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Okay yes I took awhile to update, same lame excuse as last chapter.
Anyway without further stalling...HERE'S CHAPTER 5 ^.^
Hikaru's POV
"Oh these…they're a gift, from the person who has claimed me as their own."
Kaoru looked too cute as he said his pre-given line. I saw the small blush Kaoru tried to hide and his smile was surprisingly genuine as he spoke. I had to quell my urge to jump him and ravish him with kisses in front of these annoying fangirls and settled for smiling like a kid on Christmas; happy and full of life.
'I knew Kaoru wouldn't hate saying that as much as he was letting on, though I didn't think he would adjust to it this quickly.'
When I looked back to the stock of fans in front of us, I noticed half of them looked happy and the other kind of pissed off. I didn't care enough to wonder why on either half so I set my attention back on my twin as he began speaking again, "I'm sorry ladies, but I must be getting to class." I saw a bit of disappointment in his eyes when he let my hand go.
Our bond has gotten a whole lot stronger since yesterday so I was able to hear the message Kaoru was sending me through mere eye contact. 'Sorry Hika, but these girls don't seem to be letting up any time soon.' I gave him my response and he took off for class A-1, leaving me with a bunch of emotional fangirls and their leader.
"Hikaru…" Rachel spoke up.
"Um…yes?" I replied slightly nervous
"Do you know anything about this?" They all turned to me at once waiting my answer. 'As if I'd tell them. Kao would kill me…or worse…make me sleep alone.' I shuddered at the thought of such a cruel punishment.
"I'm sorry ladies, but I have to be on my way as well." They all sighed in disappointment. I gave them my best host smile, "But if you come by the host club later this afternoon, we might have a better explanation for you." I winked and began walking toward my class.
'I should've ran off with Kaoru; I don't like being separated from him for too long. He left running so he should already have gotten to class at this point.' I picked up my speed as I realized that Kaoru has probably bumped into Haruhi by now and without me there there's no telling what she'll say to him.
I reached the class and see that my suspicions were correct. I can see Kaoru talking to Haruhi and neither look very happy. I was about to walk in and defuse whatever situation has been made when a thought occurred to me. 'If Haruhi simply interrupts Kaoru with a not-so-nice comeback when I'm around…I wonder how she would act if I'm not around to witness it?' I decide to hang back in the doorway out of sight by both Haruhi and Kaoru.
Haruhi seems to be ranting about something during lunch but Kaoru seems to not be paying her any mind until he snaps out of it and speaks up,
"Fine I'll meet you in the lunch room during lunch. Is that all you wanted?"
'Ah man, I was going to pound my sweet Kaoru into a desk somewhere during lunch.' I sigh in disappointment. By the look on Kaoru's face, he was thinking the same thing.
"One more thing," Haruhi said.
"Yes, what is it?"
"What's that on your neck?!" Haruhi practically yelled obviously trying to embarrass Kaoru by getting the whole class's attention.
I chuckle to myself at her ignorance. 'All she's doing is making things easier on Kaoru by giving him the chance to tell the whole class at once.' I noticed the sly smile growing on Kaoru's face as he seems to have caught on to the usefulness of her big mouth. "
"Oh these…they're a gift, from the person who has claimed me as their own." I smiled seeing that Kaoru kept his word even if I'm not there. Naturally I had complete faith in him that he would, but still…'I don't think I'll ever get tired of hearing him say that.'
As Kaoru began to walk away, I had decided to make my presents known and walk in after him. I stopped when I saw Haruhi grab Kaoru's wrist and noticed him wince slightly in pain. 'His wrists must still hurt from the handcuffs and the tight grip I used on him.' I know I should probably feel bad for being the cause of such horrible bruises, but I just can't bring myself to feel any guilt for something we both thoroughly enjoyed.' Especially, when right now all I felt was anger.
I was about to step in and rip her hand off from Kaoru's arm (and possibly her own) but then thought better of causing a scene in class that would truly embarrass Kao.
Haruhi starts grilling Kaoru about his neck and wrist. 'Like it is any of YOUR damn business!' I inwardly yell at her.
