Note/Warning: Tcest (RxD, LxM], Rock band stuff, OOC-ness, bad language, tragic stuff, mature stuff, music will vary on degrees

Inspired from AmorTortuga's Time To Pretend fanfic in DA!

The one with the ITALICS are Raph's flashbacks or can be called as memory triggers. I see a lot of fanfics regarding amnesia that the one who had memory loss is the one who had triggers, I made it the opposite since it adds effect because of Raph's guilt and conscience.

The one with BOLD are the text messages. I'll put an indicator next chapter. But you'll probably know who are the ones texting in this one.

The one with (" ") is usually Raph's thoughts.

"Thank you for accompanying me." Donnie said. Raph just realized how cute Donnie's eyes are when they sparkle at night.

"It's no problem. Besides, my bike is there too." He answered.

"Are you alright now?" Donnie asked, still had concern with the fiasco earlier. "Are you feeling better?"

("If you meant by shock, confusion and frustration all bottled up because you're here is categorized as fine, yes it is, Donnie.")

"Y-Yeah… Thanks…" He said. "You know, you're a great bassist. I really hope I should've told that someone the same."

"Thank you… And I'm sorry to hear that…" He said with sympathy. "What does that someone looks like?"

Raph looked at him. This is awkward. He looked down after. "He is the most beautiful. His eyes… Are like jewels. He had this cute smile…" He trailed off, giving too much information. Donnie just giggled. See? Like that. That's the cute thing he is talking about.

"I can tell you're a sweet person." He shyly said."So, what you think of my band?"

Raph smiled. "I had a lot of potential, not because Mikey was there. It's because it had talented people and just enjoying making music." He explained. These past years, he didn't enjoyed making music. It had made him realized that Don was the fuel of the band before; to keep it going, despite he had issues with Raph. It caused him to have the known as "inspiration".

"Uhh… I'm not prying or anything… I thought you lived in the same house as April?" Raph asked. He got to admit, he is feeling a little jealous about it and angry for being lied as well.

"Well, she is my guardian but that doesn't mean I have to be dependent." He giggled. "I want to have freedom."

Raph just nodded. He never gave Don freedom before, might as well let him be now.

It got a little quiet after a few steps.

"You knew about my memory loss right?" He said, stopping from his tracks. It made Raph stopped as well.

"Yeah, she told me." Raph said.

"It's alright. Just please don't treat me like a clueless person. I do know some things in what I'm doing." He chuckled. For some reason, Raph felt… A little scared and pity to him.

"Oh! Sorry, I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable." He said sheepishly. "I do not know about my past. I'm alright to it, really. Yeah, I'm a little curious but it won't affect my actions here in the present."

("Believe me, if you knew, you will kill me.")

"I'm glad I'm walking with the famous guitarist. I'm a little star struck and I'm sorry…" He giggled softly.

The past Donatello was like this before. His responses before had made Donnie more withdrawn to him.

"I appreciate that. But…" Raph gulped. "Can we be something else like friends? We do know this won't be the last gig that you're going to be front act on to us…" He could tell Donnie is really surprised and he got more adorable.

"Yes." He smiled sweetly. "I would love to!"

Raphael only smiled. They finally saw his bike now in view.

"I had a great time today." Donnie said. "And thank you very much." Donnie said as he bowed. Raph knew this is always his habit.

Raph got on his bike. "Me too." He said. "Well, I can get you home with my bike." He offered.

"Uhh… No, thank you." Don looked away. "I had fear with motorcycles. I'm sorry and I didn't mean to offend you. I'm just uncomfortable."

Raph just look down. He knew the reason why he is scared of it. Even he took months before he bought a new bike, he drove his car during that period. That accident is why they are here today, of why Donnie lost his memories. He knew the damage that has been done was very great. He didn't know how to get it back to normal.

"Alright. I'll just wait for your taxi." He said. Donnie just nodded.

"I really don't know why I got a sudden dislike to riding motorcycles. All April told me is I had an accident connecting to that."

Considering that April said Donnie didn't remember a thing, Raph knew Don had the right to be aware of what happened or what state he is now. He rarely says this but April saved his butt as she didn't tell Don his role to him before.

"Oh, here's my ride." Don said as a taxi stopped in front of them.

"Bye, I'll see you next time." Donnie said, smiling before getting in.

Raph smiled back and he drove off.

For some reason, he had this protective streak to Donnie now. His body moved on his own, Raph put his helmet on and followed the vehicle.

This can be a purpose to know where Don lived. His bike moved in a slower speed as he intended, for Don not to be aware that he is following him.

