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The sentences in Khuzdul are in Bold Italic.
My headcanon of The Hobbit is Bilbo sings a lot and has many nightmares, so during the fic I will put many of the songs that appeared in The Hobbit and LOTR, both in books and in the movies. If you have any requests leave me a comment.
The song of this chapter is Ed Sheeran - Kiss Me, I found it very suitable for this chapter. I changed a few words to be adequate.
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I hope you like the chapter: D
During the night I felt like big arms were around me. I never before had felt so secure.
I felt those big arms when I was waking up. I was slowly opening my eyes and the first thing I saw was Thorin's sleeping face before me. He seemed peaceful and gentle... He was surrounding me with his arms and I also was surrounding him, curled against his chest. I do not know how long I was watching him breathe without moving. 80 years ago I would have never dared to approach so close to him...
When the first light came in and lit the room, Thorin began to wake up. I did not know what to say so I pretended to be asleep before he opened his eyes. A few minutes later I noticed as his hands roamed my hair gently. I let out a little moan at the touch and then he stopped touching me. "Shit" I thought to my self when those arms stopped surrounding me, but I was still leaning against his chest and and my arms were still around his waist. Slowly I opened my eyes and smiled a little embarrassed. "G'morning" I said sleepily and he smiled.
"Good morning, Bilbo." Thorin said looking into my eyes. I closed my eyes and I snuggled against him. I felt as Thorin did not know what to do, but I had been wanted to be as close as then to him for so long... "I did not know hobbits were cuddles." Thorin said whispering, really tense.
I let out a sigh and I let him. I looked up at him and I was a little flushed. "Hobbits we like physical contact with family, friends, and others..."
Thorin again raised an eyebrow which I had already named it The Questioning Eyebrow and sat on the bed, stretching. "And do you have as you call others waiting for you to snuggle with you, Master Baggins?" His tone was neutral, but I could see a glimpse of something more that I did not recognize then.
"N-No... I have no one." I looked away and got up from the bed. "It's been a long time since I cuddled with someone, sorry if I had upset you, Your Highness." And with that I went to the kitchen leaving Thorin sitting in my bed. I missed having little Frodo in my arms and tell him stories about dragons and dwarves' kingdoms, many years had passed without hugging Frodo in my bed but the night before my.. Set off? Death?, Frodo that night and I curled up in my bed and we told stories until we fell asleep. I took the little food that was left for breakfast and I heard someone approaching.
"Sorry..." Thorin said without me turning. "I just ... I did not expect that level of intimacy. For dwarves it is a very intimate thing, but I see now that hobbits have others habits and I'm sorry I reacted bad to it, I did not know. "
I turned, I smiled and shook my head. Thorin was already dressed while I was still in my pajamas "I'm sorry too, I should no had cuddle you, dwarves... to you is not something as normal as for hobbits..." And actually the hobbits never huddle with someone like that in bed, but seeing Thorin like that and the fact he did not know my customs I could lie a little.
Thorin nodded and told me uncomfortable. "I'll see how the ponies are. We'll leave as soon as we eat breakfast. "
"Would you let me write a few things? Just in case..."
Thorin crossed his arms. "Sure... if you need anything let me know." He went off the kitchen and I smiled. Maybe this time we could become more than friends whispered my mind, still not altered by the ring, but I threw away those thoughts out of my mind and I concentrated on breakfast. I started cooking with my back to the door while I sang a song of many that I wrote after arriving from Erebor, which I was now improving. I did not realize that the Company had awakened and they were arriving one by one to the kitchen to hear me, including Gandalf and Thorin. I'm still thinking about it and I do not get how is that I did not heard them.
Settle down with me
Cover me up
Cuddle me in
Lie down with me
And hold me in your arms
And your heart's against my chest, your lips pressed to my neck
I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet
And with a feeling I'll forget, I'm in love now
Kiss me like you wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
This feels like falling in love
Falling in love
I'm falling in love
Settle down with me
And I'll be your safety
You'll be my mate
I was made to keep your body warm
But I'm cold as the wind blows so hold me in your arms
Oh no
My heart's against your chest, your lips pressed to my neck
I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet
And with this feeling I'll forget, I'm in love now
Kiss me like you wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
This feels like falling in love
Falling in love
I'm falling in love
Yeah
I've been feeling everything
From hate to love
From love to lust
From lust to truth
I guess that's how I know you
So I hold you close to help you give it up
So kiss me like you wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
This feels like falling in love
Falling in love
I'm falling in love
Kiss me like you wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
You wanna be loved
This feels like falling in love
Falling in love
I have fallen in love
I smiled to myself as I turned to go to my study to write the song, and I almost had a heart attack when I saw that they all were there watching me. "I-I..." I blushed but Bofur cheered and the rest did it too, which made me blush more.