"Don't tell me…you got beat up?" She said with a slight smirk and I have to hold myself back from blowing up in her face for speaking that way to Kaoru. 'I'm not sure how much more of this I can take without doing something I may never regret.'
The only thing keeping me from doing just that was the smile on Kaoru's face. THAT smile. The same smile he flashed me this morning. That smile of pure mischief and evil.
"Well, I guess you could put it that way. But actually…" Kaoru's cheeks flushed and he tilted his head down in a shy expression that made him look completely adorable; but he kept that evil smile on his face which made him look like a hot devil.
I took an unconscious step toward him, ready to tackle him to the ground, drag him to the side of the classroom, and fuck him up the wall for looking so desirable. The sound of Kaoru speaking brought me back down to earth, but what he said next and the soft tone he used did nothing but douse oil to the fire I plan on releasing on him as soon as we're alone.
"I was misbehaving yesterday so Hikaru had to do a punishment game with me in order to teach me a lesson."
Although what he said was more or less true, I'm sure he said that to be a joke and to piss her off; I know what he really meant by that and when it made him smile so beautifully, I could feel my heart skip with joy.
"Kaoru," Haruhi spoke, "you shouldn't make jokes like that outside of the host club. I doubt Hikaru would find them very funny." Haruhi smirked with her hand still attached to my Kaoru.
I heard myself growl possessively at the sight. 'No one should be allowed to touch him without my say so; friend or not!'
"Who said it was a joke Haruhi? In fact, I think he would rather enjoy hearing that from me."
No kidding.
Kaoru looks around the classroom no doubt wondering where I am and seems to have spotted me standing in the doorway. His expression brightens up instantly into a gorgeous smile. However that smile fades when he sees the less-than-happy look on my face. Which to anyone else seem like I'm just bored.
Kaoru tries to pull his arm back for the hundredth time (to no avail) in hopes that I don't see that the cross-dressing commoner has his arm in her clutches.
He looks up at me with soft eyes telling me, 'This is no big deal. I'll handle it like always'
I'll handle it like always
'Like always'….those words….'I'll handle it.'….Those words cut me deep.
Kaoru still thinks I'm going to brush this off as nothing. No. Not anymore. But he doesn't need me exploding with anger either. Right now, I need to show him that he doesn't have to sit back and 'handle this always', because I'm here to defend him.
I take a deep breath and attempt at calming myself. It almost works until Haruhi's next words reached my ears.
"I said stop it! Don't say things that aren't true. Hikaru would never even think about touching someone like you."
I briskly walk towards them until I'm right behind Haruhi. "And if he did, then it probably was a beating because he heard you saying something as disgusting and shameful as that."
'That's It!'
"Haruhi!" I say in a venomous tone. She turns her head around to see me and tries to smile sweetly but I can see the slight fear in her eyes.
"Oh. Hikaru. We were just-", I put a hand up signaling her to stop talking.
"Save it. I heard every word."
Haruhi turns back to Kaoru with a smirk thinking I'm on her side, "Good. Then you can tell him how awful-", I cut her off again.
"And if you don't LET GO of Kaoru's arm and apologize to him for every hurtful thing you've said, I can ashore you that your punishment won't be so pleasurable." They both looked to me with shocked expressions. I could swear I heard Kaoru snicker the tiniest bit.
"W-what? Hikaru didn't you hear what he said?"
"Yes I did. And I also heard what you said Haruhi."
"But then…"
"How dare you speak for me like you know me better than anyone? How dare you say such horrible things to Kaoru as if he's beneath you? And HOW DARE YOU FUCKING TOUCH HIM!" I know I've lost my temper but I can't care right now.
At this, Haruhi immediately releases Kaoru's arm and was now completely facing me. Her eyes showed hurt and anger, but had more or less a straight face.
She begins to speak softly, "But that's just it Hikaru, I do know you. And I know you wouldn't appreciate Kaoru or anyone saying such disgusting things about you." She grabbed for my hand and held it. I could practically feel the waves of anger rolling off Kaoru. His face sure as hell shows it. 'Not to self, Kaoru looks incredibly hot when angry; must remember to piss him off more often.' I pull my gaze from my twin as I look back to Haruhi as she kept talking.