Raph is glad Donnie went home safely. He never did this to Don before except for stalking when he needs to gain something. Donnie opened the door to his small house. He is surprised that it's a neat house, probably his own. He put this memory to his brain. Before, Don lived in an apartment. When they got together, Don lived in Raph's house. He still has Don's room there with all of his things still intact. Sometimes, he goes there to feel Donnie's "presence".

He smiled when Donnie is inside the house and he drives off.

He decided that he will use this second chance and make Donnie the happiest nerd.

Raph's phone is blaring loud when he reached his house. It was revealed to be only a text message. Leo and him have a rule to keep their phones' ringtone setting high for emergency or business meetings but it sure it's annoying. He picked it up from his pocket.

It's from an unknown number.

This is April. Donnie said he saw you following his cab until he gets home. I see you learned. Here is Donnie's number.

Raph sees the name card of Donnie with his number.

He got Donnie's number! Without asking!

He removed the keys from his bike. He saved Donnie's number quickly in his phone.

His stomach is growling. That burger just shoots from his stomach faster than he thought.

He wanted to text Donnie yet he didn't know a decent welcome. Then again, why is he thinking simple stuff like this?! He is acting like a freaking school girl.

Hey, Raph here. April gave me your number.

("Yeah, nice move for giving the worst message ever.")

Oh, hi Raph! Thank you earlier. You're really nice.

No problem. You ate dinner?

He is blushing at the words "You're really nice". This vow thing is surely working.

But he felt like an idiot when he asked if Donnie ate.

Some steak with mushroom sauce. Mikey cooked it because he planned a sleepover tonight. What about you?

Well, that's good. Me? Well, I'm trying to find food here.

The only I could do is some basic cooking to teach you. Sorry.

He chuckled. They continued texting, even while cooking and eating. Raph went to bed after a warm shower.

Sorry, took a shower.

It's okay. I'm surprised you're so nice. I heard some things from the fandom that you're rude and ruthless.

Well, I still am… Wait, I had a fandom?

Yup… I was one of the senior ones there… And yeah… But they noticed now you got mellowed and quiet. Is it true you humiliated someone before?

It was one of their gigs where Donnie is now their official bassist. They had an argument before that gig. He remembered it's about April being nosy. Well, he wants to slap himself since he now knew April was his guardian that time.

After the performance, he saw Donnie waving at April and she does the same. He felt extreme anger and jealousy. Donnie still had the use of him and he won't let a best friend interfere to it.

"YOU ARE THE WORST BASSIST EVER!"

He saw Donnie remained passive and on verge to tears. He got humiliated in their freaking concert. It was a shock to Raph's system to say that.

"Come on, Donnie! I'm sorry! Just forgive me!" Raph plead. He was catching up the bassist.

"Leave me alone. Please." He said.

Yeah, it's true. I regretted it. He is special to me and I knew I shouldn't say that.

They never name drop anyone about that. So I don't know much. I'm sorry I asked you questions.

Raph is amused that Donnie is still one of his fans. He still admired him. But he doesn't want it in the same path. This will be different as Raph is the one that should be admiring him.

It's okay. Let's hang out tomorrow in some place after your practice.

I want to go to this place. But… I think it's not your thing.

Hey, I don't mind. I go wherever you want.

Okay, tomorrow noon at the same studio. Thank you. I really apologize. I'm really a big fan.

Raph closed his eyes. The last sentence Donnie said, he used that as an advantage two years ago.

"I want my gear to be set up and inside the trunk. Understand?"

"Of course these lovely ladies can go on my lap. So stop being fussed about it, Donnie boy."

"I'm sick, so I can't pick you up there. Take a fucking cab or something!"

"Like the media said, it's "rumored". Why you're so hyped to this showbiz bullshit? I own you, remember?"

"If you didn't show up, I'm going to break up with you."

Tiny tears fell from his apple green eyes. He screwed up. He fucking screwed it up! He didn't just hurt Donnie. He lived in hell. He can't stand when he had said before yet he felt wrong in many levels when he heard his past self saying that.

No, Donnie. I think I'm your big fan.

Uhm… Excuse me?

I admire your playing and you're adorable.

Raphael smacked himself. He really sounded creepy and desperate. He completely ruined it. He started to type…

Look, I didn't mean it that way

He received a message.

Thank you, Raph.

The red musician smiled warmly. It's slowly mending but it's alright.

For the first time, he didn't play the song in the veranda.

Chapter 5: Crazy Little Thing Called Love by Queen

Woo! Go Raphie! You got Don's number! Also, you had a hang out with him! It's so a DATE Well in the music video the girl gets on the bike. Apparently, it will not happen to Donnie yet. Also, more memories reveals on how jerk Raph was.

YES RAPHIE, YOU HAD A FANDOM.