A/N: Thank you, thank you for all the reviews and feedback! It's much appreciated! Here's the new update! Just a reminder that the story is titled Secrets AND Lies so this chapter will be focusing on what lies the team will tell. Enjoy!
The next morning…
When Kate woke up, she had momentarily forgotten Rossi's warning the night before. Her mind, still groggy from sleep, had yet to remember the fact the BAU could be disbanded at any moment because of their fraternization.
As soon as the memory hit her conscious, Kate groaned. She glanced over at JJ, her tentmate, happy the blonde was still sleeping and unaware of the turmoil the team would soon be under.
Kate nor Rossi hadn't the heart to tell anyone yet. After JJ and Reid's announcement, the team had all spent the evening celebrating and talking with the couple. Everyone was elated. "A new addition to the team!" Penelope had squealed time and time again. "We'll have a mini genius in our midst!"
The memory was enough to start Kate's anxiety again. How could anyone want to intrude on such a happy occasion, superior or not? Their other co-workers would find out about JJ and Reid soon, but they would be supportive. It was the main leader that would not be pleased. Most of them already knew about Morgan and Garcia, as they weren't the best at keeping secrets and the team was on thin ice as a result.
Would the higher ups have to know about her and Aaron though? They were both just lonely and available last night. It wasn't like Aaron had feelings for her beyond just friendship. He was her boss, for pete's sake. That would definitely not go over well at all.
Kate, not wanting to wake JJ, awkwardly climbed out of the tent and sat by the fire, staring at the burned remains of firewood from the night before. She was surprised no one else was up. Then again, they had all stayed up extremely late talking with JJ and Reid. Even the boys were up until midnight when Hotch finally forced them into their sleeping bags.
She hadn't noticed Aaron climbing out of his tent. He had been tossing and turning for hours, as he knew something was up with Kate. It was almost as if she was ignoring him. Kate had been careful to position herself wherever he wasn't, and she cut all the conversations between them short. Hotch had no idea what was going on.
She probably regretted the kiss, he realized. He looked over at Reid, who slept on the other side of the tent in the oddest position possible. Finally, after listening to him breathe for a couple of minutes, Hotch headed out into the morning air. He wasn't going to clear his head at this rate and needed to take a walk or something.
There she was.
Kate sat by the fire, seeming almost entranced by it. Not knowing if his approach would be welcomed or not, Hotch stood by his tent, wary of the burnette. Even after JJ and Reid's big announcement the night before, things were a little tense between them. Hotch hadn't the foggiest as to why though.
"Hello," he finally said. Then, clearing his throat: "Good morning."
Kate whirled around. She hadn't heard him coming. "Hi Hotch."
Not knowing what else to do, he sat beside her. He hadn't the slightest on what to say, but knew that they needed to talk. Something was bothering Kate.
"Kate," he began. "Is something wrong? You seem... distant."
She wouldn't look at him. "I just don't want what happened last night to happen again. It was wrong."
Aaron was surprised. He hadn't been expecting this from her at all. Then again, what was he expecting her to say? That she loved him? That she had moved on from Chris and was ready to be with someone else? All of it was highly unlikely to cross her lips.
A thousand questions began running through his head. Did she not feel the same way he did? Was the electric current that seemed to be flowing in the short space between them just a figment of his imagination?
"Wh-what?" he sputtered. "It was wrong for us to act on our true intentions?"
"Of course not," Kate said, trying to clarify. "But we shouldn't be acting this way. Fraternization is against the rules."
" We shouldn't have to lie to ourselves about how we feel," Hotch pointed out. "That isn't right either."
He tried to take her hands into his, but she wouldn't let him. She still wouldn't look him in the eye. "I just...I don't feel that way for you. Last night shouldn't have happened, and this is the last time I want to speak of it."
Kate stood up before he could react. She walked away, fist over her mouth, trying her hardest not to cry or turn around. She could hardly believe her own words. It's for the team, she reminded herself. It's for JJ and Reid and their family. The dragon lady won't be as hard on them without another couple to piss her off more. Maybe this will save us.
Kate crawled back inside, trying to wipe the tears away discreetly. JJ had woken in her absence, and she studied the brunette carefully. Was she crying?
Finally, gently, JJ asked: "Kate, what's wrong?"
In response, Kate simply laid her head on JJ's shoulder, not sure how to break the news to her that the team was possibly doomed.
Derek and Penelope were on the other side of camp, snuggled into their sleeping bags, not wanting to get up for anything. They could hear the others up and talking, but their voices were too muffled to tell what they saying.
Finally, glancing over at his favorite tech, Derek said: "Penelope Garcia, I know you're awake. Your eyelids are fluttering around like crazy."
"Let me sleep, man thunder," Penelope whined, burrowing her face under a blanket. "You know I hate mornings."
It was true. Penelope, despite her bubbly behavior, absolutely despised being awake before noon. She could hardly stand Derek's morning demeanor. Why would anyone like waking up at six just to watch the sunrise and to go on a morning run? It was crazy.
She was so tired her mind could barely formulate sentences to flirt. "Man thunder?" Derek said laughing. "That's a new one. Is someone too sleepy to talk?"