"See, I was defending yo-", I abruptly snatch my hand away, causing Haruhi to trip on her words and Kaoru's face to soften a bit.
"And besides…" She turns a grim look to Kaoru. She looked him up and down with disgust, "…a perverse freak like him…is beneath me." She looked back to me and closed her eyes with a smile, seeming innocent, "he's beneath both of us."
We all stood there in silence for a moment as I tried to process everything she just said.
'Kaoru' I looked to him and he looks like he's ready to cry. I try calling out to him again through our thoughts, 'Kaoru!'
'Yes?' He finally responds
'Is this how she always talks to you when I'm not around?'
'Y-yes…and Hikaru,' tears shine at the edge if his eyes.
'What is it?' I say trying not to sound as angry as I am.
'I…I'll understand…if you agree with her.'
'Are you serious?" I say more hurt than I am shocked that he would actually think that I would even consider choosing her over him.
'Yes.' Kaoru gives me the saddest smile I've ever seen and a single tear falls down his face
THAT! BITCH!
"Well…don't you agree with me?" Haruhi said, breaking the long standing silence outside of our minds.
HOW! DARE! SHE!
"Haruhi." I said taking one step closer to Haruhi so I'm right in front of her.
"Yes Hikaru?" She said as her face flushed.
MAKE MY KAORU, CRY!
I bring my hand up, almost putting it on her shoulder. Haruhi closed her eyes expecting me to lean in. Kaoru turns his head away thinking the same. I pull my hand backwards and bring it down with a rough force.
SMACK! CRASH!
The only thing heard was the sound skin hitting skin and Haruhi slamming into the ground.
I looked down at Haruhi with a cold and blank stare. Not feeling any remorse for having just slapped her; and frankly not giving about the scene I just caused in class in class. She had no right to say those things about Kaoru. And she definitely had no right to touch him! I walked over to where she landed and crouched down next to her. She sat up in a sitting position with a hand rubbing her face in an attempt to hide the hand print becoming more apparent by the second.
"Let's get a few things straight Haruhi." I say in a tone even colder than my stare. "You are a mere commoner here at Ouran, so if anything you are beneath everyone in this school simply going by public status. You are above no one; especially Kaoru. Someone like you can't even compare to someone as heartwarming, beautiful and caring as Kaoru."
I look up to my shocked mirror image and give him a light reassuring smile in hopes that he knows I will always choose him. I can see his face heat up at the notion. 'He is just too cute sometimes.' My smile widens when his blush deepens and he turns his head away in a slightly embarrassing manner that shows he heard my thoughts and trusts my words.
I turn a cold and blank stare back to Haruhi. "Also, you say you supposedly 'know me'..."
"Because I do! Haruhi interrupts.
"What a load of crap!" I bark back at her, "If you really knew me like you claim, you would know that no matter what has happened, Kaoru and his feelings always come first. You would know that I would never tolerate someone using 'defending me' as means to talk down to him!" I took a somewhat calming breath and stood up right. "Now, I will say this once more. Haruhi, apologize to Kaoru for everything you've said and done. NOW!"
Haruhi sat there in silence just staring at me dully and slightly frightened at my sudden outburst, until she finally spoke up. "No." she stood up
"What?" I growled at her in disbelief
"Why should I?" She turned her attention to Kaoru, "Kaoru, you're just an attention hungry user who is way to attached to his twin. You follow him around, go crying to him when you need help, give him weird looks during class, and you even have the decently to let him have his own life, let alone a relationship. You know, I thought that maybe you'd grown up a little when you let him take me on that date last year at Karuizawa but I guess I was wrong. In that time you've only become more obsessed with him and he hasn't had the chance to be with other people because he's too busy making sure you're happy and 'safe'. Haruhi turned her attention back to me, "So no, I'm not sorry, because what I say is true." Haruhi lunged forward, wrapping her arm around my neck and brought her face close to mine. "And the sooner you realize that; the sooner you can be truly happy," she then whispered in a low tone, "with me."