"What a beautiful song Mister Bilbo." Balin said while the rest began to take the food I had prepared. "Is it for someone in particular?"
I nodded but I did not look up to look at Thorin sp I kept looking down. "Is about that dwarf you spoke of?" Bofur said as his mouth was full of sandwich.
"Something like that..." I mumbled and went to my studio to write the song and pick what I wanted to take to the trip. I realized that there was no recorded songs in my old notebook, now almost new, and I decided that I would write them on the journey to Erebor. I also began to write my will, leaving everything to my cousin Drogo, future father of Frodo. I also wrote a letter to the Thain, my grandfather, explaining the trip, saying that if I did not return to the Shire or if they did not knew of me in less than two years, my will would be valid and they could assume me dead. When I returned to the kitchen still in my pajamas and with the cards in my hand I witness again as my dwarves were flying food from side to side of the table while Gandalf laughed. "Hey!" I screamed and all got into the position they were in, some very comical as Kili standing with his hand full of food and his face full of cream. "I will not tolerate any of this food go to waste, so all... this cease, you will behave like you are not children and you will eat!" Whispers were heard like "Yes, mister Bilbo." and "Sorry, mister Bilbo."
I looked at Thorin who was smiling to the Company and then to me. When I approached him he whispered. "It's amazing how they tame you ... I raised Fili and Kili and they have never done that."
I laughed and grabbed a piece of pie from his plate. "I raised all my cousins and many of my second cousins, which makes me now know how to controle them."
Thorin wrinkled his nose when I stole his pie. "Burglar, what you must steal is in the mountain, not on my plate."
I laughed and I almost choked. "I'm a burglar, it is my duty to steal things." I stole another piece of pie and I left smiling before he could complain. I approached to Balin who was talking to Dwalin.
I waited for them to stop talking when I heard Kili whisper to his uncle. "Thorin, how was the night in Bilbo's bed, was it nice? I see he still can walk straight." I coughed and almost choke. I heard the little one of the line of Durin laugh as Thorin gave him in the head.
Thorin then spoke in Khuzdul, language I had learned in Aman as Sindarin and the Dark language of Mordor. "Kili, you do not ever say such a thing again. Go and prepare the ponies. Now."
I saw Kili go out from the kitchen and I turned to look at Balin who had already finished speaking to his brother who was now speaking with Ori. "Balin ... You could be my witnesses in my will?"
Balin smiled a little, "Sure, kid." He took my will and began to read it. "You do not plan to go back?" He said after reading it and I felt like Thorin's eyes looked at me.
"Prevention is always better than to cure..." I said with a small smile and Balin signed as a witness. "Thank you." I said and went to my room to change my self. I had already removed my shirt when I heard the door open. I turned and it was Thorin. "Thorin? To what do I owe the honor?"
Thorin looked at my body and then looked down. "Just wanted to say that we are ready to go, and... well, I'm sure you will return to the Shire someday." He cleared his throat.
"Thank You. Really. "I said with a smile and he looked at me for a couple of seconds until he excused himself and left.
I finished getting dressed and packed up everything for the trip, including my handkerchief embroidered with the initials BB. I left my home with the letters in my hand and I turned to look at Bag End for the last time. If I could get all dwarves live and defeat Sauron, I was not going back to the Shire, and if I did not I could not return anyway.
Fili and Kili rested on my shoulders while they also looked at Bag End. "We'll protect you so you can return to your home, Bilbo." Said Kili smiling.
"Yes, we and Thorin will not let anything happen to you." Added Fili and I smiled saddly but nodded.
"I also will protect you, I can assure it to you." I replied, and the three follow the rest of dwarves to where the ponies were. First I let the letters in my grandfather's house and hugged him before I left. I also went to see Hamfast which also I said goodbye. There were tears in my eyes when we got up into the ponies, and I still do not know if they were by sadness or fear.
Gandalf stroked my hair. "Do not worry Bilbo, one day you will see your home again."
And I nodded looking at Fili and Kili goofing and Thorin scolding them. Thorin looked back and he looked at me in the eyes. I answered Gandalf looking at Thorin. "Home is where the heart is."
Gandalf looked at me and he looked at Thorin who had stopped looking at me, then Gandalf whispered. "Or with who has your heart."
At that finally sentence I could only smile. Erebor, Asgaroth, Rivendell, Mirkwood, Mordor, Aman... wherever Thorin would go I would go. He was my friend, my home, my heart, and has been always the only one oh who I had suffer the journey of a thousand miles to Erebor.
Bofur, Nori and Ori were the first who began to talk to me about animated stories and embarrassments. Thanks to them I forgot we had already left the Shire, and now there was no turning back.