So after more than two years I finally update this story. It will not follow the same storyline as it would have done two years ago, I have changed to much as a person and my heart is no longer in this as it once were. As a whole the plot will be the same, but the changes I have done in my draft are to speed up the story.

Also I will update all chapters directly, which means I will not look for errors, so I am sorry for if there are a lot of faults in the text.

Hopefully you all will enjoy this update, if there still are anyone who wants to see it finished.

In my life I had argued with both Charlie and Reneé many times, probably more than I could even count. It had been everything from cooking, to sleepover at a friend and going to my first school dance ever. On the last subject I had been the one who needed to be persuaded.

But I had never imagined myself arguing about….

"Come on Bella they will look so wonderful on you and they will enhance your stance!"

"Alice I've told you, there is no way I'm wearing high heels when I'm going to meet a gang of teenage boys who can burst into giant wolves at any moment!" I was trying to give her my best glare, but from the way Alice rolled her eyes at me I was apparently not doing a very good job.

"You said yourself that you trust them so it's not like you will have to run away, just wear the shoes Bella!"

"I am not wearing those shoes Alice, I'm blind and I would trip over my feet and kill myself." At this Alice huffed loudly as I heard Emmett's laugh coming from the living room.

"Yeah like that would ever happen, but seriously Alice give Bella a brake, if she does not want to wear the shoes, she is not wearing the shoes." Rose finally spoke up from where she was seated on Alice's bed with her legs crossed and a huge grin on her face. Something told me her amusement came from Alice's obvious failure to get her will through.

"Fine then, but don't blame me for bad fashion." Alice threw the heels into her closet before she stalked down the stairs as Rose and I shared a grin.

"She'll be back in ten minutes." Rose said before rising from the bed and running down to throw herself into Emmett's waiting arms. My focus however was shifted as I felt the presence of the only person in the world that I would always sense first, the one my focus would always shift to.

As his strong cold arms encircled me I hugged him back and laid my head to rest against his chest, his still heart was still bothering me the slightest, for how could anyone who was so full of life not be truly alive?

"So Alice has finally seen herself defeated?" I just nodded my head a little as Edward rested his chin on top my head. I felt him closing his eyes and I heard how he breathed in my sent, just as I was breathing in his. How I had been able to live eighteen years without his sent, without him, I did no longer know, the concept unimaginable.

"I do not like this Bella, I do not want you to go." I heard the distress in his voice and I hugged him a little harder.

"I trust them Edward, with all my heart I trust them. They are my family, just like all of you."

"I could not bear to lose you Bella."

"My heart and soul belongs to you Edward and I cannot live without my heart or my soul, I will always come back to you, no matter what." Drawing back a little I kissed him featherlight before we resumed our previous stance. The simple closeness to each other was all that was truly desired in that moment, the feeling of love that seemed to surround us both.

Then the moment to leave came. The weather had changed during the night, the dark clouds had disappeared from the sky and the sun had graced Forks with its presence for another day. This had meant that the earlier plans that Sam would pick me up outside Forks High had been cancelled, instead I had called him this morning, our new meeting place being mine and Edward's meadow where we all had clashed together yesterday.

All of the Cullen family were accompanying me to meet with Sam, I had told them that they were being ridiculous, but since I could understand how they felt, my attempts to force them to stay at home had only been half hearted.

So now we were all moving through the forest, me being riding on Edward's back as I now always did when we were going someplace and there was no need to take his car. As we reached the meadow, I felt how thick the tension was in the air and I felt sorry for poor Jasper, I could tell he did not show any discomfort, but his body was as frozen as the marble the vampire skin often felt like.

As I jumped down on the ground I relished in the feel of the soft grass under my bare feet and I could tell Alice shook her head a little as she threw me a glance and smiled a little.

So now I was forgiven.

Then I felt him. Sam was standing on the opposite side of us and he was alone just as he had promised. He was in the form of his wolf, he was also standing hidden in the vegetation and I felt that none of the Cullen's had seen him yet. Surely they could smell him, but they had not seen him.

"Sam is already here." I said pointing towards where my old friend finally came out from where he had stood and probably evaluated the situation.

"Damn Bellie." I heard Emmett murmur as he stared at me, the rest of the Cullen's doing the same. Well Edward didn't, he was simply holding his arms around me from behind, his chin resting against the top of my head as it had done this morning.

When he had gone halfway, Sam stopped and laid down, jawing so all of his teeth were visible. I could tell this put the Cullen's a little on the edge.

