Hi! I haven't really got any reviews on the last chapter so now I don't know if it was much of a shocker to you guys. This chapter is going to be short and the first one written in someone else's POV so that's cool. Oh and if you can't recognize which scene is Aiden's flashback, it's the last Aimily scene 3x03. I hope you like this, keep reviewing :)
Aiden's POV
It's been a month since my mum died. My mother was so special to me, I remember she was so depressed after my father and my sister were gone and all I've ever wanted for her ever since those days it's for her to be happy. And I feel like I kinda failed, I mean she can't be happy now, she can't even be. And then there's the fact that every memory of us from this past years are gone from my brain, that makes it a whole worse. It's been hard and I really miss her but I've had friends there for me. Nolan checks on me everyday and Niko, well she's been staying with me since the incident. Colleen is acting stranger than usual though, she's nowhere to be seen. I know she's just next door but she doesn't go out anymore, she doesn't visit, she didn't even attend our mother's funeral. Ever since I woke up from my coma I realized that she changed, a lot, she looks different, she acts different, but then again I hadn't seen her since she was eleven. My mind is still really confused, I haven't told anyone but I've had this dreams lately. The dreams usually involve me working as a bartender in some sort of night club, or me hitting and kicking and fighting, but I don't recognize anyone who's around me, never. But they look so real as if they had actually occurred. I don't know though, I don't know anything anymore. I'm taking things slowly, one day at the time.
"Hey you" I say as I catch Niko cooking something downstairs.
"You're up!" She turns around smiling. "I'm making scrambled eggs."
"Mmm, smells good" I step closer to her.
"I know." She says as she wraps her arms around my waist. She closes the space between us and kisses me softly. "How's your leg?" She asks once we part.
"Better, I think I'll be throwing those crutches away very soon." I answer.
"That's so good." She turns to her food again. "Nolan's coming after breakfast." She tells me.
"Okay." I answer and start start setting the table for both of us.
Breakfast ends up being worst than I expected, it smelled good but it definitely doesn't taste good. I obviously faked loving it because Niko's trying her best, but I miss my mum's cooking.
"Hey 007!" I hear the one and only person that can be this cheery in the mornings, Nolan. He enters the kitchen and acknowledges Niko with a nod "Hello Niko"
"Good morning Nolan." She answers simply.
I've noticed that Colleen and Nolan aren't very fond of her but I haven't asked why yet. He sits in the counter and the usual "How are you feeling?"
He's done this ever since my mum's incident, he comes in here early in the morning and asks me how I'm doing. I always start explaining him about how my leg is getting better but we both know he cares more about how I feel emotionally. I've told him I few things but it's still tough for me to talk about my mother.
"I'm breaking up with my crutches." I joke.
He laughs and says "That's good man." He pats my back.
"I'm gonna go get some stuff from my house," Niko speaks up and walks behind me. "I'll be back soon." She kisses my temple.
I turn around and give her a peck on the lips. "See ya"
My gaze goes back to Nolan and I catch him making a disgust face but he covers it with a smile quickly.
Once Niko is outside the house, I ask "You don't like her, do you?"
"What? Pff I adore her." He brushes it off.
"O'cmon Nolan, aren't we supposed to be buddies? Tell me the truth."
"I just don't loove her because things ended badly when you guys broke up, that's all." He answers. "And don't change subjects, how you holding up?"
"I'm fine, I'm fine." It's my turn to brush it off. "I actually wanted to ask you something's about my past, I've been thinking about that a lot lately."
"How come?" He says.
"Well I've been having these dreams, or at least I think they're dreams, about me in certain places that I don't remember but the look so real."
He face expressions tell me that he's interested in what I'm saying. "Dreams?"
"Yeah, like for example, there's one where I'm at a night club and I'm working as a bartender. It's confusing because they're usually fuzzy so I haven't been able to recognize anyone." I explain.
"Is it always the same dream? Does it ever change?" He asks.
"There's two of them. One, is the bartender one, and there other is a little different." I answer. "I'm always fighting with someone, but it's like, it's like we were trained because we are good at it."
"Do you recognize this someone?"
"No, its never the same person though. But this dreams, they don't feel..." I trace off trying to find the right words.
"They don't feel..." He says.
"Dreamlike." I look at him and I can see he still doesn't get it. "These dreams feel real, they feel so real. Do you think that they could be..."
"Real?" He adds. "You think your mind is remembering in some sort of way?"
I thinks about it for a minute. What if my mind is trying to tell me something? What if my mind is starting to remember? "Why not?" I answer.
A strange look forms in his face, I can't quite get if it's fear or concern. Why would it be fear? I'm going with concern, he must be concerned about this.
"So I wanted to ask you for help, I'm gonna tell you my dreams from now on and you'll tell me if I ever mentioned something like that to you or if you know it happened." I tell him.
"Yes of course, you tell me every single dream, okay?" Nolan says just as his phone rings.
I nod and motion him to answer his phone.
He does by saying "Hey, I'm at my friend's right now, can we talk later?"
He listens for a few seconds. "Okay, okay, fine." And with that he hungs up. "I have to go my work is calling, I'm sorry." He tells me.
"Nono, that's okay." I give him a reassuring smile. "Niko'll be back soon anyway"
"Yeah but if you need anything just call." He walks towards the door. "Don't forget to tell me everything about your dreams Bond!"
