I already did," Tao giggles at his own childishness.

"Again," Kris pushes Tao's head back slightly.

Tao stood and went to exit the room, he stopped in the doorway and turned to Kris. He pouted out his bottom lip.

"Are you coming Hyung?" Kris shook his head "But gege ghosts!" Tao stomped his foot and play shivered.

"Fine." Kris said standing and following behind Tao.

Kris leaned against the counter watching Tao as he brushed his teeth. When he was done Kris leaned down and kissed him.

Tao put one hand on the back of Kris' neck and deepened the kiss before stepping away.

Kris made a small mmm noise and wrapped both arms around Tao pulling him close. He leaned his head down on top of Tao's, who had almost caught up to Kris during his growth spurt but not quite, and inhaled.

He had missed Tao so much, his panda, his world. He planted a kiss right on the crown of his head and with his lips still in his hair mumbled "I love you so much."

"I love you too oppa."