"He is just reacting to the tension, it is a sign to show that he means no harm." I whispered and I felt the thankful look Sam gave me as his eyes were fixed on me and Edward.

With difficulty, since I did not want to leave him, I stepped out of Edward's arms, but before I walked away I gave him one last peck on his lips. Then I walked past all the vampires which I had come to call my family and into dead man's land until I reached Sam.

When I did I felt his body relaxing and as I drew my fingers through his fur he closed his eyes contently, but I could feel his question when a small giggle escaped me and he opened his eyes to stare at me once more.

"You have turned into quite a softy Sam." I told him, his only response being small groan as he rolled over to his side, landing heavily with a huge huff, causing me to laugh at his antics for this was the older brother I had left behind all those years ago.

I could also feel the tension lifting from across the meadow, Emmett even chuckled a little.

Then Sam rolled around once more so he was back in his original position, motioning with his head that he wanted me to jump up on his back.

"I don't know, am I not too heavy for you?" With a sigh, Sam gently nudged my side until I gave up and carefully climbed onto his back. Once I had a firm grip on his fur he carefully rose from the ground, making sure I could keep my balance.

"So we will meet you back here then at six tonight." Carlisle said as Sam turned to walk away, giving the Cullen's only a small nod, we then started our journey away from my new family and as we walked away I felt their worried stares in my back.

Against my hardest attempts, a tear escaped my eyes as I disappeared deeper into the woods.

As we travelled through the forest, I felt more relaxed than I had thought I would do riding a giant wolf, but Sam's movements were extremely fluid, his paws only making the smallest of sounds as he walked over the forest floor.

Unlike when I travelled with Edward, the animals of the forest did not run away from Sam. Instead it was as full of life as it was when I walked it alone and feeling a little tired, I closed my eyes and leaned forward to rest my head against Sam's neck as I lost myself in the sounds and my sense of the world.

The melody of the birds singing, the wind in the trees and the chatter from the squirrels turned into the most wonderful of melodies and the feeling of Sam's strong body moving with such grace was rocking me into a state between being awake and asleep.

So when we finally reached La Push, Sam had to once again nudge me with his nose to tell me that it was time for me to jump off. Carefully I sat my feet down on the ground and regained my balance as I felt Sam disappearing into the forest once more to transform back into his human form.

The transformation process was one I never could be able to describe or ever would want to describe to anyone. All the limbs and bones…. let's just say it probably hurt as hell.

But when he came back he was once again my Sam and when he gave me a big hug, I allowed him to do so without hesitation.

"It's good to see you in one piece Bella, I am very sorry about your arm, does it hurt?" His voice and eyes were full of concern as he stared down at me.

"I have been trough worse." I told him with a grin as I lightly punched his arm before walking towards Billy's house where I could feel that the rest of the group was gathered.

To be honest my arm had hurt like hell in the morning and although Carlisle had given me some heavy painkillers, it was still stinging.

Sam did not, however, deserve to feel bad about my current state, he was not to blame. If anyone should feel sorry it was Jacob.

When we reached the house I felt how Emily came rushing out the porch and I barely had the time to move as she darted past me and threw her arms around Sam, her relief so clear on her face that I felt a little sorry for how much worry this whole ordeal must have put her through.

Knowing that the couple needed the privacy I walked into the house and just like last time I was greeted with smiles and hugs. But this time the happiness in the air was mixed with the clear relief at seeing me at all.

The only one who did not join in welcoming me was Jake, who was sitting at the dinner table, staring at me. I was trying to read him as well as I could, but to my frustration I found that I couldn't.

"It is good to have you here back with us Bella."

"I am glad to be here uncle Billy, I really am." I told him and was rewarded with a warm smile as I sat down on the chair next to him as Sam and Emily entered the house.

For a moment, the silence hung heavy, no one knowing where to begin as they all were looking at me a little wary as if they were afraid I would combust in any moment. The only one who seemed at ease was Billy.

"I am not going to explode you know, I have left that for you." At my dry tone most of the wolves snickered.

"Sorry Bells, just trying to see if the leeches have rubbed of off you." Quill said with a grin.

"First of all they are not leeches, they are vampires, and secondly, if you guys have not rubbed off on me after growing up with you, I hardly think the Cullen's will be able to rub off on me at all."

"Ouch, that hurt little one". Embry said as he placed a hand over his heart, trying to fake hurt in his voice.

"As if any woman has ever been able to hurt your ego you big buff."