He leaves and I quickly head back to my room. I put on a sweatshirt and a pair of black sweatpants. Niko's not going to be back in a while so I'm gonna go try to walk on my own. I'm sick and tired of wearing crutches and every time she's gone I walk without them around the house, but I think it's time to go out. I walk down the stairs and then out the door and my leg hurts a little but I suck it up. I walk my way to the beach perfectly, then I continue and as my leg gets more and more comfortable I start slightly jogging. I stare at the ocean, I don't know if the old me liked the beach but I just feel so happy right now. Does it hurt? Yeah. Is the pain worth it? Yes, definitely. This place looks so familiar. Was it part of my gone memory?
Flashback
I'm walking towards her in the beach. She's kneeled down staring at something, a journal or something like that. Her golden locks fall down her shoulders as she now stares at the ocean. I reach her, kneel down behind her and just as I'm about to talk, everything starts fading.
Colleen, it was Colleen. What the hell? Why did it fade away? Why won't my brain aloud me to remember more?
The beach...it was this one, it looks exactly the same. I would call Nolan and tell him about this but he's busy with his job right now.
Everything is so confusing, I can't understand how my mind can shut off some parts of my life and remember others. I don't remember Niko, or Nolan, or that friend of his Jack. I remember my best friend being Sam. The last girlfriend I remember having is Jessica. I remember leaving my home in Liverpool to find Colleen. And after that I was on my own, no friends, no family. But it's around that time that my memories stop and everything else is gone. It's hard not to remember because I feel, I feel like I'm not, I don't know who I am. Everyone knows who I am but myself. I don't know how to act with people because I don't know who they are, I don't know if I used to like them or not. I stare at the manor as I jog. I wanna talk to Colleen again, I like talking to her, but she's been avoiding all of my calls. I even went to the manor twice and she didn't open the door, but I know she's there because I caught her staring at the beach house from her balcony. I miss her, I miss talking to her and laughing with her. Nolan told me she's just going through a hard time with our mother's death, that I shouldn't worry, but I can't do that. There's something about her that makes me wanna help her, I don't want her to go through this alone, I wanna be there for her. I can't help but worry. It's normal for a brother to care about their family members, right? But she won't give me the time of the day.
My phone startles me as it starts ringing. I take a look at the screen and answer "Hey babe"
"Hi baby" Niko replies. "Look something came up and I have to take care of it. I'm not sure I'll be back for dinner."
"That's fine, you go do your things. I'll be here waiting for you."
"Okay thanks. Call me if you need anything or if your legs hurts or whatever." She says.
"I'll fine but thank you." I answer.
"Okay then, I love you." She waits for answer.
It comes out so naturally out of her mouth, I love you. But that's just not me, at least not yet. I'm taking things slowly and I like it that way.
"Bye, see ya soon" I say sweetly and hung up.
I return to the beach house, get a quick cold shower and change clothes. I'm so bored of staying home all day. Maybe I should get a job? But I don't wanna work as a waiter or a receptionist or something like that. I don't know, I just have this feeling that I used to be a more physical person. I actually like jogging and running. Maybe I worked out a lot or I trained for something, that'd explain my dream. I turn the TV on and throw myself in the bed. My days lately have pretty much involved hanging out with Niko, watching TV, walking around the house, reading the newspaper and watching more TV. I have found some job ideas but I can't find the right one. I should ask Nolan for help, or maybe not, he's been al about me since my mum died and he might be exhausted. I grab the newspaper from the nightstand and start searching for jobs. Waiter at a local café, officer, supervisor, firefighter, chef, restaurant general manager, builder, clown (wtf), dog groomer, housekeeper, butcher, executive director of crap, crap and more crap. Nothing interesting, I mean clown, really? I keep looking through the page until something finally catches my attention, military recruitment. That sounds dangerous but I kinda like it. It's physical, proactive and incredibly important. I know it's a big thing and I'm just considering the option. Pros are; it includes a lot of physical activity, I can help the society and it's a job. Cons are; it's dangerous, hard working and incredibly strict. But what can I loose? I don't remember anything or anyone, my mum's gone, my past is gone, Colleen is practically out of the picture. This is stupid, how can I even consider this? Should I consider this? It's a full time job meaning it's going to be hard and long and lonely. And I'll get to protect the country, protect my family, protect Colleen. Mmm I may have to think about it more though, it's a big decision. I'll talk about it later with Nolan and Niko, for now I'm just going to cut out the advertisement. My mum would be proud though, she always dreamed of me working in the military forces when I grew up. I still have to take care of her stuff, I gotta sell her house, get all her things here and distribute them with Colleen, pay for her funeral arrangements, and there are many other sad things that have to be done. She only brought two suitcases to the Hamptons, everything else is in Liverpool. Maybe I'm gonna have to travel, I'll have to go back there eventually anyway. If only Colleen wasn't acting so weird, I would ask her to go with me. I'll start looking for flights today, I should leave next week or i two weeks. I'm going to call my doctor to see if I'm ready to travel and all but I'm positive that this trip is the best way to get everything done quickly. So that's what I do all day; I search for jobs and cheap tickets to England.
I know it's short, sorry. I hope you liked it and please review!