Kaoru's POV
'I think I'm going to be sick.'
I've always loved Hikaru. However it wasn't until just before we entered Ouran I realized how much I loved him. At the time, I was in denial about the whole thing and thought it'd be best to try and distance myself from him.
I started making excuses to sleep in my own room for a while, showering by myself, and even suggesting to Hikaru that he should start thinking about dating girls soon.
The result was a lot of restless nights and an uncomfortable feeling of jealousy by the time Haruhi arrived. I was hoping that if I could get them together; then I could finally face reality and give up on these ridiculous feelings for my twin.
It was starting to seem like a pipe dream when it became obvious that milord had fallen for her. I had given up on the idea until the day came when Haruhi managed to tell us apart, she snuck a wink toward Hikaru's direction. My first instinct was to growl at her but decided against it when I remembered my original plan to make them an item.
I used the whole Arai situation to trick Hikaru (though I'm sure he saw right through the whole 'I'm too sick' thing) into going on a semi-real date with Haruhi. Everything was going fine until I actually saw them together. All the jealousy and sadness I felt at that moment not only made me finally come to terms and accept my true feelings, but it also made me never want to share my twin again.
I moved back into our room, stopped pestering Hikaru about relationships, and clung to him like a leech. It actually wasn't much different than before we got into high school; with the acceptation of Haruhi always being there to try and come between us.
What Haruhi is saying isn't a lie. I purposely clung to Hikaru and tried to isolate him. Every insult, every assumption, and every accusation Haruhi gives are she says to me nearly every day. Her words had long since stopped hurting my feelings because I came to accept them as the truth. In other words, I don't give a damn about what she has to say.
But I never wanted Hikaru to hear any of it. I didn't want him to think less of me if he ever found out. That's why I never told him about the way she has been treating me when he isn't around.
Hikaru's POV
'What the Hell,'
"So no, I'm not sorry because what I say is true."
'Did my slapping her in her face for constantly insulting Kaoru COMPLETELY leave her mind, or is she just trying to piss me off?'
I look over and see Kaoru slightly weeping to himself. It just breaks my heart to see him cry. All I want to do is coddle him in my arms and shower his face with loving kisses and telling him, "Don't cry baby, Hika's here. He made all the bad things go away." Just like when we were kids and he got those nightmares.
I took a step towards Kao in an attempt to do just that; but was stopped by Haruhi throwing her arms around my neck.
"And the sooner you realize that, the sooner you can be happy..." She pulled her face closer to mine whispering, "With me." She then laughed almost darkly, "There's no need to lower yourself." She gestured her head to Kaoru.
'Alright, someone needs to make her pay!'
She pulled our faces closer until our lips almost brush against one another. I stop her and say, "And I won't 'lower' myself."
I lifted my hand to the back of her head and grabbed a fist full of her hair. I forcefully tugged on her brown locks by the roots and yanked her head away from mine.
"Ow! Hey that hurts!" Haruhi yelled out in harsh pain.
"I warned you bitch." I tightened my grip on her hair and made a fist with my free hand, pulling it back slowly as I say, "Now you'll pay for every. Single. WORD!" My hand was in position, ready to come down hard on her face with a force containing all of my anger when a much greater force stopped me...
"Hikaru Stop!"...the sound of Kaoru's pleading voice.
I instantly ceased all movement before I was even able to process the meaning of his words.
"Just...just stop. Please."
To Be Continued...
Well everyone...Please don't hate me but this is the last chapter for awhile. No I'm not giving up on this story, and I can promise that I won't forget about either. I've just lost the will to write this story anymore at the moment. Apparently one of my reader/followers is someone I know who promised me that they wouldn't read this story. I take my promises very seriously and this broke my heart. But don't worry I have someone who is picking up the pieces and eventually I'm sure they'll be able to get me to write again but for now...I just can't.
So, to the 1500 people who have read this...farewell, I'll see you soon.
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