And just like that the awkwardness had disappeared, soon the laughter and loud voices were filling the house once more. As the day kept on moving, Bella answered all the questions the wolves had about the Cullen's and her relationship with Edward. Even though she did not like telling them everything, she knew that openness was the only thing that her friends would accept from her for if she did lie they would believe that she was hiding something.

In the end she could tell that even though they did not approve of her relationship, they still somehow seemed to accept it, even beginning to throw in a few jokes and teasing her as they always did with each other.

In return she got to learn about how her childhood friends had started to turn into wolves, she was amazed at the story uncle Billy told her about their ancestors, but upon learning that the Cullen's were the reason why all of their lives had been turned upside down she felt a pang of sorrow and compassion towards her friends.

The only one who still did not join in the conversation however, was Jacob. In the end Neisse walked over to him she could hear the quiet heated situation between them in which Nessie told Jake that he was acting like a small child.

But when Quill asked Bella how it felt to make out with a stone, causing her to glare at him, Jake suddenly rose from his seat, his whole body shaking.

"Can you all not just stop?!" At his growling demanding voice the whole room fell silent as all eyes turned towards Jake. "Can all of you not hear how sick this is sounding?! They are VAMPIRES! Have you all forgotten that our people are destined to fight them for a reason?!"

"Calm down Jake." Billy said looking at his son, his voice harsh.

"No, you are just as much of a hypocrite as everyone else in this room."

"What is your problem Jake, I know that your people are destined to hate vampires and I understand that, I will not try to change that, but therefore I also expect you to tell me how you all feel. I want this to work." I said.

"You want me to tell you what is bothering me Bella?! What is bothering me is that you are spending more time with couple of leeches than your own father. It is bothering me to know that at any moment that bloody thing you think you love could snap your neck easier than you can kill a fly. It bothers me that they could drain you from your blood in a matter of minutes and I hate to know that you are obviously too blind to see any of this."

"Well I am blind if you do not remember Jake." I felt the anger rising in my chest and I was trying to hold it down.

"You know what, I think you really are, at least when it come to your sense!"

"Are you calling me stupid?!"

"No I am calling you naïve and I am saying that you do not know what is best for you!"

"JAKE!" Billy's and Sam's voice cut through the air but I had finally had enough.

"Jacob! You do not know the Cullen's and you do not know Edward Jacob! I don't even think you know me for how dare you to call me naïve! I have gone to hell and back in the past years Jacob, I was trying to kill myself because I felt as if no one listened to me and since no one allowed me any freedom! Unlike what you think, Edward would rather die than allowing anything to happen to me, unlike you HE TRUSTS ME!

Do you have any idea how it pained him when I left today?! He begged me not to go but he understood why I needed to do this and he let me go, because he trusts me and because he trusts that I can take care of myself, but most of all he loves me!" Jacob flinched at my words and began to shake but I did not care, without thinking I rose and stalked over to him.

"Bella he cannot…"

"Yes he can Jacob, he loves me and I love him! He may be a vampire, his skin may be cold and his heart may not beat but he is more alive than most humans I have ever met and I love him for that!"

"But what about Charlie Bella?"

"Charlie can take care of himself, I cannot be his little girl forever!"

"You really are blind to their charms, or have you planned to stay a human forever?!" Jake was still shaking and I sensed how the room had gone deadly quiet, but my mind was elsewhere.

Edward had never asked me if wanted to become a vampire, for some reason we had never disused it and I had never thought about it. Could I really leave my mom and dad behind, leave Jake and La Push, Angela and Ben?

On some level I knew it was going to hurt to never see them again, the Cullen's had told me everything about newborn vampires and I knew that we all would have to leave isolated for at least two years after my change.

But the mere thought of not spending an eternity with Edward, to wither and die of old age… I could not bear to think of the pain he would have to go through and I felt my heart breaking when thinking of never seeing him again.

Despite the loss, there really was no choice to make at all.

"No I haven't."

Perhaps if I had paid more attention to how close Jacob's wolf was to the surface, or perhaps if I hadn't been so distracted by the weight of my choice, I had been able to move out of the way. Instead I suddenly felt as if an explosion of force came towards me and a ripping sound echoed in my mind before all I felt was pain.

The pain however only lasted for a second before the whole world around me disappeared and I fell into nothingness.

Do not hate Jacob to much, he truly only loves and cares for Bella deeply, he simply is to overprotecting.

Please leave a comment, it is what gives me the push I need to keep going!

Love Lysistrate