"I'm tired," she said, her face scrunching up adorably. "Let me sleep."
Penelope always pretended to be asleep in the mornings. She said it was because she wasn't in the mood to carry on conversation, and would rather stay on the brink of being awake and asleep instead of having to wake up and function. She thought she was fooling him, but he could always tell when she was up. Usually he let her sleep, but Derek was bored.
"C'mon Baby Girl," he said and jostled her shoulder. "We'll only have a little time alone today. We're heading back to Quantico in a bit, and you know that Hotch won't let us be alone for a second after what happened yesterday."
Finally, giving up on falling back into dreamland, Penelope sat up and stretched. "Fine. You win." She reached for her glasses, a purple pair, and turned to face him. "You rang?"
He snickered. "I just wanted to talk to you while it's just the two of us. We'll have to be censored later with Jack and Henry around."
"True," she said, giggling, as Derek trailed kisses down her neck. He tried to push her back onto the sleeping bag, but she resisted. "We aren't doing it in this tent. I'm pretty sure if Hotch catches us, he'll probably faint this time."
Derek pulled back and suppressed a groan, not wanting to start something they couldn't finish either. He couldn't wait to get back to Quantico and have Penelope all to his self.
Trying to think of a safe conversation topic, he said: "I still can't believe JJ and Reid are having a baby," He ran a hand over his head. "I knew they were dating, but I didn't expect this at all."
"Well, it is a possibility when you have sex," Penelope said. "Remember middle school health class?" Then, she added darkly: "It can happen to anyone."
"Of course I do," he said, not picking up on her humor. "It's JJ and Reid who must not. I'm not the one who got you pregnant."
Penelope only snickered. "I'm happy for them. Especially Reid. He got his dream girl and a family. Two for the price of one."
"Well, I have my dream girl too and I couldn't be happier."
"You wouldn't want some kids too?" she asked playfully, even though the topic was important to her. "Is someone not ready to play daddy quite yet?"
"It's not for me," he said. "I get enough parenting experience with Jack and Henry. That and my sister's kids. Besides, I like what we have, and I don't want to complicate things."
Penelope thought her heart exploded right then. It certainly felt like it. "Yeah," she said. "That would be crazy. You, me, and a baby? We're much too wild and unpracticed for something like that."
Derek kissed her cheek. "Glad you see it my way," he said. "I'm going to get breakfast and see who's up. Do you want anything?"
"No," she said. "I'll be out in a minute."
Derek headed out, and Penelope could hear him talking with Hotch. Apparently their boss was upset about something too. She just didn't know what that something was.
How could Derek not want kids? They were uber adorable and sweet. Her two nephews had made her swoon numerous times in the last day, just by being their cute selves. How could Derek not fall in love with them? They were precious.
Suddenly a realization dawned on her. If she stayed with Derek, she wouldn't be able to have kids of her own either. She'd have to give up the prospect of being a mother someday. She wasn't sure if she wanted to do that.
Maybe Penelope's future wasn't with Derek Morgan after all, she realized. Maybe her life was elsewhere after all.
When Derek walked over to Hotch and Reid, who seemed to be the only others awake, he could tell something was amiss. Hoping he wasn't in trouble again, he asked: "What's going on?"
Hotch didn't even answer. He walked off quickly, as if being with the two men at once was something he couldn't bear. Derek looked at Reid quizzically.
"He's having problems," Reid explained. "In the, ah, love department."
"Really?" Derek asked. "I thought things were going great with him and Beth."
"Apparently not," the genius replied. "They broke up months ago. Hotch just didn't want to talk about it with anyone."
Derek raised an eyebrow. "So he can't get another girl?"
"No," he answered. "He did. The lady just didn't reciprocate his feelings, I guess. I'm not sure. He didn't tell, so I didn't ask."
Derek let that information sink in, watching his boss walk down to the lake. "Poor Hotch," he said. "I'm sure he can work things out with the woman. If not, there's plenty of fish in the sea."
They were quiet for a minute, as Jack and Henry were stumbling out of their tent, their hair practically in mohawks from sleep. "Your dad's right there by the lake," Reid said pointing. "If you want, he can walk you two to the bathroom."
They both nodded, heading off in the direction that Reid had pointed. Once they were gone, he turned back to Derek, who seemed completely distracted. He kept glancing back at his tent with Penelope.
"You look upset too," Reid said. "Is everything okay with you and Penelope?"
"Of course," he said. "Everything's perfect." Then: "At least I hope it will be."
"What do you mean?" Reid asked, his brow furrowing. Apparently everyone would be telling him their problems this morning.
"I lied to her," Derek said, barely above a whisper. "She put me on the spot, and I didn't know what to do. So I lied. I just...I didn't want her to know how I really felt."
"Why did you lie to her?" Reid asked. "What was so wrong with the truth?"
"Because sometimes Penelope terrifies the shit out of me," Derek replied honestly. "Especially when she talks about the future.
A/N: Hope you guys liked! Don't forget to review. I'll try to update as soon as I'm able. Also, I'm planning on two more chapters after this.
