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Rory watched him go, she grabbed a shirt from her luggage and folded it over her hand. She twisted the soft fabric In her hands and she sat down on the bed and looked towards the door. She felt a tear trail down her face. How had she gotten herself here. Pregnant and alone. Or maybe not alone. She looked towards the closed door again. She felt so lost. She placed her hand over her stomach. "We'll make." She whispered.

She must have fallen asleep because next thing she remembered was waking up to a knock on the door. "Hey." Jess said coming into the room. "I got some Chinese food why don't you come out and eat."

"Oh sure." Rory sat up wiping the sleep from her eyes. She felt his eyes on her as she made her way out to the living room.

"I got the beef section hope that's okay."

"mmm fine." Rory sat down on the couch pulling some of the food towards herself.

"I got you some egg drop soup. I know you like that."

"Thanks." She took the soup gratefully. "Well it's no Al's but it will work." She joked.

"Yes thankfully it's not Al's." Jess shook his head as they made their way through the mountain of food.

"I'm sorry I know I'm not good company but I'm exhausted. Rory said standing up.

"Of course go and get some sleep I'm surprised Chris and Matt haven't came back yet ah well I'm sure they'll be back at some point." He watched her leave and as the door clicked shut behind her he turned the tv on and tried to stop his mind from spinning by being drowned by the mind dulling of the TV he must have fallen asleep because he was woken up to the tv still on and the sound of someone crying. He slowly stood up from the couch and walked to his door. He leaned against it. He could hear Rory crying inside.

"Rory are you okay?" he called out. She didn't answer so he pushed the door open. "Rory." He looked into the darkness walking towards the bed. "Ror please talk to me." He sat at the edge of the bed and turned the crying Rory towards him. "Please talk to me you're worrying me do you hurt?"

"No." she got out between sobs. "NO I'm fine." She tried to sit up and wipe the tears from her eyes.

"You are not fine you're crying."

She looked at him in the moon splashed room. His hair disheveled and for a moment she could pretend that she was seventeen again. that she was back in her room at the crap shack and that Jess had snuck into her room. She sighed and ran her hand down her face. "I'm sorry."

"There's no need to be sorry just tell me what's wrong."

"Sorry." She whispered she looked at him "I just can't believe how much I've messed up. I'm having a baby by a man who is the carbon copy of my father. I'm going to bring a baby into this world who will go through the same things I did. Wondering why he or she isn't good enough that they aren't loved enough. And then I worry that I won't be good enough that I'll turn into my mother."

"Your mother." Jess was shocked. "Why wouldn't you want to be like Lorelai?"

She shook her head all her childhood memories running through her mind. "She was a good mom she was but only when I was doing as she wanted. I wasn't allowed to make my own mistakes. She joked that I should do things and be things but if I'd ever done them she would have thrown a fit. I did the wrong thing some times. I slept with Dean when he was married "

Jess gasped. Rory looked at him. "I guess you didn't know that." She laughed bitterly. My mother attacked the second she could and I ran to Europe with my grandma. I stole a yacht and I dropped out of Yale but mom couldn't except that I didn't want to be at Yale at that moment. She wanted to yell and fight and tell me how I was wrong instead of talking about it. So I ran to my grandparents again. you know that much though. I'm not saying I'm I wasn't wrong in the things I did but my mom didn't handle them right she wanted me to be perfect and the minuet I wasn't she couldn't handle it. She couldn't handle that I had her in me. Oh the good things she liked the shared eye color, the coffee addiction but when I showed her rebellion she didn't want to see it. She turned into Emily Gilmore my mother is a lot more like my grandmother then she wants to admit and I know I can have that in me and I don't like it. I don't want to do that my child."

"Well Rory Gilmore has a rebel in her after all." Jess tried to joke. He'd known some of the story but not all of it and he wanted to touch back on the Dean topic but he knew now wasn't the time.

She chuckled mirthlessly. "Growing up I had to be perfect. I was more the mother then the child sometimes and I know she tried hard to make it on her own and a part of me admires that and a part of me resents that. I mean we lived in a potting shed for ten years because she wouldn't ask grandma and grandpa for help. And I love my mother I do love her but I just wish she would be better act better. Not pull me into cars and drive to Harvard on the day before her wedding. Not get drunk and ramble at my best friends wedding. Not sleep with my father the night she broke up with Luke and then Marry him only months later. She hated him…"

"Hated who?"

"My father… Logan…. Both of them. But you see it was okay for her to be with my dad but Logan he was never good enough. I'm not saying Logan was perfect or that he's even good but once again she wouldn't see how one was the other. You know I went back to Dean the first time because my mom liked him. She convinced me I shouldn't be afraid to say I love you and I didn't want to disappoint her. So I stayed with him. " she stopped talking and she shook her head. "I'm sorry I shouldn't be telling you all of this. I don't even think I realized I had all of that inside of me."

Jess didn't know why but he pulled her close to him and she buried her head into his chest. "Rory Gilmore you amaze me. I thought I knew you before but who knew all the hurt you had buried deep inside." He held her as she drifted to sleep he held her as he thought of all the things she'd unburdened herself of that night. Knowing there was more knowing that there was still so much for him to learn about Rory Gilmore.

A/N thanks for the review. I know some of you may not like what I had Rory say about Lorelai but I felt it was truthful and unto something else does it drive anyone else crazy that Lorelai lived at the Inn for ten years the inn which isn't far from town. Walking distance Rory and Emily walked there in Emily in wonderland yet it seems Lorelai hadn't met Luke until she moved into the house when Rory was ten. Now I don't know when William died and Luke opened the palce but it was before Lorelai and Rory moved and even if Luke's hadn't been opened she would have known Luke. Mia knew Luke Sookie knew Luke it just doesn't make any sense.